cold turkey

I still feel hurt and betrayed and the loss randomly stings out of nowhere i am reminded and it puts a lump in my throat sometimes i forget and forgetting is bliss sometimes i wish i could erase my memories like in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind what a good movie with a good name a mans today said i look like adele exarchopoulos i can’t believe it what a compliment i’m not going to attach to him though he seems too pretentious i just want someone genuine and compassionate i spent this week in madison with my friend sarah and read a few french poems and spent too much money on food clothing shelter if we had to use shapes as codes food would be circle clothing would be square and shelter would be triangle because plate tshirt roof u get it I am realizing the things I care about and that is more psychology and literature than the physics of the matter. physics is interesting but it doesn’t strike fire in my heart

I gave a heck :(

It’s the end of an era

I have this fear that I am a bad egg and that all my friends will eventually grow tired of me and then I will grow tired of me and my brain will rot of depression and I will waste away slowly at first and then all at once

I am inspired and shall do nothing about it

I bled so much I went to sleep

I miss entrusting someone with all the boring details. I miss having a good friend to talk to.

I used to tell a boy about my dreams and now he doesn’t love me anymore