guys i liedddddd 😭😭😭😭😭 i actually want it 😭😭😭 i want it so bad 😭😭😭😭 i want it so bad its ruining my life 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

what’s the big deal about being avoidant. like ohhhh im dodging the bullet quick everyone lets mock the bullet dodger

I know we joke and all but i think my mind is destroyed for real

omg and just had to tweeze an ingrown pube can this GET any worse

it can always get worse

there’s this beautiful thing that happens in my life again and again where i finally admit that OK i need a break or OK i can’t handle this much responsibility for others and then immediately something happens where i need to #handleit and it locks me into that way of being again!

my dad is in the hospital with the same thing that killed his mom

just passed a boat that has the words “THE REAPER” painted huge on the side

there’s this beautiful thing that happens in my life again and again where i finally admit that OK i need a break or OK i can’t handle this much responsibility for others and then immediately something happens where i need to #handleit and it locks me into that way of being again!

my dad is in the hospital with the same thing that killed his mom

maybe if i isolate myself enough my desire for intimacy will go away