"Did you know that keeping your legs and hips elevated like this can increase the chances of conception after ejaculation?" You grin cheekily up at Zayne as he pants, cheeks flushed and inky hair sticking to his forehead as he looks down at you. "That... is not true."
Despite that, Zayne doesn't release your ankles. Nor does he pull out after emptying inside of you.
"It's not?!" You blink at him, genuinely shocked by this information. You've seen and heard that line used in so many books, shows, and movies that you just assumed it had to have some level of truth to it.
"No, it's just a myth." He reasons with you, a bemused smile forming on his lips as he looks down on you. Still, you can't help but counter back, still breathless with disbelief "It doesn't help... like at all?"
"Realistically, it only takes one sperm cell to reach the egg to be able to fertilize it. And I just put roughly at least 50 million into you..." You actually gasp at that, jaw going slack as you watch his cheeks deepen in hue.
"Zayne!" The statistics of your silly little comment are now making your brain go into a nose dive spiral. "It's the truth, a single ejaculation can have hundreds of millions of sperm cells within it. But it only takes one to make a baby."
You lay back against the pillows again, relaxing as Zayne slowly lowers your legs but still refuses to pull out of you. "Then how..." now, a small smile plays across his lips as he looks at you, leaning down to kiss your sweaty forehead.
"A woman's uterus naturally destroys a lot of them, and the journey through the reproductive tract is long. They get lost or die on their own along the way.â He still has a dopey grin on his face. âThat's why it can be so difficult."
"So... we should have you put like two billion in me just to be safe?" The look on Zayne's face is nothing short of pure exasperation, but the way he begins to twitch back to life within you says otherwise.
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đ àŁȘË ÖŽÖ¶ÖžđàŒàŒàż puts his hand over sharp table corners when you walk past them; He does it so naturally you almost miss it. Whenever you walk past sharp table corners or low hanging edges, his hand is already there before you even register it. His warm palm pressed against the edge, cushioning it so you donât bump into it. Most of the time, you donât even realize itâs happened until you feel itâSylus's hand brushing lightly against the side of your head instead of wood.
And when you finally do notice, itâs always the same.
You pause, turning your head slightly to look at him, caught between confusion and that soft, familiar flutter in your chest.
Sylus doesnât look at you right away. Only after a moment does his gaze flick toward you, calm and gentle, but softer when it meets your eyes. "Careful there, sweetie," he says, a teasing lilt threading through his voice.
"Wouldn't want an injured kitten on our hands, would we?"
ZAYNE
đ àŁȘË ÖŽÖ¶ÖžđàŒàŒàż knows exactly when your social battery is dying and gets you out of conversations; He notices when your smile starts to thin just a little too quickly in conversations, when your answers get shorter, when your eyes start drifting instead of really landing anywhere. He never interrupts you while itâs happening. He just waits until the exact second it becomes too much for you to keep pretending.
âExcuse me,â Zayne says smoothly when he finally steps in, appearing beside you as if heâs always been there. One hand settles lightly at your back, subtle enough that no one questions it, but firm enough that your shoulders immediately relax. Your coworker is still talking about some article she read, but Zayneâs presence quickly disrupts the rhythm of the conversation.
Zayne doesn't necessarily make it sudden or awkward, just gently redirects it, polite words and his calm authority wrapping around the conversation until it naturally dissolves.
And it's moments like that that make you so so grateful to be married to someone like zayne.
You barely even realized how much youâd been holding in until itâs suddenly gone, like someone finally loosened a tight knot in your chest. By the time you reach his car, the evening air feels colder than you expected. Zayne opens the passenger door for you without a word, like he already knows youâre running on empty.
You slide into the warm interior of his car, sinking back into the seat with a soft exhale, lashes fluttering shut for just a second longer than intended. âThank you for that, zaynie,â you murmur tiredly as he settles into the driverâs seat beside you.
Zayne glances at you, the faintest curve forming at the corner of his mouth. His gaze softening as his green eyes flicker over your tired expression, brushing a few stray hairs from your face. âOf course, my love."
CALEB
đ àŁȘË ÖŽÖ¶ÖžđàŒàŒàż automatically reaches for you when he's excited about something; Caleb has never been good at hiding his enthusiasmâthough he's never had any desire to hide it from you. The second he's telling you a story, showing you something cool, or rambling about whatever has caught his attention that day, he's automatically reaching for you without even realizing it.
"Okay, okay, but listen, pipsâ"
One arm slips around your waist as he talks, pulling you against his side while he launches into whatever ridiculous thing he's currently invested in.
"The wing shape is designed like that for a reason. And if you look hereâ"
Caleb's excitement only makes him more affectionate. A hand on your shoulder. An arm around your waist. Pulling you closer every few minutes like he physically needs you involved in the conversation. Half the time, he isn't even aware he's doing it.
