Gonna say the heaviest part right away: As a minor I was raped, and then restrained and raped by their dogs. This is not every paraphile's experience but it is why I started having one. I'm a zoophile in fantasy only, irl there's too many variables, chances, and I will never ensure consent.
I have loved dogs my entire life, including before my assault. I love dogs so much still that I am a dog groomer, and spend free time learning more of the practice and how to train them in general. I have never accepted an animal that I was in any way attracted to. If I look at a dog and feel any type of horny I refer them to another groomer.
Now that I've clarified. I dream of owning a big dog and being in a long term sexual+romantic relationship with him. Their cocks are hot to me. Knotting is so cool, just in a scientific way. Also was raised in a way that I don't have an overly human ego, i.e. I have been hyperaware of my animalistic traits far more than others would admit to even having.
Never going to own a dog, because I do not ever want the chance of giving in, but in my daydreams it is what I imagine.
I'm gonna be totally real with you right now: your past is sufficiently fucked up that I really wouldn't trust myself to offer proper support and sympathy without accidentally coming off as offensive or tone deaf somehow. But I'm just glad it sounds like you're doing better now π₯²
HOWEVER the good news is that I have a fun fact that may be relevant to you! Did you know that at least one company actually creates dildos based directly on the cocks of real animals?
I first learned of this while reading the amazingly-titled article "Animal Dildos: An Ethical Analysis"
And if you have any reservations about the ethics involved in molding dildos based on real dog cocks, be sure to check out this oddly defensive disclaimer on the site:
Bearing all this in mind, I'd like to introduce my blog's newest sponsor:
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