Fandom: Bungo Stray
Title: Jinko, prepare for my absence
Writer: aoibb
Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/54561532
Status: Incomplete
Main Characters: Akutagawa, Atsushi
Description: Atsushi and Akutagawa go into the detective agency and meets some of the members
i'm actually reading this so let me post my thoughts here ... when this gets completed i'll probably update this post. nobody asked for this but whatever, just if anyone wants to read this with me (like a fanfic mukbang???)
and if you're wondering. YES I DID MAKE THIS POST WHILE READING THE FANFIC (that's why i copy pasted some of the moments so i can react to them).
anyways thoughts time !!! ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ <3
title: when i saw the title i thought it was pretty intriguing, it just sounds so angsty and i don't know why but i started feeling some kind of dread just thinking about it.
summary: chills. literal chills. got me soo interested in reading the actual fic.
ok so let me get to the actual fanfic.
chapter 1. bad omens
summary: ok damn the summary is literally making me worried already ... 😭😭
But when you take a bone from a dog, it may become aggressive and do anything to get it back. The same can be said for if you take a sister from her brother.
aaaa i love that line sooo much, literally the descriptions fit akutagawa soo well ... like the dog thing and the brother thing-- it's just so good
His sister is the one thing that he will place above getting Dazai's approval.
OUCH. THAT IS BRUTAL 😭😭😭
She's prepared to let out a stream of insults, but she recognised the man in black with the atrocious haircut.
helpp .. author ... you did not with the haircut roast .. also higuchi you are so real for this
Mori tilted his head, a faked shocked expression plastered on his face. "I didn't think it mattered. Losing a singular member does not cause much harm to our organisation." Akutagawa, too overcome with rage, did not realise he was being manipulated.
OH DANG. THE MORIPULATION IS REALL WITH THIS ONE
"But look on the bright side, Akutagawa. Now there will be no one to hold you back." Gin never held him back, did she? He did make sure he wasnt too reckless while he was out on missions, to ensure he'd still be around to look after her. She was his moral compass, and kept him grounded. He supposed that, in a way, she ensured that he did not kill much anymore, but that was mostly because of the promise he made with the weretiger.
sheesh ... this is slicing my heart open
He hurries out the door, unaware of the tragedy that would soon occur.
oh no. this is bad .... 😭😭
overall thoughts for chapter 1: it's pretty short but there are more chapters anyways soo ... anyways this is really anxiety inducing and i'm just worried for akutagawa and gin the whole time, but at the same time i'm very curious on what would happen next ... ALSO WHAT IS WITH ALL THE FORESHADOWING??? I HATE IT IT'S MAKING ME SO DAMN WORRIED
chapter 2. bloodbath
summary: oh damn, this is where things get interesting
If Akutagawa's thoughts were a bit more coherent, he would have orchestrated a plan; “Get in, Grab Gin, Get out.” Unfortunately for his enemies, his mind was clouded with rage. The only thought going through his head was “revenge”. If he were to put his current “plan” into words, it would be “kill anyone in my way, get Gin, (maybe) kill everyone else”. It wasn't the best plan, was it? Especially so, considering his promise with the weretiger.But that didn't matter to him right now. Gin was the only person he cared about, and he wasn't going to let anyone take his sister from him.
damn akutagawa. damn. he's so dedicated to protecting his only family, gin 😭😭😭😭😭
The question was: why were two guards, obviously lacking in experience, armed with simple pistols protecting this organisations base on the front lines? It's like they were begging him to break in. Akutagawa had no time, nor was he in the mindset for, such suspicions.
OH UHM. UHM???? BRO I'M SO WORRIED. i swear if his current mood will be the thing that ends up hurting him or something, i'm gonna cry.
This warehouse was one of the places where Dazai trained him. This is where Dazai kicked him like three meters, causing him to spit up blood. This was where Dazai ranted about how useless Akutagawa and his ability was. This was where Dazai yelled at him for being too reckless. He began breathing heavily. However, his little PTSD moment was cut short, by a voice calling out his name.
this went from bad to worse, holy crap.
This man had Gin. And he had a gun.
