I hate to break it to you

I'm not worthy of the love you try giving

I certainly can not return it

Not in the same way as you do

I promise though that I still feel it

I just don't know how to get it through

Like my emotions are trapped in a prison

Being fed self doubt

Guarded by my thoughts

It's no wonder why they can't seem to get out

That would require me to open my mouth

But who's to say it's good things I have to say

And not a bunch of hurtful words that never stop

spewing like a bursted water spout.

It seeps through my pores as I try for the millionth time to explain myself to myself

I feel so alone because I know until I can understand me no one will understand me. They'll see a confusing mess of a person and wisely avoid any interaction.

Depression

You know your right // Nirvana

I will move away from here

You won't be afraid of fear

No thought was put into this

I always knew we would come to this.

Without any trace to follow.

Just her intoxicating scent that lingers

on underwear she left behind.

I'll let this one be, I'll let her go.

I'll let her keep searching, I'll let her feel free

I'll always be waiting I hope she knows

For a day she finds her way back to me.

But if she finds the love she requires

The kind of love that could collapse empires

Then she'd be smart to burn any memories

That she ever had of me.

And if we new each other

Maybe we would love each other

Or maybe we should try to run far away

Reality is out of focus

Love has been lost

Or maybe never found.

Legs, numb.

I'll continue walking though.

Even if it means I must walk alone

My wild love // The Doors

My wild love is crazy,

She screams like a bird.

She moans like a cat,

When she wants to be heard.