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Recovery Record is the smart companion for managing your journey to recovery from eating disorders including anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, obsessive eating disorder, binge eating disorder and compulsive eating disorder.

With Recovery Record you can: - Keep a record of meals, thoughts and feelings  - Access beautiful reflection images and affirmations - Customize log questions, meal plans, coping tactics and recovery goals - View charts that highlight insights, trends and progress - Collect jigsaw pieces to earn hidden rewards - Set personalized reminder schedules and alarm tones - Complete questionnaires to track your progress - Link with your treatment team  - Receive in-the-moment feedback and messages from your treatment team - Receive and send encouragement messages and virtual gifts to/from other users

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You can ask how long it will take for the pizza to get to you, and they will tell you how far away a dispatcher is.

My flat-mate’s date for the night was almost as drunk as her.  She had passed out in her room and locked the door.  He refused to leave because he wanted to have sex.  He also demanded food because he was dealing with “whiskey dick”.  He didn’t like the lack of food in the fridge.  I called 911, did the stuff stated above, and he was getting PISSED about how long the “order” was taking.  He took my phone, demanded they “hurry the fuck up”.  Police arrived two minutes later, arrested him, and helped me file a police report.  Pressing charges wasn’t necessary because he had warrants on him from THREE different states for the very thing he planned to do to me.  Several months after this happened one of the officers informed me he was charged with two felonies because he crossed stay lines, and will be serving no less than 35 years in prison.  The officer ripped into my flat-mate about her bringing home complete strangers, while drunk, knowing full well this shit could happen. 

This was 14 years ago.  

Do the pizza order, do it as calmly as you can.  The dispatcher I spoke to said things like this:

“If he’s drunk say you want mushrooms.”  I said I want extra mushrooms.

“If he’s threatening you with sexual assault say you want onions.”  I said I want onions.

She went like this with different toppings and sauces for a description of him, like pineapple if he’s blonde, black olives if he’s tall, extra large if he’s tall, etc.

Like unless you are literally so underweight and poorly, they won’t help you because you’re not ‘sick’ enough which is bullshit. If you think you’re struggling and you ask for help that’s a big deal, it takes guts, helping people before they get to that point could save so many lives, it’s been proven that if you get help before you get so sick you can reverse all the damage you’ve done, you can recover almost completely, but instead they turn you away unless your bmi is under 15, and your pulse is low and your deficient in vitamins.

and the saddest thing is when they turn you away, they prove ‘ana’ right, that you’re fat, and that you’re not sick, so you starve yourself more until you end up in hospital and they if only you got help sooner, you wouldn’t of got as sick.

They need to change the criteria, they need to take people more seriously, they need to help more so people don’t end like me, stuck in this cycle, starving - recovering a little - relapsing again - eventually it will kill you.

Please don’t hurt yourself

Please don’t kill yourself

Please don’t give up

You matter

You are important

You are amazing

You are beautiful

1. we would miss you. 2. it’s not worth the regret. either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. it does get better. believe it or not it will eventually get better. sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. there’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. there is always a reason to live. it might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. so many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. you ARE worth it. don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. you are amazing. 9. a time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. you will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. because things always get better. 10. what about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? what about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? you can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. i love you. even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. you won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. killing yourself is never worth it. you’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. there are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. you’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. how do you think your family would feel? would it improve their lives if you died? 17. you’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again. 19. you’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. listening to incredibly loud music. 21. being alive is just really good. 22. not being alive is really bad. 23. finding your soulmate. 24. red pandas 25. going to diners at three in the morning. 26. really soft pillows. 27. eating pizza in neww york city. 28. proving people wrong with your success. 29. watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. being able to help other people. 32. bonfires. 33. sitting on rooftops. 34. sweing every single country in the world. 35. going on roadtrips. 36. you might win the lottery someday. 37. listening to music on a record player. 38. going to the top of the eiffel tower. 39. taking really cool pictures. 40. literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. hearing crazy stories. 42. telling crazy stories. 43. eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. more harry potter books could come out, you never know. 45. travelling to another planet someday. 46. having an underwater house. 47. randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. trampolines. 50. think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke. 52. tour survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. people do care. 54. treehouses. 55. hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse. 55. snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees. 56. i don’t even know you and i love you. 57. i don’t even know you and i care about you. 58. because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. you won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. starbucks. 62. hugs. 63. stargazing. 64. you have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. you’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. now you could change the world. 67. you will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. no matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. you have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. if you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. making snow angels. 72. making snowmen. 73. snowball fights. 74. life is what you make of it. 75. everybody has a talent. 76. laughing until you cry. 77. having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. the world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79.its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. be yourself, don’t take anyone’s sh*t, and never let them take you alive. 81. heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. be your own hero. 82. heing happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. it means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. one day your smile will be real. 84. having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. eating crazy food. 88. staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. sleeping in all day. 90. creating something you’re proud of. 91. you can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit. 92. being able to meet your internet friends! 93. tea/coffee/hot chocolate. 94. team starkid. 95. cuddling under the stars. 96. being stupid in public because you just can. 97. if you are reading this then you are alive! is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years. 99. people care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. but, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen!