Too busy sharing something he loves with his favorite person.
And somehow, by the end of it, you've learned absolutely nothing about airplanes, but you've learned quite a bit about how cute your husband looks when he's excited.
XAVIER.
đ àŁȘË ÖŽÖ¶ÖžđàŒàŒàż steals your blankets subconsciously but gives them back immediately when you whine; Xavier has this unconscious habit of stealing your blankets like itâs instinct. It starts innocently enough: movie nights, late evenings, him sitting just a little too close until somehow the entire blanket ends up draped over him instead of you.
You donât even notice at first.
Until youâre suddenly freezing.
âXavierrrrâ you mumble, tugging at the edge of the blanket.
He stirs slowly, blinking up at you like heâs just been pulled out of a dream. Thereâs a long pause where he processes absolutely nothing, thenâ
ââŠhm?â
âyou're hogging the blanket, xavi.â
Silence.
"...Sorry, star."
Then, without argument or complaint, he shifts immediately. Still half-asleep and grumbling under his breath, he lifts the blanket off himself and drapes it back over you, carefully tucking it around your shoulders until you're warm again.
The moment he's satisfied, he settles right back down. His arms slip around your waist, pulling you back against his chest with a sleepy sigh. His face buries itself in the crook of your neck, warm and familiar.
Within minutes, his breathing evens out again.
And by morning?
The blanket will somehow be wrapped around him once more.
RAFAYEL
đ àŁȘË ÖŽÖ¶ÖžđàŒàŒàż always checks your reflection before his own; Every time you pass a mirror together or find yourselves standing in front of your shared bathroom mirror: Rafayel's eyes find you first.
It doesn't matter if you're dressed up for one of his gallery openings or standing in one of his oversized shirts with your hair half done. His gaze always drifts toward your face before anywhere else.
Most nights, he'll wander into the bathroom while you're doing your skincare, drawn in by your presence more than anything else. You catch his reflection in the mirror as he walks up behind you, arms slipping around your waist before resting his chin on your shoulder. The embrace is loose and familiar, his attention seemingly fixed on your reflection rather than his own.
"Don't stare at me," you mumble, patting moisturizer into your skin. "I look dehydrated right now."
Then his arms only tighten around your waist. "Then you'll be my dehydrated, beautiful muse." He says sweetly, despite the teasing lit in his voice, which makes you roll your eyes as he presses a kiss to your cheek.
"I wonder if I'll still be your muse once I start shedding like a lizard."
Rafayel hums thoughtfully, resting his chin more firmly on your shoulder as he studies your reflection.
"Of course."
"Really?"
"Mm. Then I'd simply paint the most beautiful lizard in existence."
"...you're ridiculous."
Rafayel only smiles, pressing another kiss to your cheek.
"Anything for my muse."
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Zayne â Light sleeper. He always takes a shower before going to bed; he can't fall asleep otherwise. Has plain pajamas in cool tones, but in summer, he can sleep shirtless (đ«Š). Doesn't move much during the night and breathes softly, letting soft sighs pass through his lips when he's fully asleep. As a doctor, he is aware of the rule of no screens before bedtime, but 1) sometimes he goes straight to bed after typing reports, and 2) he likes to chat with you before going to sleep, so he doesn't follow it that much. When you're sleeping by his side, he either lets his arm open so you can cuddle beside him or he fully spoons you.
Rafayel â Heavy sleeper, but he wakes up at random noises, yet NEVER the alarm. He doesn't set alarms unless he has plans with you, and yes, he goes 5:50, 6:00, 6:10, 6:20- it's a nightmare. Can sleep very still and stiff when he finally rests after overworking himself (meaning he doesn't fully rest, but sleep is sleep), or in starfish mode. He has a huge bed for a reason, y'know? Gets tangled in the sheets, his pillows get all messy, and he can sleep in the weirdest positions when he's sleeping by himself. If you're with him, he needs to hug you or touch you in any kind of way.
Xavier â HEAVY SLEEPER. I don't think there's much I can say about him. We know he can sleep on the sofa, the bed, his bean bag... and he's definitely a pretty sleeper most of the time. Key word: most. When he's been sleeping for over 12 hours, his face gets all smushed on the pillows, his lips a little puckered, and cheeks squished oh so cutely, you have to take a photo! If you tease him too much, he won't wake up, but will start mumbling and bury his face in the pillows. Cuteness aggression goes hard with him. Rewarding of his clothes... whatever is comfy and warm will do. If you're sharing a bed, ditch one of the pillows; you're either sleeping on top or underneath him, so no more than one pillow is needed at this point.
