Various Hetalia Stuff

I, a Sanemi disliker, have a genuine question about your pookie for a fic I’m writing

Douma and Sanemi… hear me out hear me out!! I think I can prove that their dynamic is interesting but I need to write Sanemi correctly to do so.

So…. what would absolutely traumatize Sanemi to the point of tears? Aside from his brother dying, I want to keep Genya alive just bc his existence in this situation will destroy Sanemi and that sounds fun to write >:)

I’ve already started exploring a bit but Sanemi just doesn’t feel right to me so far. I’m trying to make him mentally (and, as a result, physically) vulnerable but idk how to approach that in writing while keeping his character believable.

toxic dynamic ofc

I’m feeling evil after all the fluffy dynamics I’ve been pondering lately

Trichotillomania: there’s a sizable bump down there? 100% a massive ingrown hair, you should break out your old, rusty self destruction pointy things and do an at-home surgery to remove it. You totally have time to do it before you attend your super important, formal graduation dinner :)

and you are gonna feel restless and uncomfortable when you try to ignore it

dw tho guys I’m locked in at least for now

Like sorry I’ve been so busy trying not to relapse that I was running late to an unimportant event but whatever ig I’ll go home and lay facedown on the floor for a couple hours and panic

anyone who knows me should get that I’d rather die than intentionally spite someone

my strat is that the admin’ll see the ungodly hours I was doing school stuff at and feel bad for me/realize that healthy people don’t wait until 2am to send apology emails

More likely scenario: nobody cares and that one teacher will just think that I am a waste of resources for being lazy

Also shoutout to my Creative Writing teacher for not crucifying me over an assignment that’s like 2 weeks late and telling me to be nice to myself bc I was clearly internally panicking

but clearly that’s kinda low on my list of priorities rn

I’m currently sick but I really wanna do an analysis called “in defense of Kaiguku” with evidence and research stuff and I’m rlly excited about it

I’m so excited that I feel motivated to take my meds for the first time in 3 days (since I’ve gotten sick) yippee yippee

gee I wonder why I was crashing out so much lol

also we aren’t gonna think about the exam for the hardest AP lit class my competitive school offers tomorrow or how trashed my room is or how much hw I gotta do or the presentation I gotta finish + make up orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr the depressive episode

Goal: take meds, get dressed + get try to tidy up trashed room and then start research

it hurts but I’ve gotten used to ignoring the pain of inflammation