Your Stepdaughter

The thought that, as I felt someone enter my body against my will, they were using me not just for pleasure. That this man, who I hate for what he’s doing to me, is going to look me in the eye and pointedly, calmly explain that he is raping me pregnant, that at the end of this his goal is to have his seed take root in my belly. That he is going to force me to carry a new person inside me, against my will, feel is kicking its way to life within my body for the next nine entire months, and then give birth to it. It makes me tremble at the idea of it, of feeling a warm jet of pre-cum thud against my cervix, wondering if my rapist has already succeeded in impregnating me.

It’s horrifying. You could just use me, in every way, and I’d have no input on the process from beginning to end. The violation. Carrying the product of rape. Feeling labor begin, nothing preparing me for how humiliating and agonizing of a process giving birth to your unwanted life-ruiner would be. Everyone judging me for the entire pregnancy, losing friends and family as they accuse me of lying, only to be here at the end of it, alone (or at least I would HOPE alone, and then I’m not enduring this agonizing shame in front of people…) and scared, your rape baby coming, opening me inside, violating me just like one who put it inside me in the first place, but so, so much worse.

And even more devastating would be knowing how eager and ready my body was for this. My body will have changed so much for you, becoming fertile, swollen, motherly. You took over my being with the child you raped into my womb, and my entire being sans my mind was delighted by it, eagerly growing its most special gift to reward you for violating me.

The knowledge swirling through my mind as the need to bear down overwhelms me is crushing. This is what I’m FOR, the purpose for my existance as a female, no matter how much I try to deny it. That I can have my hopes and dreams, aspirations, hobbies, friends, career, and at any moment you or someone like you can casually, effortlessly come along and steal it all away, change my entire life forever. You have the choice to just force your seed into my womb and vanish, but I’ll have to endure it taking root, sprouting, and then have to helplessly give birth to it. You can do it at any time, off of a whim, with no real reason other than you wanted to, and never HAVE to look back unless you want to savor how much pain and despair you’ve caused me, how you and your rape baby have ruined my entire life.

I was made to bear life, even if I don’t want to. ESPECILLY if I don’t want to. My only real defence in today’s world is to pray nobody decides I should carry their seed. Because once they do, all I can do is watch as my body does what it was made to do, unable to do anything to slow it, let alone stop it.

And the entire time, I know it probably won’t be the last time.

He lifted me up and sat me down on the counter before reaching under my dress and sliding my panties off and stuffing them in his pocket. He spread my legs and started inspecting me, telling me how pretty I was down there and how badly I needed to be ruined before sliding his fingers inside of me. The next thing I knew I was stripped naked in his bed on all fours taking every inch of him. He kept telling me to just wait until those edibles kick in as he pounded into me. Telling me that I was in for a night full of getting fucked. 

We were laying in bed after we’d finished when I started to hear people trickling in downstairs. He said his roommate must be having some guys over. We decided to go hangout downstairs with the boys while we recovered a bit. It was probably about 12-15 guys from what I remember. I was sitting on the couch watching the boys play video games and pass a blunt around when the edibles finally hit. I could barely sit up. It hit me like a ton of bricks. 

The guy sitting next to me asked if I wanted to lay down. He scooted a bit down so I could lay down and throw my legs over him. I felt like there were weights on my eyelids and within minutes I had passed out. I woke up several minutes later to the feeling of a hand creeping up my dress. I thought about pushing it away but I was just so high and it felt good to have someone touching me so I just kept my eyes closed. I didn’t even remember that my fuck buddy still had my panties until the guys fingers started pushing inside of me. I knew I should be pissed but it honestly just felt so good. I couldn’t help but to moan and buck my hips as he used his fingers to firmly and quickly press right into my g-spot. 

I could hear the boys laughing at how much I was enjoying being felt up by some random guy but I didn’t care. It just felt so good. The guy who was fingering told me how hard he was as he brought me closer and closer to cumming. When he abruptly stopped I was to afraid to open my eyes and see what was coming. I could hear what sounded like a condom wrapper being ripped and a few moments later he spread my legs and climbed on top of me. Before I could react I felt him guide himself inside of me. He was so big my eyes shot open. He told me that I was okay and that I should lay back and enjoy it. He told me to just feel how wet I was and that I was begging for this. He leaned in to kiss me and I hesitated at first but his thrusting inside of me felt so good that I gasped and his tongue pushed into my mouth. The second we were kissing my whole body responded. I gave in, I started pushing my hips forward to meet every one of his thrusts. I was moaning and panting as he started to go faster and faster and within minutes I was having a shaking orgasm.

The boys weren’t laughing anymore. It was silent except for some scattered snickering as I lay there spent from being fucked for the second time today. I must have passed out again from how high and exhausted I was because the next thing I know I was being gently pulled up and having someone pull my leg over their lap until I was straddling him. I was so spent I just let it happen and laid my head down on this shoulder. Again I could hear it as the condom wrapper was torn open. Seconds later he lifted me up and slowly pushed me down onto his cock. I couldn’t help how my body responded. The edibles were in full force and I could feel the pleasure building up in my whole body as he lifted me up and down on his cock until he was breathing raggedly into my ear. After pumping me up and down slowly for what felt like forever he finally pushed me down hard on him and I felt his cock pulse inside me as he came. 

When the third guy was finished with me he laid me on my stomach gently on the couch. This time they didn’t even let me pass out before another one of the guys was straddled on top of me, fervently lifting my dress up for his turn. He was inside of me before I knew it. Pumping in and out slowly at first but then picking up speed. I could feel his wet thumb massaging my asshole as he fucked me without any consent. I was so relaxed from the edibles that it felt good immediately when he shoved his thumb inside of my ass. I whimpered with pleasure as he played with my ass and fucked me relentlessly. I knew what was coming when he slipped out of me before finishing and sure enough I felt the tip of his cock pushing against my little asshole. He pushed in slowly and I could feel how completely relaxed my muscles were as I took every inch inside of me. He could barely hold in his excitement, he was trembling with pleasure as he came. Anal is so intense that I immediately passed out when he was finished.