Sylus â Oh, he's big. He's taking up a lot of space on the bed, that's why he has a custom-made mattress: perfect size, perfect cushioning. Wears fancy pajamas/robes or sleeps straight up naked/in underwear, on his stomach and face smushed on the pillows too... but he's too handsome, even his smushed face looks handsome, and kissable, too kissable... Don't kill me, but I think he snores a little bit, but it's more like a low grumble. He's a heavy sleeper, but his senses are too sharp; he will wake up if he perceives any weird noise. Most likely to sleep on top of you and bury his face in your neck. Sleeping on your bed will force you to snuggle closer, but oh well... can you reaaaally complain?
Caleb â My poor baby is a light sleeper :( I think it's rare if he gets to the REM phase, so he's always alert and frustrated because he can't fully rest. When he was younger, even if he had nightmares, he could sleep a bit more soundly. Of course, his sleep quality goes exponentially up when you sleep by his side. Spooning you is enough for him, and he likes it when you cling to his arm or put a hand on his chest. He feels like he can finally relax.
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sitting on zayneâs lap with your knees framing his thighs is the perfect way to occupy his hands so he canât type. specifically, youâve reached up and taken his glasses right off his face.
zayne dosenât stop to move you. he just rests his large cool hands on your waist, his fingers anchoring you firmly against him. without his glasses, his ethereal green eyes blink once, focusing entirely on you. his expression remains perfectly calm, but the tiny and familiar shift in his jaw tell you that you have his undivided attention.
âif this is a protest against my screen time, i should remind you that i have two more patient charts to review,â zayne says, his voice low and soft.
âoh, the charts can wait,â you announce, holding his glasses out of reach. âlook at me, instead. your favorite view is right here.â you smile at him confidently, when you day this. and you know you have every right to be.
a rare, breathtaking smirk plays on his lips. âmy vision is somewhat compromised without them, if iâm supposed to look at you, sweetheart, you will have to come closer.â
âyou can see me perfectly fine,â you reply, but you lean in anyway, your chest brushing against his.
âstill too blurry,â he says smoothly.
before you can tease him back, his grip on your waist tightens. with one effortless movement, his pulls you flush against his chest, your chin resting on his chest as you look up at him. the faint, clean scent of him, mixed with hospital sanitizer envelops you comfortingly. zayne tilts his head down, his gaze fixating completely on your lips.
âzayne..â you whisper, your hear suddenly doing violent flips against your ribs. âyouâre cheating.â
âiâm adapting to my circumstances,â he corrects softly, pleased at your cute reaction. he leans in until his lips are just millimeters away from yours, his cool breath brushing your skin. he doesnât close the distance right away. instead he just hovers there, torturing you with space between you.
âyour breathing has changed,â zayne whispers against your lips, his thumb moving to gently trace your jawline, his fingers sliding into your hair. âif youâd like your boyfriendâs attention, youâll have to deal with the side effects.â
â±â ââ ZAYNE is just a perfect husband, even more than they know.
â±â ââ MDNI just horny thoughts about zayne, once again.
"Zayne is such a wonderful husband."
The entire hospital knows of the mystery lady who seems to be the only thing more important to the man than surgery itself. The one who, if you ask about the cute homemade bento box or a cup of caramel coffee (with whipped cream on top) and a sticky note on the side, will say, âmy wife got it for me,â with a smile that you might have thought impossible for him to make.
"Zayne is such a wonderful husband."
Even your apartment neighbors know him as such, the sweet elderly lady on your left always greeting him with a hug and a coy smile, asking what goodies he brought for you today. Itâs his own fault, really, always bringing back a new bouquet of flowers, groceries he noticed you running out of, or a new pile of books you begged him to pick up from the library on his way over.Â
"Zayne is such a wonderful husband."
Especially in your eyes.Â
Especially when heâs been stuck in the hospital or on a god-forsaken business trip, pushed away from you for days (although he insists anything more than 24 hours is unbearable enough), and nothing can keep him from you once he returns.
Heâs such a wonderful husband, especially when he has you on your back, gasping for air and mercy you donât want as he forces your legs up higher, quivering thighs shoved against your chest.Â
Itâs hot, too hot, and not even Zayneâs Evol can keep up, sweat making long black strands stick to his forehead, dripping down his neck and back as you claw against every ripping muscle there, incoherent, burning up from the inside as you beg for more and more and more.Â
You were a mess already, undone by an hour prior of tortuously delicate touching, Zayneâs tongue giving unwavering attention to your clit and nipples, building you up until you practically ripped his pants off and demanded that he be inside you. Not that he could ever refuse you.Â
Now you think it might have been a mistake, feeding an insatiable beast.Â
Youâve already cum on his fingers, and yet you feel something build again, a pressure that feels more like a complete loss of control, intense and overwhelming as you gasp into Zayneâs neck, scrambling to push him off even as his hips fuck into yours.Â
âWait,â a moan, muffling yourself into your palm as Zayneâs thumb goes to your poor abused clit again, misreading your blabbering as an indication youâre close. âWait! No, no, itâs not. It feels different, justââÂ
Finally, he freezes. Pulls out, and immediately drops to his stomach, large hands pushing your thighs to your shoulders, tongue already at your cunt. âDonât stop me.âÂ
The please at the end of his sentence is swallowed by a guttural groan as he tastes you again, rich, heady, intoxicating. His eyes, half-open and lovedrunk, were locked on your face, never leaving, drinking in your unraveling expressions with terrifying devotion as you writhe and arch desperately into his mouth.
