I know this isn't what my blogs about but
I think of suicide everyday most of the day no medicine yet to work I wish it was easier I wish there was an off button. I steady watch life pass me by scared and wondering if I'll ever be normal. I hate myself for not being able to go through with it and just kill myself because I don't want anyone that finds me to live with that or leave my family and friends in pain. Mayb one day the pain and suffering will stop before I have to stop it myself.











