gonna run my mouth

i'm too vulnerable and open. but the things you looked into my eyes and said were so insane

you took my virginity and i'm a christian witch like you really are bloodbound to me forever and ever i will chase you down in ever single life

should've known it wasn't all perfect it was all rehearsed, it was all on purpose, i was used. that's the most painful part is i fell in love and he from the start had a finite amount of time in his mind that he would never be with me forever, he would never marry a trans girl. he simply cares to much abt the status quo and what his parents think.

how are yall shmanamexic and live productive lives i am fat i have so much energy stores why am i so lifeless. i wont give up i have a husband to find

wincing in pain everytime i remember an intimate moment with him because if i know it was gonna be like this i would've never let my guard down in so many ways. i feel embarrassed and tho i know his intentions were never to hurt me i feel used

i am actually sewer sydeal rn i just want to talk to him but i have no clue what the fuck to say

i might actually miss him forever

when it's summer time and there's no where to do it that won't be noticed i have my head in my hands im just so uncomfortable right now my head could fall off my shoulders

i was led on but i put the lead on myself ughhhh the paralyzing ache of cursing my own actions as well as his

like i get it bro your not my man and you never wanted to be.. it was all some kind of fucked up accident. can we atleast still be friends tho. i meant it when i told you you became one of my best. nobody makes me smile how you did