Taytertots 🎀

You took a ship to the motherland and left me.

And you know how much it meant to me for the love songs to make sense. I remember crying to you about it. And they did. And they do.

*puts finger down*

Wow I'm such a quirky girl! 💁🏻‍♀️

Heyyyy yall miss me?? And by yall I mean exclusively myself because no one reads this and that is PRECISELY why I write shit here.

So wanna hear something crazy?

Me and Kyle broke up. And he's currently being transported to the hospital via ambulance because I called for a wellness check on him because he's experiencing the scariest psychotic break I've ever personally witnessed.

And I've seen a lot.

I was genuinely planning on marrying this man. Having babies with him.

And if he gets help and can return to my sweet boy that I know he actually is, maybe we can move past this. But if this is permanent or if he can't prove that he will do better with managing his meds and health, then idk how I'm gunna feel.

I need sleep.

You would have never shrugged my off in the middle of the night when I needed snuggles.

You would have let me cry and held me.

He didn't know I was crying. But he didn't look either.

I miss you so much it hurts my heart and soul.

It eats at me every day.

I'm missing a part of me and I cannot feel joy the same way.

I do not feel love the same way.

You were my safety AND my peril.

My I need my bb back.

I didn’t care if you were seeing other girls or what the nature of the relationship with them was.

I didnt even care when you got a girlfriend. I even helped you figure out disagreements and stressful situations with her and enjoyed it too.

I didn’t care when you asked if I was okay with this always being friends with benefits.

And I didn’t care that it was weird you only wanted that with me and yet you were pursuing a real relationship with literally every other female you met.

But now I do care.

Because now you say nice things to me and buy me little snacks for my period and think of me and stuff.

And now I’m kinda like well….why did you need this to only be FWB?

Now I kinda feel used now that I know better.

I just want you to be happy and healthy. And that’s all I’ve ever wanted.

Fuck you.

You left me for this shit.

“Pint after pint till the well runs dry. If only you loved me like you love getting high.”

“I can’t let you go. I try but I always know. I wish you was holding me close. Can’t be without you, I’d rather overdose.”

Like it’s actually funny to me that you GENUINELY BELIEVE that I’m the bad guy here.

Allow me to illustrate:

Me: “I want you to healthy and to have my friend back.”

You: “I wish you weren’t so mean and judgmental to me, I have a disease!”

“I hear you. I just hate to see you kill yourself slowly and disrespect everyone around you while you do it.”

“Well YOU have a messy room!”

“This isn’t about me.”

“So now I can’t express my feelings about you but you can about me?”

“I was literally just asking you to consider your well being and that of others around you.”

“WHY DOES EVERYONE LEAVE ME”

Do you get it now?

Grow the fuck up.