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I try not to take pictures much because when I smile, everybody wants to know why I’m smiling sooo, hard. But when I don’t smile everybody wants to know why have such a cold heart. They say your eyes are your window to the soul and your smile is a projection of your inner feelings but that’s deceiving. What do you really see when you look through me? Because my soul is bleeding..leaking contents of all the trauma that haunts my subconscious. And I smile with my eyes y’all but the pain that pools inside them threatening to reveal my true state of mind does not appear crimson. And the tears that escape my false imprisonment remain translucent so tell me.. What’s the big issue with showing a little dimple? #spilledink #diaryofataintedliberator #2peat https://www.instagram.com/p/ByVS-RqjNuLRBBvkVZHD6ulqz0Db683xTjfh9w0/?igshid=1oem0c07s7n2c

I am, a survivor. Cringing at the idea of your touch yet impatiently awaiting the warmth of your company. When you enter my realm I feel violated, stripped of my dignity and violently raped. Survivor.. In this case, why do I always invite you in you ask? What will it take for me to drop my guard and allow your true colors to paint the edges of my soul? I’m surviving. She who laughs last laughs best and.. I must say your sense of humor intertwines with mine. Surviving.. Over time I’ve learned that everything that glitters ain’t gold. Yet still, I take every step across the rainbow with hopes of stumbling across that pot of gold the saying promised me. Survival of the fittest.. Equipped with state of the art armor. Delicately crafted from every single piece of my past that’s inflicted pain upon my existence. If what don’t kill you makes you stronger then at this point, I really need nothing more than my stress ridden smile and my ten toes down. Chin up, chest out Survivor. My daily mantra as I prepare to take on your manipulative ways Forcing me to experience euphoric feelings to mask your ulterior motives.. #poetryisnotdead #neitherami #spilledink #offdays #whosyourdaddy #poetsofinstagram #poetry #mindelevation https://www.instagram.com/p/ByS9ntCj8ZNrhDA6ms442GTTmf7J4vRh5ivqt00/?igshid=gfi8cj45fzq7

#poetry #writersofinstagram #spilledink #poetryisnotdead #wordporn #writersblocksucks 🤯🤯 I’m trying to dig myself out of the dark 😅 https://www.instagram.com/p/BxIFGuzD-uA0J6s8JQsOZUAnPxo3uaXeRSlPLA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1aol14cwf60y7

Things will be done, words will be said, feelings will be hurt, tears will fall..and through it all..EVERYTHING..will be..just.fine. #mindelevation

I AM the epitome of complication. I can give you 9 reasons to love me, Accompanied with 1 major reason to pass me by. I AM the epitome of unconditional love. You can give me 9 reasons not to love you, I’ll just give you 1 major reason why you should let me. I AM the epitome of contradiction. I can give you 9 reasons to oppose something, Then give you 1 major reason why I support it. I AM the epitome of understanding. I can see 9 reasons why people judge what you do, And plead your case with one major reason why it’s all justifiable. I AM a complicated, unconditional lover with contradicting ways and an understanding nature. #spilledink #poetryisnotdead #knowyourself #loveyourself #mindelevation

I wish I could return to the day when “I’m good” became embedded in brain I wish I was there to witness whatever entity I was tussling with put the gun in my mouth and say “You better bite this bullet”. Most frequent lie I’ve ever told “I’m good”..tuh

Against you.

Mind. Elevation.