THIS WAS A WAKE UP CALL !

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steven finally turns his head in his little sister's direction the second she cuts him off to tell him to stop with the crazy talk . " belly . . . we don't always get the chance to say what needs to be said . so just . . . let me finish . " if taylor were here she'd tell him how much of a drama queen he's being . but his head is killing him and the hospital room is spinning . to top it all off , he feels like he can't breathe from the pain in his ribs . there's a sharp hiss in pain as he tries to turn on his side ever so slightly but fails to do so , head softly hitting the pillows behind him again instead . " i need you to put yourself first for once . it's okay to be selfish once in a while . if you want to go to paris , go to paris . see everything the world has to offer before you settle wherever life takes you . but live your life for you and don't you dare give up on what makes you happy . i know i don't say this much and i'll deny it if you ever tell anyone else but i love you . i want what's best for you , you hear me ? so live the life that you want to live and don't you dare forget to remind the world how awesome your older brother was . "

" tay . . . " steven lets out a breath , moving to sit down in front of her . tears are forming in his eyes , all of this built up emotion within him spilling to the surface . he loves her with everything in him and although it's been years since they've been a couple , it still hurts all the same . " i want that forever with you . but don't you see how toxic we are for each other when we're actually together ? i never feel like i'm on solid ground when i'm in a relationship with you . i never feel . . . in control . i'm not saying that to hurt you or . . . or to diminish what we have together — our love . because we can be something great together . we can . you know that and i know that . but until we fix whatever the hell that makes us toxic , that kind of forever won't work . i'm willing to work for it , tay . " he promises , " are you ? "

lips part as if to say something but nothing comes out as his gaze locks on @paperlore . eyes squint ever so slightly , taking a step closer to his ex - girlfriend . she still drives him crazy and he wonders if she knows that . he wonders if that's why she does it . " come on , tay . you can't just say shit like that and expect me not to want to kiss you . "

steven falls off of the chair , wire of the headphones pulling out of the port and filling the room with incredibly loud music . he's quick to push himself up , hand going to shut the audio off and closing the tab of his project before getting back on his chair and spinning in @summerwishes' direction . " wh — what ? no . i would never hide anything from you . " if they didn't already know he was bullshitting by his words , his actions sure did the most damage . he lets out a sigh , motioning for her to come into his bedroom . " okay , fine . i'll tell you . but come in and close the door . if you tell anyone , i'll kill you myself . got it ? "

tears form in his eyes and he tries to hold them back but all of the emotions he's been burying deep down were suddenly coming to the surface with her words . what was he supposed to do with that when she'd told him something entirely different just months ago ? " and you think i could stand it when you loved other people ? " steven questions with a sudden anger burning within him . " you are the only person i've ever wanted . but tay , i told you i loved you and you turned me down and ran away . from then and now , what could have possibly changed for you ? "

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taking a trip to paris on a whim to make sure his little sister was okay after her wedding was called off hadn't exactly been on his list of plans for the month . not that he's complaining , however , it's fucking beautiful . steven's seated next to @diaeblerie , letting out a soft sigh . he hadn't told her about him and taylor , yet , thinks he'd be more of an asshole than anything to share it with her after her wedding fell apart . " look , i don't know what life has in store for us . but i do know one thing . i will always be here for you . whether that's in philly , cousins , boston , rhode island , or — or paris . you've always got your big brother in your corner . that's one thing you can count on in any lifetime . you need me ? you call me . any time , day or night . i'd drop it all for you . us conklin's got to stick together , right ? "

" taylor — tay , wait , no . " a smile appears on his lips as he gets off of his chair and kneels in front of @diaeblerie , taking her hands in his . it's almost as if the thought of any more miscommunication between them is ridiculous to him . . . and it is . " that's the thing . i love you , alright ? i love you and i don't know , i think that's the only thing in my life i'll ever be sure of . "

" oh my god , woman , you are suffocating me ! " steven doesn't necessarily mean to snap at @diaeblerie . he appreciates her for taking care of him in his time of need but he kind of feels like she's laying it on a little heavy with the mothering of it all . " you know i'm fine , right ? cleared to go back to work from my doctor . and — and the pain is nothing the medication can't handle . " he lets out a sigh , leaning back against the pillows as his tone softens . " mom , i swear i'm fine . "