isy 𓏲ּ𝄢

i keep on having bad dreams it scares me so bad what if it's a sign

the scale's going down but my body shows no change.

i hate myself why do i look like that, why can't i just be beautiful and perfect like every other girl ? i constantly try changing my appearance but no matter what i do i still look and feel miserable and disgusting.

i just ate so much i feel so fucking guilty why did i do that why did i eat all that my body's already disgusting enough i don't wanna gain weight i want to lose it all .

so typical my mom love bombing me after destroying my entire night of course! thinking that's gonna fix any of the damage you've just caused with just simply your words.

still no reply . . i'm losing my mind i am so fucking terrified

why am i like this? why can't i just be normal? i desperately want to get worse to feel valid and sick enough

oh god i'm so fucking ugly what the fuck

just got diagnosed with PTSD don't know how i feel about that but here we are i guess . . hey guys !

idc how bad it is as long as it helps me and i won't let anyone complain to me about my own choices i certainly know better about myself than you ever could – understanding and listening is something so easy yet so hard for some people all because they don't wanna accept it.

i wish there was a way to legally k*ll, trash things and scream your soul out when you're angry. i turn extremely aggressive and violent when i'm mad and nothing calms me down — i lose all control over my mind and actions, start to dissociate, shake, sweat, cry, scream, act impulsively with massive regret afterwards, i'm completely losing my mind.