Zayne Harbison

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I hate to tell you all like this, but I am quitting writing forever. No more blogs. No more books. No more annoying dad jokes on Facebook. I was told this morning that I am, in fact, so terrible at writing that I cannot continue. The news came to me with great haste. I wrote something so unreadable and unenjoyable that I actually had this letter handed to me when I walked out the front door this morning.

That is pretty edgy considering that the first A.I. project I participated in turned into a dating simulator.

I do not condone adult entertainment.

I do not condone unsupervised access by minors.

And this is just a little bit about me.

I am a blogger. That should be obvious considering where you are reading this. All jokes aside, I got into it during my schooling. I was enrolled in continuing education at the Jacksonville Job Corps Center when my Reading teacher suggested that I get into writing professionally. I had considered it in the past. I always had a thing for books, and film was something that I had toyed around with for as long as I could remember. I never really put the pen to paper, though. It seemed like something that was out of my league. 

Let’s discuss what led up to this moment in 2024 that ultimately changed my life. Was I just minding my own business when this opportunity fell in my lap? Was I fighting the good fight when my buddies gave me the tap on the shoulder? Was I nose deep in mobile gaming trying to keep up with the streamers during a world championship? The answer to all of these questions is a hard no. I was not really doing anything special at the time. I was just taking my classes like every other student around me. The only real difference between me and the rest was my passion for recovery. That is a story for another time. You can read more about my experiences with it here. 

“How does recovery affect someone becoming a writer?” you might ask. Let me give it to you straight. When the world seems like it is burning, there are few places left to turn that do not feel like some kind of cosmic reverberation chamber meant to evoke feelings of dread and twisted humor. Being a gamer, I was left to wonder why video games like Fortnite and Call of Duty were becoming so vulgar featuring characters including rappers like Eminem and adult cartoon characters like Rick Sanchez from Rick and Morty, Peter Griffin from Family Guy, or even Homelander from The Boys. It is a catch 22, seeing as to how the games have Teen and Mature ratings. This essentially means that the developers can do whatever they want so long as they do not venture too heavily into sexual themes according to the critics. Good for them, I guess. Being a programmer, I am still left to wonder why I am being outpaced and outmatched by a vibe coding machine that is regularly being used to roleplay spicy scenarios between adult users and characters from children’s cartoons like Gwen Tennison from Ben 10 and Raven from Teen Titans. Being in recovery, I was left to wonder why legal loopholes and criminal youth were taking over the internet with Delta-8 cannabis and disappearing messages. It all ties in together to create one big concoction of dizzying mess. One that I played a significant part in causing. The negativity leads to cravings of a better feeling (usually from an illegal or intoxicating substance) and the cravings lead to negative mistakes (also likely from an illegal or intoxicating substance). What better way out than to make a difference in the lives of others by sharing my findings in writing?

I have made my fair share of mistakes as a young person in America. I grew up being raised to avoid inappropriate media and other bad behaviors, but that all changed as I got older. I was taken in by a gang of misfit Anonymous hackers and groomed into becoming something that does not even compare to my worst childhood nightmares. I did things that I still cringe about when they come up to this day. I did not make my mother proud, and I definitely do not have much pride of my own in the matter. That does not mean that I cannot share what I learned here online. It is important to understand safety and the regulations behind online media before diving headfirst into the water, so I must warn you if you are thinking of doing something like this for yourself. It is not as easy as it looks. There are new declarations rolling out every period. Monthly, weekly, and even daily. What is important is to avoid name-dropping or “doxxing” others in an attempt to create your own justice. The internet may not be as heavily regulated as network television or radio shows when it comes to profanity and sensitive subjects, but there are still laws in place that are meant to protect us from harm. That harm can come from ourselves, and it can come from others who misuse the tools on the web. I have several years of coaching from others in recovery as well as professionals like counselors and therapists who taught me the difference between recovery and vengeance. It is not all for show. As I write, I gain something in the way of healing. 

Starting next month, I will be enrolled in school again at Maestro University studying Computer Science with a focus on artificial intelligence. It is another opportunity to refine my skills and give back to the world that I was so reckless towards for so many years while making my way in my career and building sustainability in my own life. I have a little bit of experience messing around with Python scripts testing projects like AutoGPT and other early artificial intelligence tools that were popular on the web between 2019 and 2023. I will be doubling down on those experiments as well as learning what makes the artificial intelligence bubble work in 2026. That brings us back to today, me sitting here writing this blog post in the hopes that it will reach someone who could use the theatrics. I hope that this article has inspired you to see past the smoke and mirrors and into a world of possibility. Thank you for reading!

Rivers so blue,

Oceans of trees,

So green.

The world is growing,

A lot of it showing,

And we are here to stay.

Monitor's hue,

A wall of fees,

So green.

The Net is closing in,

How do we begin?