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i’m at school somebody kill me i’m the adult in this situation and it still sucks

i can’t stop posting and i should be mercy killed

he tells me i like you i like to talk to you i feel safe with you i tell you things i don’t tell anyone else i know you understand me and then he says my therapist thinks i have bpd

he said i should stay in his apartment this week since it’ll be a shorter drive for me and his roommate isn’t moving in until this weekend and he’s so lonelyyyyyyy and scareddddd all by his poor little self and everyone thinks we are going to fuck like rabbits but be honest with you this guy told me he doesn’t think anyone actually enjoys having sex and i said well i don’t think that’s true and he told me i just hate there has to be another person there and you have to talk with them and i said you just like jacking off he said yeah and my ultimate sexual fantasy is we lay in the bed next to each other and nobody says anything and i told him i’m a virgin because i’m a goddamn freak that hates it when people touch me because it hurts and i hate them and i’m so obsessed with my body the thought of another person seeing me naked makes me want to kill myself and also i’m a pure angel girl straight out of heaven he says nooooooooo you’re beautifullllllll but that’s good i like that you got to find somebody you trust that’s how it should be and he says i only did it because i wanted to say i done it and it was a random man on the hinge and he hit me in the face and it hurt and he made me to go to waffle house with him afterward and then i inexplicably found myself wanting to open him up and live in there because anyone else would have replied you’re insane

i’m playing this game called can 2 unmedicated bipolars be in a relationship and i’m not necessarily winning but i’m not losing either #hopecore

this guy is going to hate me when i come out of this and into a depressive episode and he realizes i am genuinely miserable to be around but he is also bipolar so who knows

does anyone want to ask me a question i am bored you know i miss the days of kinnie tumblr ask games on occasion also my beautiful bitch of a mother has accused me of being drunk in the ER at 6:29pm on a sunday which is not true i am just hypomanic