âThatâs it, love,â he leaves a kiss on your shaking legs before forcing you to hold them up yourself, his fingers immediately curl inside you. The horrible pressure in your stomach coils tighter, threatening to explode. âThatâs it, good girl. Youâre doing so good for me. Fuck.âÂ
And then his tongue joins his fingers, gently circling your clit as his fingers mercilessly piston in and out of you until they hit a spot that makes you scream. Everything inside you convulses, a violent, helpless shudder that rips a delirious sob from your chest as something bursts. You feel it even as the world spins, thighs and ass slippery and filthy as the obscene sounds of skin on skin are magnified, covered only with Zayneâs low, guttural moans, swallowing everything you give him.Â
He canât stop, panting against your cunt, leaving kisses and licking the spray of your release up your abdomen before heâs hovering atop you once more.
âAgain.â
Zayne flips you over, hands bruising your ass and waist in ways that make your eyes roll back, a moan ripping from you as Zayneâs hand pulls on your hair, forcing your limp head off the pillow and back, lips meeting yours in a wet, sloppy kiss that has saliva and sweat running down your throat. You think you might be losing consciousness or maybe just your sanity, but gods, you never want this to stop.
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Rafayel - The Paint on Your Cheek
Youâve been at his studio for an hour and youâve already knocked something over.
A jar of brushes, this time. They go everywhereâunder the table, under the couch, one heroic survivor rolls all the way to Rafayelâs bare foot and stops there like itâs surrendering. He looks down at it. He looks up at you. Youâre frozen with both hands clapped over your mouth, eyes huge, already mid-apology.
âOh no,â he says, deadpan. âMy brushes. My livelihood. How will I ever paint again.â
âRafayel, Iâm so sorry, Iâll pick themââ
âCutie.â He tips his head, and a piece of his hair falls into his eyes in that ridiculous way it always does, because it always makes him look pretty. âBreathe. Theyâre brushes. They roll. Thatâs their whole personality, donât even stress your head, okay?â
Heâs been watching you the whole time, which is half the problem.
You always get clumsier when he watches you. He knows this. He absolutely uses it. Heâll lounge on the couch with one knee up and his chin in his hand, just looking, and youâll lose the ability to operate a doorknob. Today heâs been sketching you in the corner of his pageânot the painting heâs supposed to be working on, the commission one, the important oneâand you caught him at it earlier and went so red he had to put the pencil down because his own face was getting warm.
He crouches down with you to gather the brushes.
Youâre both on the floor now, knees almost touching. He hands you one, and his fingers brush yours, and you flinch like heâs electric.
âYâknow,â he says, conversationally, lining a brush up on the tile, âfor someone whoâs been kissed by me a frankly impressive number of times, you still go pink like itâs our first date.â
âIâ I donâtââ
âYou do. Itâs my favorite thing.â He grins, eyes crinkling. âDonât ever stop.â
Thereâs paint on your cheek and he refuses to tell you.
You only realize it when you catch your reflection in the windowâa streak of pink swept right across your cheekbone, from when youâd rubbed your face earlier. You whirl on him. Heâs already laughing, that bright, unbothered laugh of his, head thrown back against the couch cushions.
âRafayel!â
âWhat? It suits you, cutie. Itâs my color. Youâre branded now.â
âYou let me walk around like thisââ
âFor at least forty minutes, yes.â He gets up finally, and crosses to you with that lazy, unhurried gait. His thumb comes up to brush at the paint gently, careful in a way his voice never is in moments like this. The teasing slides off his face for half a breath. âThere. Almost gone. Mostly.â
He kisses the spot anyway. Light. Quick. Like heâs signing it the way he signs his canvases, which you might as well be, at this point.
âThere,â he murmurs, and heâs smiling, but his ears have gone faintly pink and he wonât quite meet your eyes. âNow itâs mine.â
You hide your face in his shirt. He lets you, one hand settled at the back of your head, and pretends, for your sake, that his heart isnât doing anything embarrassing at all.
Zayne - When You Drop the Mug Again
He hears it before he sees it hit the floor.
The clatter of ceramic against the kitchen tile carries down the hallway, followed by the small, mortified sound you always make when youâve done something you wish nobody had witnessed. Zayne is in the doorway within seconds, still holding the medical journal he was reading, one finger tucked between the pages to mark his place. He takes in the chipped mug on the floor, the puddle of tea blooming around your slippered feet, and your wide eyesâand his expression doesnât change at all, except for the faint lift at the corner of his mouth that youâve learned, over time, is his version of trying not to smile.