NO. WHAT. WHYY. i mean i knew this was coming because of all the foreshadowing but it still makes me so .... 😭😭
The man frowned. “You really are a blade without a sheath. You could have been civil about this, talked to me. But you chose to slaughter my men. If you had tried reasoning with me, I would have considered sparing your sister. This is your fault.”
this actually reminds me of beast where atsushi tells akutagawa something similar ... ouch
“GIN!!!” he screamed, scrambling forward. The man smirked, a knife flashing from his sleeve, and he… Slits Gins Throat.
HUH. wait i didn't expect her to actually get killed??? someone tell me this isn't real. is this akutagawa's nightmare or something please i don't want this to be real
OH WAIT IT PROBABLY IS... THAT'S WHY THE FORESHADOWING WAS LITERALLY EVERYWHERE 😭😭
He climbs the stairs of his apartment building. He stops when he sees a man in black sitting outside his door, hugging his knees, drenched in blood. “Akutagawa??? Is that you????”
NO. WAIT IT'S REAL, IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED, SHE ACTUALLY DIED??? all his life he's tried to protect the people he loved and he ultimately faile- uhm anyways, akutagawa that's a really pathetic pose... have you become wea-
ok let me stop because this will finally be the shin soukoku moment i've been waiting for.
overall thoughts for chapter 2: i'm pretty sure this made me have some kind of dread ... because the way everything happened so quickly, even when i tried reading it slowly. this whole chapter i knew something bad was going to happen due to all the foreshadowing, but reading it right with my eyes and imagining how the scene would play in my head... gosh it was painful.
i just want to know what will happen next (it's probably going to be shin soukoku), and i hope things turn out better for akutagawa BECAUSE MY MAN IS TRAUMATIZED.
chapter 3. If I show my fangs will you tell me that they're cool?
summary: WOOHOO FINALLY SHIN SOUKOKU !!! i mean oh, this will be so angsty and i'm gonna cry or whatever
Akutagawa looked up at him. “I left the Port Mafia.”
woAh, that escalated quickly. i wonder what akutagawa will do after this, though ...
"Akutagawa? Are you alright in there?” For a moment, there was only silence. "I'm fine, weretiger“ he said in his usual tone of voice, but his voice was shaky, and full of guilt. As if he had done something wrong, something the weretiger wouldn't approve of, perhaps something self-destructive.
ATSUSHI YOU KNOW DAMN WELL WHAT TO DO, GO COMFORT YOUR BF !!!
"Fine. Imma make some ochazuke while I wait for your coat to be done in the washing machine. I'll leave it outside and then I expect you to come out and give me an explanation.” He turned around to leave. "Thank you…” muttered Akutagawa. Atsushi's ears perked up at this rare statement. " ... WHAT did you just say to me?” “ I SAID NOTHING WERETIGER YOU'RE IMAGINING THINGS” Atsushi laughed to himself as he returned to the kitchen.
haha omg akutagawa is such a tsundere ... they're so cuteee 😭😭
“Show me your fangs weretiger.” Atsushi jumped at the sudden demand, but obliged. He opened his mouth so that his fangs were on display. He was prepared for an insult, or for Akutagawa to get up and leave. But his reaction was not what Atsushi expected. “I think they’re cool…” Akutagawa muttered. Atsushi perked up, closing his mouth and his cheeks flushed red. “Really???” Akutagawa looked away. “Forget that I said anything.”
ohh, this is what the chapter title was about ... also atsushi having fangs is so canon to me <3
Akutagawa looked down at his hands in his lap. “My sister was murdered.” Atsushi immediately leapt out of his seat and grabbed Akutagawa’s hands, attempting to comfort him. His mouth was agape in shock, wasn’t his sister an assassin? Couldn’t she have protected herself? Once Akutagawa felt Atsushi’s hands clasp his own, he looked up at the weretiger, tears brimming in his eyes. “Shit.” he thought. “Don’t let yourself appear vulnerable, Ryuunosuke.”
nah, the fact that akutagawa is still thinking about not letting his guard down ...also woohoo atsushi you are an A+ boyfriend !!
