hand in unloveable hand

the humanity of the AIDS crisis: the ward by gideon mendel

when i say c!wilbur- more specifically revivebur-is a masochist, i don't necessarily mean it in a sexual way, but more because pain is the closest thing to making him feel alive + he's also touch starved as fuck.

i'd imagine he just spent 13 years feeling absolutely nothing & then when he was revived no one was willing to go near him, let alone touch him & if they do it's always kinda out of reluctance.

then whenever he decides to piss off c!quackity & they start physically fighting, he more or less enjoys it because those moments were the longest times he'd been touch in a really long time + he's finally feeling something.

the first time c!quackity manages to pin c!wilbur on the ground. c!wilbur just fucking melts right then and there , while c!quackity was going off on a tangent about how pissed off he was at him

because one of his rival's hand was pressing strongly on the bruise he made on his forearm, the other was literally on his own hand. his knee was also pressing against his thigh as his face was hovering just inches above his own face.

that moment alone was a total of only just one minute, but it was the longest time someone had ever touched him in 13 years.

This particular picture is rather special though, because he drew the first draft for it while in space using coloured pencils he took with him:

As I pulled myself back toward the airlock, I heard Pasha talking to me: “It’s time to come back in.” I realized I had been floating free in space for over 10 minutes. In that moment my mind flickered back for a second to my childhood, to my mother opening the window at home and calling to me as I played outside with my friends, “Lyosha, it’s time to come inside now.”