âDonât move,â he says.
He goes for the dustpan, not for you.
Itâs a thing he does on purpose. He told you once, late at night with your face pressed into his shoulder, that he doesnât want fussing over you to feel like a verdict. So he sweeps up the shards in that quiet, methodical way he hasâsame hands that handle patient charts, same hands that tie his scarf for him in the mirror every morningâand only when the floor is dry and safe does he straighten up and look at you properly.
âFeet,â he says, and crouches.
âZayne, Iâm fine, it didnât evenââ
âFeet,â he repeats, in the same tone he uses on patients who try to lie about whether theyâve been taking their medication.
He checks for tiny cuts even though there are none.
You sit on the edge of the counter because heâs lifted you there, his palm warm at the back of your knee, and you can feel your ears going hot in that traitorous way they do whenever heâs this close and this serious. He turns each of your feet over in his hand like heâs reading them. Nothing. Of course thereâs nothing. He knew thereâd be nothing.
âWas it hot?â he asks.
âLukewarm. I let it sit too long again.â
âMm.â That single syllable contains an entire diagnosis. You forgot it on the counter because you got distracted reading. You always do.
He kisses your knee before he lets you down. Itâs quick. Almost businesslike. If you werenât paying attention youâd miss the way his ears go a shade darker under his hair, the way he turns toward the cabinet for a clean mug a beat too fast.
âIâll make you another,â he says, with his back to you. âSit. Donât help.â
âI can helââ
âSit.â
Later, you find the chipped mug glued back together on the windowsill.
He doesnât mention it. He never does. But that night, when you apologize again into the dark of the bedroomâIâm sorry Iâm such a mess, Iâm sorry, Iâhe sighs, pulls you closer by the waist, and murmurs into your hair, âStop apologizing for being someone I want to take care of.â
And you donât know what to do with that, so you just hide your face in his chest, and he lets you.
Xavier - The Counter Is Too High Again
Heâs half-asleep on the couch when he hears the stool wobble.
Xavier sleeps the way cats sleepâanywhere, instantly, with one ear still on the world. So even though his eyes are closed and his hair is a soft pale mess against the cushion, heâs already sitting up by the time the legs of the kitchen stool screech against the floor. Youâre up on your toes, reaching for the jar of honey on the top shelf, the one he keeps meaning to move down and never does because you keep insisting you can get it yourself.
You canât get it yourself. Both of you know this.
âWait,â he says, voice still rough from sleep.
You donât wait. The jar tips. You make a tiny, panicked noise.
Heâs across the room before the honey hits the counter.
Itâs the speed that always startles youâthat quiet, easy way he moves, like distance is a suggestion he chooses not to take seriously. One of his hands closes around the jar mid-fall. The other settles, warm and steady, at your waist, anchoring you on the stool so you donât pitch forward after it.
âGot it,â he murmurs.
âI almostââ
âI know.â
He says it without any of the I-told-you-so other people would lace into it. Xavier doesnât scold. He just notes things, the way someone might note the weather, and then he handles them. You look down at him from your slight height advantage on the stoolâa rare angleâand his hair is soft and rumpled and his eyes are the color of a sky youâve been trying to remember.
You go pink. Of course you go pink.
He tilts his head a fraction. Thereâs a slow, drowsy smile spreading across his face, the kind he only ever wears for you, the kind that makes him look about seventeen years old and very far from anything dangerous.
âWhat?â you whisper.
âNothing.â He hands you the honey jar like itâs a small, ceremonious gift. âYouâre cute when youâre embarrassed.â
âXavier.â
âThatâs my name.â
He doesnât let you climb down by yourself.
You try. He doesnât allow it. His hands come up under your arms and he lifts you down off the stool like you weigh nothingâbecause to him you doâand sets you on your feet so gently your slippers barely make a sound on the tile. His thumb brushes once, absently, over your hip before he lets go.
âYou couldâve just woken me up,â he says.
âYou were sleeping so well.â
âIâm always sleeping well. Youâre more important than sleeping well.â
He says things like that all the time. Quiet, true, unadorned. Like itâs nothing. Like he isnât slowly dismantling you sentence by sentence. You hide your face in your hands. He laughs softly, low and very fond, and pulls your wrists gently down.
âNone of that,â he says. âI want to see you.â
He makes the tea himself after that.
He moves you to the counterânot the stool, he gives the stool a small, suspicious look, like itâs personally offended himâand stands between your knees while the kettle heats. You play with the hem of his sleeve. He lets you.
âHoney?â he asks.
âYes, please.â
âMm.â He reaches past you without looking, gets the jar, sets it down. Kisses your forehead on the way back. âSee. Easy.â
You donât trust yourself to answer. He doesnât seem to need you to. He finds you adorable anyway.