“I was so overcome with rage that someone would dare take my sister from me. I just got rid of anyone that got in my way.” He wipes at his eyes, still not meeting Atsushi’s gaze. “I’m still full of rage now, and I… hate that I didn’t get revenge on the one who killed her. I was too reckless.” Poor Akutagawa, he was really struggling at expressing how he felt. (A/N me fr)
sheesh akutagawa ... i kinda want to see him get revenge now
“Weretiger. I know how I can get revenge on my sister's murderer, and the one who organised it.” That piqued Atsushi’s interest. “How?” Akutagawa took a deep breath before he spoke. “I want to join the Detective Agency.” That took Atsushi by surprise. He sighed as he stood up, plucking his phone from his pocket. “Let me make a call.”
OH. NOW THINGS GET INTERESTING... THIS IS SUCH A COOL PLOT TWIST OH WHAT THE HELL
“Because you were the first person I thought of. And I have no one left who cares for me.” Atsushi furrowed his brow. “Shut up, I care for you.”
shin soukoku ... they're gonna make me cry what Is thIs
overall thoughts for chapter 3: i love me some shin soukoku, and the whole revenge ada plan thing sounds so cool. i just wish the best for both akutagawa and atsushi <3
chapter 4. my neck's awry and my brain's upside down
summary: ooh akutagawa joining the ada...
Alright, at least he had a chance. If he got into the agency, he’d have a chance to prove himself to Dazai! He’d get to be in a friendlier environment, and get revenge on the man who killed Gin and HIM. The only downsides would be that he’d probably be paid less, and he’d have to deal with the weretiger every day. But… maybe the second one wasn’t that bad? WAIT WHAT WAS HE THINKING? This wasn’t like him.
omg the last line 😭😭 also is this a more pros than cons thing, yeah i can't tell. but woohoo shin soukoku <33
“We should go to bed, we’ve got a long day ahead of us.” He says, pulling something from the closet. We. We. Who knew such a small pronoun could supply so much comfort? Now Akutagawa felt reassured that he wouldn’t be dealing with this alone. But still, he can’t let his guard down. Atsushi could be planning to get back at him for breaking their promise…
OMG... THE SSKK IS SSKK-ING!!! OMG AKUTAGAWA AND ATSUSHI GETTING CLOSER HERE IS EVERYTHINGGGG <3333
He coughs, his lungs screaming in pain. “Slow… down weretiger… Not everyone… can run at the pace of a tiger…”He said, taking breaks to gasp for breath. Atsushi tilted his head, momentarily confused. Akutagawa heard a sharp intake of breath from him as Atsushi remembered. His lung disease. They waited for Akutagawa to catch his breath, then they began to walk to the agency. They walked in an awkward silence, neither one of them wanting to or knowing how to start a conversation with the other.
oh nooo... the akutagawa lung disease 😭😭 i swear it ruins everything. and the awkward silence is giving me second hand-embarrassment istg, they're so real for that though.
The pair of them continued walking, and soon enough a large building came into sight. Akutagawa’s nerves grew and grew as he approached the Detective Agency building. He was ready for this. Well, mostly.
AAAHH OKAY THIS IS THE MOMENT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE... !!!!
overall thoughts for chapter 4: it was short but i liked it, some sskk crumbs i always love.
chapter 5. importannt
this is just the author's note on the fanfic... read it if you want but it has nothing to do with the actual contents of the fic.
overall thoughts for chapter 5: dang it 😭😭😭
chapter 6. i want to feel the fire that you kept from me
summary: okok akutagawa gets to know the members of the ada... i wonder how that will go
“So, you’re even more useless then. Without the Port Mafia’s resources and men, you would’ve failed all of your missions and have died a long time ago.” Dazai’s expression was dark, his eyes void of any emotion. His demeanour had suddenly become intimidating and threatening. The Agency members were shaken by thus personality shift. Akutagawa was nervous, but it appeared that he was used to this Dazai. “Dazai-san, I’ve only failed a few missions in the four years you’ve been gone!” Akutagawa sounded desperate, like a child begging for the attention if their parent. “The keyword there is ‘few’, implying that you still failed. It seems that training you was a waste of time after all. Clearly Mori wasn’t disciplining you enough.” Dazai spoke calmly, but he sounded threatening anyway. “No! I’ve been disciplining myself, Dazai-san! Your training didn’t go to waste!” Tanizaki felt sick to his stomach. He didn’t want to think of the ‘discipline’ the Port Mafia used, or of Akutagawa ‘disciplining’ himself. Dazai spoke again. “Stop saying my name. Why do you want to join the Agency anyway?” Akutagawa was struggling to find words, and looked to Atsushi, his eyes screaming ‘help!’. Before Atsushi could say anything, Ranpo spoke up. “His sisters been killed.”
