BLACKMIND

I’m a jealous person, I can’t really help it. I’m insecure and I worry about everything. I have this constant fear that if I let someone in, I’ll give them my whole heart and they’ll only give me half of theirs. I worry that I’ll end up alone and heart broken once again, something I dearly do not need. I’m always scared that if I give someone my heart, they’ll find someone better; someone with less problems and less drama. I can’t really help it, this “not good enough” thing. I wish I could give myself wholeheartedly to someone and they would give the same back, but any time it has happened, they end up leaving me in my misery.

I get so jealous because I know how easily replaceable I am.