Caleb - The Loose Step on the Porch
He warned you about that step three times this week.
The third one from the top. The woodâs gone soft from winter and he keeps meaning to fix it on his next leave, but his next leave is this leave, and he hasnât gotten to it yet because you keep finding more interesting things for him to do with his afternoons. So when he hears the small, surprised yelp from the porchâfollowed by the unmistakable thud of someone going down hardâheâs out of the kitchen before the screen door has stopped swinging.
Youâre sitting on the floorboards with one hand bracing behind you and the other clutching a paper bag of groceries that, miraculously, youâve kept upright. An orange has escaped and is rolling, with great purpose, toward the steps.
He stops in the doorway. He takes one look at the scene. His mouth does that thing where it tries very hard not to smile and fails completely.
âHoney,â he says, holding back a laugh..
âDonât.â you hiss.
âI didnât say anything.â
âYou were going to.â you huff.
âI was going to ask if youâre okay.â He crouches down in front of you, elbows on his knees, head tipped to one side. His hair falls into his eyesâthat soft, sandy brown he never bothers to push back unless you do it for him. âWhich step?â
ââŠthe one you told me about.â
âWhich one did I tell you about?â
âCaleb.â
Heâs laughing now. Quietly. Mostly to himself.
He takes the grocery bag out of your lap and sets it aside with care. Then he takes both your hands and turns them palm-up, checking for scrapes. Methodical, unhurried, all of his focus settled on you. Thereâs a small graze along the heel of your left hand. He frowns at it like it has personally offended him.
âStings?â
âA little.â
âAnywhere else?â
âMy pride.â
âWell.â His thumb brushes very lightly over the graze. âThat one I canât kiss better. The hand I can do something about.â
He does. Just a press of his mouth, warm and quick, against the inside of your wrist. You feel it everywhere. You always do. He glances up at you through his lashes and catches the color rising in your cheeks, and his smile goes a little crooked, a little pleased with itself.
âThere it is,â he murmurs.
âThere what is.â
âThat face you make every single time. The one where you pretend youâre not embarrassed and you go pink anyway.â He sits down beside you on the porch floor, knees drawn up, shoulder bumping gently against yours.
He retrieves the orange before he retrieves you.
Itâs almost at the bottom of the top step by the time he ambles over and scoops it up, tossing it once in the air and catching it without looking. Heâs wearing the soft grey t-shirt you stole twice last month, and he looks so much like home in the late afternoon light that you have to look away for a second just to remember how to breathe normally.
He notices that too. He notices everything. Itâs a problem.
âYouâre doinâ it again, pip.â he says, settling back down beside you with the orange in his hand.
âDoing what?â
âLooking at me like I just walked through the door after six months.â His voice has dropped, lost the teasing lilt. âIâve been home a week, sweetheart.â
âI know.â
âI know you know.â He turns the orange in his palm, smiling. âI just like that you still do it.â
He helps you up like youâre made of something breakable.
His hand is broad and warm at your lower back, and he lifts you mostly with that one point of contact, the other hand finding yours and not letting go even once youâre standing. You shift your weight tentatively. Your ankleâs fine. Your kneeâs fine. Everythingâs fine. The only thing thatâs not fine is the way your face refuses to cool down, because heâs still looking at you with that quiet, careful attention, like checking you over is something he gets to do now, like he gets to be the one who does it.
âVerdict?â he asks.
âIâll live.â
âGreat.â He bends, picks up the grocery bag, tucks it against his hip. The other hand stays in yours. âCause Iâm fixing that step tomorrow. First thing.â
âYou said that last week.â
âI mean it this week.â
âYou said that last week too.â
âPips.â He pulls you in by the hand until youâre tucked under his arm, and presses a kiss into your hair, and you can feel him smiling against the top of your head. âAre you tryinâ to start a fight with the man whoâs about to make you dinner?â
He does fix the step. Not tomorrow. That evening, after dinner, with the porch light on.
You watch him from the doorway in his soft grey t-shirt, sleeves shoved up, a pencil tucked behind his ear that he doesnât appear to be using. He whistles while he works. He glances up every minute or so, just to check that youâre still there, and every time he catches you watching him he grins like heâs won something.
You think, watching him, that heâs been home a week and the house already doesnât know how to be a house without him in it.
You donât say it out loud for him to hear. When he comes back inside, dusty and pleased with himself, he takes one look at your face and says, very softly, âI know, baby. Me too.â
And thatâs the whole conversation.
Sylus - You Spilled Wine on His Shirt
The shirt is black. The wine is red. The math is, frankly, in your favor.
You realize this approximately half a second after the glass tips, which is approximately half a second too late. The stem slippedâyour fingers were nervous because he was looking at you the way he looks at you, like youâre the only interesting thing in a room full of people heâs been politely tolerating all eveningâand now thereâs a dark patch of wine spreading across the front of Sylusâ very expensive, very tailored shirt.
