new pinned post! i felt like i needed to re-introduce myself, for my own personal reasons (eg a deliberate abandonment of previous attempts to be a particular way online) SO hello this is an intro post. i'll probably keep adding to it/updating it over time.
my name is Esmé, i use he/they pronouns, i'm in my late 20s.
i'm autistic, nonbinary and asexual/aromantic. i am a naturalistic pagan, and i talk about that much more on my sideblog: @rainsandrains
my url is because i was very into classical literature for a while, especially the iliad. it's pronounced "A-kill-EY-us"
offline i'm a phd student, currently writing my thesis on the poetry of John Keats. i sing choral music and write poetry. i have a poem in a real published book, which you can get here! (my first real published work, so i'm excited)
online stuff:
fandom stuff you will see here a lot:
BBC Merlin
the band Ghost
misc other music (Nine Inch Nails, the Longest Johns, the Mountain Goats, a lot of folk and a lot of extreme metal (various black and death metal bands))
old fandoms you might see a bit of: The Magnus Archives, Les Mis
i have a website on neocities, on which you can see a lot of poetry, long form blog posts, lots of naturalistic pagan stuff, and the first attempts of an inexperienced coder (html is hard). over there you will also find my directory of resources for trans people in the uk
i have recently started uploading ukulele covers to youtube again, after not doing so for years.
you can find some of my poetry on my neocities, but i also post some of it here: #my writing
very occasionally (hopefully more often from now on), you'll find my own drawings and paintings here: #my art
personal posts are tagged #esme.txt (be warned, i do delete old stuff - if you think you remember something and now it's not there, it's not your memory, i've just deleted it)
finally, this was my previous pinned, and i want to keep it pinned, so:
Hello :)
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saint stanisław || terzopolitus (lowk. musings on parallels + a vague idea)
notes: this idea came to me as i was looking for a civilian/pre-ghurch name for the good bishop (no luck so far, still undecided btw). THIS IS REACHING. I JUST RAN WITH MY OLD USELESS HAGIOGRAPHICAL FIXATIONS.
THIS IS LIKE 80% HISTORY-HAGIOGRAPHY BS, 20% TERZOPOLITUS...
tw for brief descriptions of martyrdom lmao
I have briefly spoken about the cultural landscape of Kraków within the context of Catholicism before.
All that considered, I think it's safe to assume that Necropolitus comes from an at least semi-religious family (at least if you headcanon him to be a Cracovian the way I do). And it is no secret that the way he perceived Terzo leaned dangerously close to reverence, at least in some cases. Do I think his upbringing and Cracovian-Catholic background might have bled into that dynamic? Absolutely.
So, Stanisław. Why Stanisław? Why are we even talking about some random saint?
Majority of what is known about him has its roots in a sole chronicle. Old chronicles tend to be dramatic and biased when it comes to politics. The trials of Stanisław's past are unclear enough to have been the source of fierce historical and theological discussions for a long time now. We are only going to focus on the most popular portrayal and perception of his character.
Stanisław, currently considered one of Poland's patron saints and major martyr, was a 11th century priest based in Kraków. TL;DR the prior bishop of the city ordained him and gave him a canonry, then Stanisław got popular for his teachings, then he became the next bishop of Kraków and partook in various reforms, as well as building what is now known as the Wawel Cathedral (she's cute, look her up). He was a Big Deal, partaking not only in art and preaching, but also national politics.
And so, eventually, according to the chronicles, he got into shit for criticising the King, either threatening to excommunicate him or straight-up doing so. Either way, the King declared him a traitor and sent his people to torture and kill the Bishop, and then scatter his cut-up remains to be devoured by wild beasts. Fun. The sources are gloriously unreliable and the entire case is somewhat similar to the story of Thomas Becket, another significant cleric that had beef with the King. Either way, bitches were quick to canonise the guy, and thus he became the first native Polish saint, and the patron of Kraków, his home diocese.
BUT THAT'S NOT ALL THAT IMPORTANT. The legend itself (and there is a Legend, Vita Minor, a typical hagiography). It says that the Bishop's chopped-up body got miraculously pieced back together. The author of Vita Minor takes some... vast artistic liberties, lmao—he states that Stanisław's death brought a curse upon the Kingdom, later on leading to the severe, multiple invasions of Poland. But ☝️ the legend also insists that the country, just like the Bishop's remains, will eventually be unified...
And what other reformer-and-shit-stirrer-later-on-even-more-fiercely-venerated religious leader do we know of?? Ghurch-wise?? Terzito, of course.
NOW. NOW. DOES THIS MAKE SENSE? TO ANY SANE PERSON? WELL. NOT REALLY. NOT LIKELY. IT IS A STRETCH THAT COULD IMPRESS ANY SEASONED YOGA TEACHER.
But oh, to a boy that's grown up between his own fascination of the occult and the polite, sem-religious upbringing of typical Cracovian intelligentsia. To someone who has always looked for blessings in the macabre, who has already heard of a dismembered martyr-priest-leader-politician brought back to life.
I already assumed Terzo's death would have crumbled Necropolitus' psyche, marking a shift from idealisation to blatant deification, the way it often happens when you're a part of a cult whose leader has just passed. And I wonder, once the dust settles and the coup reshapes the Church, does the Bishop think back to the saint from his hometown? Do the following political shifts and conflicts that make him step back from the centre of it all remind him of the curse that fractured a kingdom? Does he hope his beloved martyr might, too, reintegrate and return to unify the flock that has lost him?
Necropolitus doesn't care much for that part of his upbringing. He cherishes his city, of course, but the tales of saints remain firmly in his past; just another figment of local culture. And if you notice an old prayer card with the Saint Patron of Kraków nestled inside the Bishop's worn leather wallet—well, mention nothing of it.