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This is a story about my sex life and why I am the way I am. This is 100% TRUE and not made up in any way. My friends call me “sick minded”. Meaning I think of everything in a sexual way. I don’t know if I like pussy and tits or dick more. I pretended to hate anal although I secretly love it. 

Let me start from the beginning. My mom gave birth to me when she was 16. My parents were 19 years old and I was 3 years old when we were living in Italy. Like any other teenager, they would party a lot around me. With that, I was around a lot of young females and males. My interest pulled me towards females over males. There was one incident that happened in my room with one of my friends that I’d have play dates with. I remember telling her that we were gonna play house. I told her that I was gonna be the daddy and she will be the mommy. I then grabbed one of my blankets and pulled it over us. I pretended to kiss and make out with her under the blanket until my mom stepped in to my room. She was shocked and scolded the both of us then sent my friend home. 

When I was old enough to start school in Italy, my parents enrolled me. At the time I was bilingual. I was able to speak English and Italian because of the school I was going to. Anyway, fast forward to another incident that happened at school. It was a small play room with two movable single couches and a bunch of bins filled with toys. All the kids left to play outside but myself and two others stayed to play with the toys. We were unsupervised. The girl moved the couches to where I could barely see her and the boy. He wasn’t aware as to what was going on. I was kind of curious as to what she was doing to him. Mind you, we are like 5 or 6 years old. She slipped off his pants and lifted up her dress and went on top of him. I remember her riding or humping him and saying that it felt good. He was trying to get up from under her but she wouldn’t allow it. From there I was curious as to what she was doing. 

We moved back to Hawaii when I was about 6 or 7 years old. I remember stumbling across a sex scene on tv. I was always told to shut my eyes and not watch. Again, I was curious so I decided to watch. Nothing really happened obviously but as a little girl hearing sex noises, I was easily aroused. I was in kindergarten or first grade when I started to hide in the bathroom. I would sit on the toilet with my legs up, almost behind my head and play with my clit till I felt satisfied. I would stay in the bathroom for long periods of time. 

In the first grade, my dad bought me a new bike. Around this time I still had a difficult time tying my own shoes. I was riding my bike alone one day and my shoe laces got caught on the chain and pedals. I got stuck and I couldn’t break. I was going a little fast but I couldn’t stop or slow down so I crashed in to a brick wall in front of my house. It happened so fast and I was in so much pain, especially my vagina. I wasn’t able to untangle my laces so I just slipped my shoes off and ran inside the house to go to the bathroom. My vagina hurt so much! I took off my shorts and panties to see a dot of blood. I was so afraid at the time. I thought I was gonna die! 

Fast forward to a few months later. This is where it gets kind of intense. I kind of knew what sex was. I wanted it so bad. I wanted to feel a dick in my pussy. I was only 7 at the time. An older cousin of mine who was maybe in middle school at the time did the unthinkable. He built a club house and told me to go inside. So I did. He told me to lay down. This is where he put a pillow over my face. He started to touch and rub my soft pussy. It felt so good but I knew this was wrong. I didn’t want him to stop. He kept going and going then boom. His dick penetrated me. From there, I was hooked to dick but I still was attracted to tits and pussy.