You stop breathing.
He looks down. He looks at you. He raises one brow.
âSweetie,â he says, in that low, gravel-and-honey voice of his, âyou missed.â
He is, somehow, smiling.
Itâs the smallest version of his smileâthe one that lives mostly in the corner of his mouth and the slight narrowing of his red eyesâbut it is, undeniably, a smile. You can feel your whole face going hot.
âIâm so sorry, Iâllâ let meââ You grab a napkin. You grab three napkins. You start dabbing at his chest with a bit too much panic, even for your embarrassed state. âIt just slipped, I donât know why, my hand justââ
âMm.â He doesnât move from his spot. He lets you fuss. His hand finds your wrist gently, and stills it. âYouâre making it worse.â
âIâm sorryâ"
âStop apologizing.â
He says it the way he says most thingsâlike an order dressed up as a suggestion.
You go still. The napkin sits crumpled in your hand. Heâs still holding your wrist, his thumb tracing one slow, idle circle against your pulse point, and his eyes are doing that thing where they soften only at the edges, where youâd miss it if you didnât know him.
âItâs a shirt,â he says.
âItâs an expensive shirt.â
âTheyâre all expensive shirts, kitten.â His mouth tilts. âThatâs the point of having too much money. You get to be casual about ruining things.â
He plucks the wine glass out of your other hand and sets it well out of reach. A precaution. You catch the small, amused tilt of his mouth as he does it, and you go even pinker, if such a thing is physically possible.
âYou did that on purpose,â you accuse, weakly.
âI did.â His voice is unrepentant. âYouâre quite clumsy with stemware. Iâm protecting my furniture.â
âSylusââ
âAnd my floors. And my staff. Andââ he leans in, voice dropping low, just for you ââmy sanity, which you ruin nightly, by the way. In case you were keeping score.â
You make a small, strangled sound. He looks delighted.
He takes the shirt off right there.
Casually. Like itâs nothing. Buttons undone with that easy, practiced flick of his fingers, and then itâs draped over the back of a chair and forgotten, and heâs standing there in a plain black undershirt that does absolutely nothing to help your current condition.
He notices you checking him out. His smile sharpens.
âEyes up here, sweetie.â
âI wasnâtââ
âOh, but you were.â
He hooks one finger under your chin and tips your face up. His expression has gone almost gentleâthe version of gentle that only exists in private, the version most of the world will never see and would never believe in if they were told.
âBreathe,â he says quietly. âItâs a shirt. Youâre allowed to drop things in your own home.â
Your own home. Thatâs what undoes you. He always says it like that, like the question of whose home it is was settled a long time ago, and you simply havenât caught up yet.
Later, he absolutely tells Mephisto the story.
You hear him from the next room, low and amused, and you hear Mephistoâs offended kraa, and you bury your face in a cushion and you think, with a kind of helpless, baffled warmth, that you have never, in all your life, been this loved by anyone half this dangerous.
âI still can't believe that you managed to lose your voice too,â you comment, pressing a soft peck to Zayne's burning forehead as you wrap the duvet tighter around your tangled bodies. You frown upon realising that his temperature hasn't faltered since you last checked it, hoping the medicine he's taken will take effect soon.
âI love you, you know that, right?â he whispers fondly, his voice barely audible over the dulcet pitter-patter of the rain falling outside your window. His eyes are soft at the edges as he peers at you, the area around his nose tinted a bright red from the number of times he's abused it with the tissues that now lay in a pile next to him. Yet, even in this disheveled state, you almost want to groan at how beautiful Zayne looks.
As if saying it once isn't enough, Zayne's hands reach under the duvet aimlessly until they find yours, interlocking your fingers together as he brings them up to his lips. He presses a delicate kiss to each of your knuckles before mumbling, âI love you so, so much.â
The sensation of his lips brushing against your fingers sends jolts through your chest, your heart warming at how gentle he is with you even after all this time.
âI love you too, but please stop talking because it's not going to make your voice any better,â you scold, taking notice of the growing scratchiness evident in his voice. The irony of having to lecture a doctor about taking care of himself isn't lost on you, but Zayne doesn't seem particularly inclined to listen.
âIf you think me losing my voice is somehow going to stop me from saying how much I love you, you're wrong.â
Jealous LADS! What causes the LADS boys to get jealous, the reaction and the solution.Â
#Fluff, no smut. Lightly alludes to sexual activity but none included.Â
__Xavier_________________________________________
How jealous is he: 10/10 - He wouldnât have it any other way too
Cause: Anything. This guy is the jealous king. It's extremely rational in his mind as well; he fundamentally doesnât understand why someone wouldnât react the way he does because it's so engrained into him. Definition of âI am yours and you are mineâ because he absolutely would feel a certain type of way if you werenât jealous in a situation that set him off. Do you not care? Nothing unique to set him off, even an object could do it.
