emmi

starting: juin 28 2020

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108 gw by end of 2020

to my eating disorder, fuck you. fuck you fuck you fUCK YOU. You've had control over my life for so many fucking years! You convinced me that this was the only way to feel worthy or safe but i see clear now. you've just been feeding off me, made me feel worse. Because of you I've felt so insecure, so exhausted, so cold, so scared, so sick, so jealous, so hateful, so inadequate, so out of place, so alone but i'm taking the power back. I'm done playing your games, i'm the one who's in control. i'm the one who's in control now. i am strong, i am worthy, i am beautiful and i am better than this. So from the bottom of my heart, fuck you

to my past self, i'm so sorry you went through all of this. I know you thought you deserved it but no, you didnt. you deserved better, you deserved peace and happiness. None of this is your fault. you can now rest, knowing that from now on we are on the path to true happiness.

and finally to all of you reading this, YOU DESERVE BETTER!!! YOU HAVE SO MUCH POTENTIAL IN YOU!! YOU CONTROL YOUR REALITY!! And no one deserves to live with an eating disorder, not me, not you, no one. I believe in you.

I love you all and i'm sending you all the strength, patience and love to fight through this. you can do it