An: I suck at grammar and spelling this is also my first fanfic. Wow lowk just nerfed myself gulp.
WARNING: The reader to Sh and still has scars (SENSITIVE TOPIC PLEASE DON’T READ IF YOU’RE UNCOMFORTABLE)
CONTEXT: It’s been two months since Gojo had his fight with Sukuna. Although you are extremely happy and grateful your husband was able to win he’s been acting weird around you and it kinda feels like he doesn’t want you to see him. He gained lots for defeating the king of curses but one that stands out are the scars all around his body due to Sukunas technique. Gojo hates them he thinks that the scars show that hes weak and make him unworthy of being the strongest. (Aka this an au were Gojo doesn’t die)
You wake up before Satoru today normally he wakes up before you.
When you wake up you your used to feeling him near you, hugging you, or him being cuddled up against you. Recently he’s been on the complete opposite side of the bed from you. Truthfully It does hurt you knowing that the person that helped you so much was hurting but you just don’t know how to help. I mean it’s not like you haven’t tried he just keeps pushing you away. That doesn’t mean you’re going to stop trying cause he never did.
You lay there facing Satorus back for a minute with nothing but thought in your head. You eventually decide to start your day.
When Gojo wakes up a bit later and walks into you in the kitchen.
“Hey, sleep well?” You ask Satoru
“Yea it was ok.” He replies
You go up to give him a kiss but he backs up rejecting you. It makes you wonder if it’s you if you did something.
“Hey are you ok? You’ve been acting weird lately anything wrong?” You ask him
“Yeah I am alright.” He replies
But you know it’s a lie just by looking into his eyes he looks tired. You knew he was going to make something up for you not to worry but after using the same excuse he has to know your bound to find out. You reach to grab him but he backs up.
“Toru what’s wrong please don’t lie.” You say almost despite “Ever since your fight with you know you’ve been acting weird… I am here for you whatever.” You ask him your voice starting to tremble a bit.
He sighs and looks at you knowing he can’t hide forever. He look down at his exposed scars and in that moment it clicks to you.
“Is this about your scars?” You ask him
He turns away from you and that’s all the response you need.
“Oh Satoru.” You whisper just loud enough for him to hear
“Why what’s wrong with them I-“ He cuts you off
“I thought you wouldn’t love me anymore.“ he says barely audible.
Gojo hasn’t cried in front of you that much he try’s to keep the image of the strongest. Even infront of the person he loves and trust more than anything.
“Why would I ever stop loving you for something as stupid as that? Did you stop loving me when you found out about my scars? And your scars hold more meaning than mine.”
“Don’t say that about yourself. Yours hold as much value and reason as any scar.” He replies
“Then don’t say stupid stuff like that again. I would never stop loving the man that saved me from hurting myself more than I already was. Satoru, you’re the best thing thats happened to me, no scar or mark could ever change that. I love you for you not the strongest Gojo the one curses fear but Satoru the most kind and gentle person that I love with all my heart.” You say
Satoru was looking at you he was crying. He knew all along you wouldn’t stop loving him but he had convinced himself you would.
“Think I needed to hear that, thank you.” He says trying to giggle while tears roll down his face
You go to wipe his tears and he lets you.
“Come on let’s sit down.” You tell Satoru
He follows you to your couch. He sits next to you as you wrap your hands around him. He ends up with his head buried in your neck still sniffling as you play with his hair. The two of you end up staying like that for the next hour just holding each other after so long.
An: From when I am finishing this ive been clean for 31 days yippee for me right? When I started to write this I was 0 days clean so thats progress. I’ve gotten better now thanks to one of my friends but I hope you enjoyed this very short bad fanfic. And if you struggle with this I hope you get better and remember there’s at least one person who cares about you even if you don’t think so.