Reaction: A cold anger that turns into sulking. He wonât say it out loud (and would probably deny it if you pointed it out) but he expects you to fix his mood about it and definitely takes it out on you. In his mind, you should be showering him with attention because he is your person and he is upset.Â
Solution: Feed him attention. He doesnât really care about what TYPE of response you have to his sulking so long as there is one. He then will always use it to worm his way into your bed and will stay there until he feels better. Jealousy is usually intense but relatively short lived compared to some of the others.
How jealous is he: 8/10 - Generally his jealousy doesnât run deep but is a frequent occurrence on a surface level.
Cause: Being hit on mostly, however he would also be jealous of overly close friendships if they eat into your time together. The reactions would vary slightly.
Reaction:If you are being hit on, the amount of jealousy relates to how highly he views the person hitting on you. If they are some no name with no discernable skills or looks, he really wonât care. Might even tease you about the men you are attracting. However, if they stand out, he is going to immediately turn snappy. Will absolutely say something. Then will sulk and be passive aggressive.Â
If it was a close relationship, he would get moody and sulky. Will start out with passive aggressiveness before hitting a wall and actually communicating.Â
Solution: Been hit on? Honestly it's a waiting game. Whether you pour attention into him or choose to ignore him for his behavior, it's going to last longer than you care for. You could spend the entire night in his bed spoiling him rotten, and heâd still have the audacity to make a passive aggressive remark the following morning about you and the person who hit on you.Â
For someone close, itâd actually be easier to resolve because he wore out his passive aggressiveness in the early stages. By the time you guys can TALK about it, heâll be more vulnerable.Â
How jealous is he: 8/10 - Not super common in day to day life (at least not with any intensity) but is a huge problem when it happens.Â
Cause: He responds worst to you being hit on or seeing you with strangers having a good time. He generally wonât get that jealous if it's someone he knows because he goes out of his way to know almost a creepy amount of information on the people in your life and make sure they are good people who benefit you (and him LOL). He has built his life around you and in turn has tried to build your life to have space for him. He doesnât like it when new people try to enter since he has to navigate the fear of potentially losing some of that space.Â
Reaction: He goes through stages. First, the anger and irritation that is hidden behind his smile. Then it will genuinely fade for the rest of the day as you guys hang out. However, once nightfall hits and he has to sit with his thoughts, he will ruminate and make the situation 1000x worse. By the end of it, he feels out of control, depressed and scared. That is when his controlling nature kicks in to correct his spiral, and he starts âproblem solving.â This is when it gets bad for you because he is absolutely going to enact a plan that gives him some sense of control when it comes to YOU. It will end in a fight, you being confused because you donât know WHAT caused it and him feeling like he went a bit overboard. Truthfully, youâll probably never know the reason for his bizarre reaction.Â
Solution: Try to catch in an earlier stage like when he is ruminating, if you are lucky enough to notice. If you donât then, biting back against his controlling nature while also solidifying his place in your life will make for the best overall solution. Lots of aggressive comfort from your end. It gives him the security he needs without tying the solution to his spiral to his more.. questionable behavior. He is going to be VERY loving and sweet after it concludes.Â
__Zayne_________________________________________
How jealous is he: 5/10: Short lived but gets pretty angry.Â
Cause: Mostly from being hit on in front of him.Â
Reaction: Will get cold and mean, real fast. Not towards you, but the other individual. He sees it as disrespectful to you, him and your relationship. So he also views you more as a victim of the situation. He will check on you afterwards to make sure you werenât made uncomfortable or angry as well. If you were, his anger is going to multiply by 100x.Â
Solution: I think other than initial comfort after the event, he will get over it pretty quickly. Teasing him will improve his mood, as it will cause him to transition from angry to embarrassed to playful. Heâll absolutely make a dry joke at the expense of the person who hit on you later. Will be a tad bit more clingy that night.
__Sylus__________________________________________
How jealous is he: 4/10: Generally isnât jealous and handles it okay when he is.
Cause: Randoms hitting on you isnât a concern for him, he definitely views them as beneath him. In fact, I think heâd view it as an opportunity to claim you in public, embarrassing the other person. When he does get jealous, it's going to be due to someone close to you. It makes him feel a bit insecure when it seems like you are closer to someone more than him.Â
Reaction: Sylus is probably the most emotionally mature out of everyone, maybe even you. He will get upset, ruminate on it a bit but will pretty quickly come to you to talk about it. He is direct and vulnerable in these moments.
Solution: Be honest and vulnerable back. These moments of vulnerability mean a lot to him. After you guys talk, heâll generally go out of his way to somewhat befriend whoever made him insecure. Feeling like they have a place in your lives jointly helps feel much better. Go ahead and tease him about it, he will joke back without much shame.