Abnormally Perfected

I think I just coughed so hard that my uterus moved

Honestly, I'm so oblivious that when I die, I probably won't even realize for a few days.

13 Reasons Why taught me a great lesson. One that I probably needed before college. I'm a senior. I'm leaving high school. The years have come with pain and suffering but also happiness. I've learned through my own experience that some people can hurt you when they don't even mean to. But that doesn't minimize your feelings. You still felt it whether they meant to make you feel that way or not. What I hadn't considered before was that you can't possibly know how someone else feels. Whether you were mean or did something stupid or said something that was meant as a compliment but was taken the wrong way. Own up. Be considerate. Communication is the issue in this day an age. We all think that with social media and what people post that even if we don't know them that we do. You have to talk to people. Face to face. Sit down and study their body language. You can't know if someone is going to kill themselves of course. I learned that the "warning signs" aren't really valid. Sure they're valid for identifying depression but not always because everyone is different. I know because I've considered suicide before and I hid my emotions until I was alone. But what you CAN DO, what I realized from watching 13 Reasons Why and comparing it to myself at my lowest points, is just be a part of a support system. Clay had Jeff. He "forced" him to be social. Like Hannah said being lonely is horrible. Whether you like being alone or not, having some social interactions keep you from being LONELY. But it needs to be more than that. We need someone we can share our deepest thoughts, fears, desires, and emotions with. That's the kind of support system that people need. To have a safe person they know they always can confide in. For some people, they have their parents. But we see that Justin didn't. He came to rely on Bryce which wasn't good for him either. Genuinely and wholeheartedly be there for someone. That's what I learned.

Ya know what sucks? Crying at a wedding not because it was so beautiful but because being reminded of love makes you miss what you thought you had.

I don't ask for much I don't even ask for happiness I just ask to be okay But apparently that's too much Too

Ya know I really disagree with some people's political stances on welfare issues like I was talking to this woman the other day and I'm just like OF COURSE the government should require you to provide food in my house. Why?!? Because you're my mother and I'm a minor!