& if that isn’t enough:

-depression hotline: 1-630-482-9696 -suicide hotline: 1-800-784-8433 -lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 -trevor project: 1-866-488-7386 -sexuality support: 1-800-246-7743 -eating disorders hotline: 1-847-831-3438 -rape and sexual assault: 1-800-656-4673 -grief support: 1-650-321-5272 -runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 -exhale: ater abortion hotline/pro-voice: 1-866-4394253 -child abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK HELPLINES: -samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected] -childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111 -mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected] -mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 [email protected] -b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open mon-fri 10.30am-8.30pm and saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected] -b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open mon-fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, saturday 1pm-7pm) -cruse bereavement care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected] -frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600 -drinkline: 0800 9178282 -rape crisis england & wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected] -rape crisis scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight -india self harm hotline: 00 08001006614 -india suicide helpline: 022-27546669 -kids help phone (canada): 1-800-668-6868, free and available 24/7

SUICIDE HOTLINES; -argentina: 54-0223-493-0430 -australia: 13-11-14 -austria: 01-713-3374 -barbados: 429-9999 -belgium: 106 -botswana: 391-1270 -brazil: 21-233-9191 -china: 852-2382-0000 (hong kong: 2389-2222) -costa Rica: 606-253-5439 -croatia: 01-4833-888 -cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67 -czech republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908 -denmark: 70-201-201 -egypt: 762-1602 -estonia: 6-558-088 -finland: 040-5032199 -france: 01-45-39-4000 -germany: 0800-181-0721 -greece: 1018 -guatemala: 502-234-1239 -holland: 0900-0767 -honduras: 504-237-3623 -hungary: 06-80-820-111 -iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90 -israel: 09-8892333 -italy: 06-705-4444 -japan: 3-5286-9090 -latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292 -malaysia: 03-756-8144 (singapore: 1-800-221-4444) -mexico: 525-510-2550 -netherlands: 0900-0767 -new zealand: 4-473-9739 -new guinea: 675-326-0011 -nicaragua: 505-268-6171 -norway: 47-815-33-300 -philippines: 02-896-9191 -poland: 52-70-000 -portugal: 239-72-10-10 -russia: 8-20-222-82-10 -spain: 91-459-00-50 -south africa: 0861-322-322 -south korea: 2-715-8600 -sweden: 031-711-2400 -switzerland: 143 -taiwan: 0800-788-995 -thailand: 02-249-9977 -trinidad and tobago: 868-645-2800 -ukraine: 0487-327715

just in case you’re having a hard time.

I put on my sunglasses, to hide my swollen eyes, over my tears. I cried all my makeup off. Went inside to have a milkshake. I don’t know why. I wanted something to drink as I figured out what I would do. I got a soda and a milkshake. Medium. The cashier looked at me and with a line around the corner of the counter he rushed away from the counter “Hold on “ he yelled to a coworker.

I filled my soda and went back and saw him looking all over. I go up and he gets close and says “I made it a large”.

That was seriously enough for me not to do it. His kindness. Someone went out of their way and as I went back in my car to cry I realized I could muster through a few other days. A few more weeks. Then I came down from that panicky high of anxiety, depression, and pain. I finished my shake. And it was enough time to let me feel better. I… I’m alive. I’ll make it through.

Try and be nice today. Tomorrow. Something as much as a smile. It helped so much.

Thank you man at McDonalds.

Rape Escape

Easy and very effective

Requires nothing but your body

I don’t think I made it very clear but last month I was sexually assaulted by someone who I thought was my friend (I don’t want to talk about it don’t ask), and it’s… really fucked with my head. 

Had I known this a month ago I would have been able to get away. 

So, essentially, I’m really pleading with you to reblog this so everyone who follows you doesn’t get stuck in the same position I was with no way out. 

It took me about a half hour to get down with practice, but once you get it, it’s an intuitive movement.

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