babe

i just realized that zayns last performance with one direction was on march 18th, an exact week before march 25th…and then theres this:

It’s been almost three years since I got this done and it’s still my fave thing ever. I can’t believe I have her tattooed on my body!!!!! Next week it’s gonna nine years since she died, and finally after so many years of crying and just feeling like shit I kinda feel at peace? Idk how to explain it but I know she’s with me,watching over, and guiding me.. and I know that she’s proud of me and of everything I’ve echieved in 2017, especially. I can finally say that I’m the happiest I’ve ever been since she passed away and I feel like having her permanently on my skin makes me feel safe and protected at all times. I’m honestly lucky to have been able to call her my mum and spend 11 years with her. Even if it’s not nearly enough. I should’ve had a lifetime. I’m the luckiest person in to world :)