OH WOW. THIS IS SUCH AN EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER... "Akutagawa sounded desperate, like a child begging for the attention if their parent." is so good yet so sad... omg i need to read this more this is getting good
Dazai’s demeanour returned to normal. “Gin?” he whispered, a slight hint of concern lacing his voice.Akutagawa looked to the floor. “But... how? Why?” It was clear which of the Akutagawa siblings Dazai preferred. For the first time in years, Dazai was at a loss for words. Tanizaki felt a rage bubble up within him. He couldn’t help but feel bad for Akutagawa. He didn’t know what he’d do if someone had killed Naomi. Well....He knew exactly what he’d do, but all of it was illegal.
my MY I WAS RIGHT THIS IS GETTING GOOD!!! also dazai returning to normal is so funny to me idk why. also tanizaki and naomi's relationship 😭😭
Why was his guard down in the first place? It fell the second he was let into Atsushi’s house last night. He had trusted Atsushi, that he’d protect him while he was vulnerable asleep. He cannot trust anyone. That was the first thing Dazai had told him when he joined the Port Mafia. “Do not trust anyone. Trust leads to vulnerability. Vulnerability leads to weakness. The weak have no place in the Port Mafia.” Akutagawa was jostled from his thoughts by the weretiger shuffling closet towards him. He blinked, slowly returning to reality and remembering his surroundings. There was a cup of lukewarm green tea in front of him that Tanizaki had bought for him. The aforementioned boy sat opposite Akutagawa, next to Dazai. Tanizaki wore an odd expression, like he was extremely angry and on the verge of tears. But why...?
oh my GOD why is this chapter so good... i swearr the way the characters emotions are written here is just... mmmhh !!!
Kunikida glared at Ranpo and muttered “How tactless” under his breath. Akutagawa didn’t mind. He liked how Ranpo wasn’t giving him pitiful looks like the others. Well, except for Dazai. He looked out of it, as if he was still processing what had happened. He was clearly mourning Gin. Akutagawa felt a twinge of jealousy. How could Dazai care about her and not him? He felt a sudden pang of guilt and shame. What the fuck was he thinking? His sister was DEAD, and he was still thinking of himself and proving himself to Dazai. He dug his nails into his thighs, only the fabric of the trousers he had borrowed from Atsushi stopping him from drawing blood. Noticing this, the weretiger shuffled closer, their arms touching.
SHEESH. AKUTAGAWA I CAN'T WITH YOU, DAZAI I CAN'T WITH YOU EITHER AND IT'S WEIRD BECAUSE it feels like i have to choose a side when they're both equally as bad ... yeah i don't even know anymore 😭
“Crap. And SOS message from Atsushi. He’s been taken hostage.” Akutagawa leapt to his feet. “Where. I’ll go retrieve him.” Tanizaki gave him the address, and Akutagawa quickly memorised it. He sprinted out the door, despite the strain it put on his lungs. Atsushi had saved him when he appeared on his doorstep, bloody and brooding. It was only fair that Akutagawa returned the favour now. As he left the café, he ran past Kyouka, who had just returned from an out-of-town mission.“Why was Akutagawa here?” Kyouka demanded. “Why was he muttering Atsushi’s name, and why was he sprinting out of here?” Dazai smirked, his demeanour returning to normal, although you could tell he wasn’t too happy with what he was about to say. “His entrance exam has begun.”
OH MY GOD???WHAT I LOVE THIS SO MUCH.. THIS IS THE PERFECT ENTERANCE EXAM FOR THIS KIND OF FIC AND I LOVE THAT!!! and omg akutagawa go save your bf !!! don't care about your lungs!!!
overall thoughts for chapter 6: this is definitely the best chapter so far. this is so good i need more of this actually. i literally screamed when i read this i love it so much !!!
