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PTSDating... find your outlet February.

I think I have dating PTSD if I’m gonna keep it a buck

Every time I like someone new, my head tell my heart “I wish you luck”

Never had someone to lean on like I needed a double cup

My relationships kept stalling out like I couldn’t work the clutch

I had this one girl who said I had too many hoes

I’m like baby these aren’t hoes, these just friends from long ago

But she wasn’t trying to hear it so…

Say Hello: Part II

If they want me to be a villain, I’ll do it, begrudgingly

Just so they don’t have to pretend they really fuck with me

The bad vibes, they stuck with me. They ain’t got no luck with me

I guess this is how it must go, it sucks to see

Lucky me, I’m the one they think they can treat however

But however, I told myself that I was going to do better

Rob them of the pleasure they get when they see me…

A Reminder…

I had to take a hiatus for myself, had way too many things on my plate

An outlet for putting thoughts into words, hoping other folks can relate

Trying to get my own thoughts in order, trying to set my own self straight

Trying to keep up with the Joneses, not realizing I set the pace.

It feels like my life is moving fast, we’re talking all gas and no brakes

Sometimes it feels like I pissed off the…

Hate Me For Who I Am

Hate me for who I am, don’t hate me for what you think

They throwing everything at me except the kitchen sink

They want me to sink, walking on thin ice on this hockey rink

And I realize that this shit can be snatched from you faster than you can blink

Hate me for who I am, But don’t twist my words

These nouns and verbs, I took time to craft and you got the nerve

To misinterpret what I say? That’s…

Knocking The Rust Off

They say if you don’t use it, eventually you’ll lose it

Consider this the way I make sure I’m more than a nuisance

These people think they’re aggressive, but their taunts are toothless

Young, wild & ruthless, you want beef? Then I’m Ruth Chris

High quality, I’m a star just come and see

Staring at the projection of everything they want me to be

I don’t care if I fail to meet your expectations you…

Too Old For Penpals

I say if you can’t pull up on me then what’s the point? All this sexual tension that we can’t even try and exploit All this texting back and forth, occasional facetimes Sounds like it’s just here to waste time, and I have more to do with my time I saw the signs that said it wasn’t gonna work & I ignored them shits The packaging was gorgeous, distracted me from the awful shit The audibles, we call…

It’s freestyle Friday and I haven’t wrote anything in a minute Been focused on this podcast and putting my all in it But the creative juices still flow & sometimes I need to vent And some people give up on me, like they believed in Lent Hoping the light at the tunnel is freedom & not an oncoming train I’d be in shape if I was as active as much as my brain Always thinking about best case and worst…

I tell her, our time together is our time together But when we’re apart, you can do whatever Ain’t no remote controls, its ok to go and roam See there’s no strings attached like Bluetooth with the speakerphones I just ask that you don’t stress me. Life is stressful enough I’ll be there when you need me, just try and not need me too much See the mental space I’m in, feels like a zone defense Yeah…

Hate Me For Who I Am

Hate me for who I am, not who you think I am You think I got a temper shorter than Yosemite Sam You think I’m trash, want me to be thrown to the garbage man You think I’m dense & I don’t take time to understand You think a lot of things, but you refuse to investigate You think I take a crooked path but you refuse to set the record straight You may see causation, but you aren’t sure if it…

Keep The Same Energy

I’m trying not to hold grudges but it’s getting kinda hard People love saying they’re real while promoting this façade I gave up getting even with folks, y’all been acting way too odd I’m not saying that I’m perfect, but at least I know my flaws I can’t pander to y’all, I don’t answer to y’all. I keep my mouth shut sometimes so I don’t seem like a cancer to y’all If we draw up the play then…

It feels like they need me to be the enemy To make their stories make sense, these niggas ain’t friends to me They wish they could kill me but I’m not ready to rest in peace I only take rest in pieces, I’m still here for them when they need it If you hate what I say, stand in line and file for a grievance I used to wear my heart on my sleeve, fucked around and became sleeveless I been doubted…

To me? Finding peace is like climbing Mt. Everest That’s why I don’t like crazy chicks, I don’t negotiate with terrorists Balling so hard, I might mess around and tear my wrist I don’t want them to step in my shoes, they might scuff up my favorite kicks King Diddy, I never enjoyed all the anticipation People always wanna rush thing but I believe in pacing Because when I was all gung-ho? I needed…

I been on a writing hiatus tying to get this podcast going They say when it rains, it pours. But what happens when it’s snowing? They are trying to prevent me from taking the shot, like they’re Bruce Bowen But niggas can’t stop the light and my nigga, I’m glowing. I’m a king. This the last time I’m going to say that though I find no use in advertising something that people already know No one…

I been on a writing hiatus tying to get this podcast going They say when it rains, it pours. But what happens when it’s snowing? They are trying to prevent me from taking the shot, like they’re Bruce Bowen But niggas can’t stop the light and my nigga, I’m glowing. I’m a king. This the last time I’m going to say that though I find no use in advertising something that people already know No one…

Part time lovers. Our time together is our time together And when we’re apart, what we do? It’s whatever Keep it on a need to know, I don’t need to tell you how it needs to go Just be prepared when their heart turns 3 below Yeah we’re talking super cold, folks out here getting super bold Trying to figure out where you stand is getting super old We treat partners like options on some sort of poll…