#yoonoh

Standing on your tiptoes, you squeezed a kiss to his lips. They were cool as marble. 

Jaehyun stared into your eyes. Now, overcome with desire, his character was meant to tear the buttons off your shirt and pull you close, just as the lights dimmed. 

But Jaehyun stepped away from you. "Time out!" He sighed. "I just cannot understand what my character sees in hers. Why does he suddenly give in?" 

The director nodded. "He’s right. We need some chemistry here, guys! This is… PG-13 at best.” 

Jaehyun looked at you. "Listen, you may have never seduced a man, but you are going to have to pretend. That is of course, what actors do." 

You could just strangle him. Never seduced a man?  Jaehyun thought he was so much better than you, with his stupid little theatre degree from Harvard. 

You didn’t need a fancy degree to be a good actor. Plus, you could eat Harvard boys for breakfast - and you had. You’d tasted half the football team, in fact. 

Four hours later, you still hadn’t got the scene. 

The director looked like he'd had enough. "Sort out the chemistry by tomorrow, or I’m firing one of you. Which one do you think I should fire?" 

"Him!" you said, at the same time as Jaehyun snapped, 'Her!" 

You stormed up the stairs of the auditorium to get your bag from one the seats. Chemistry problem. Bullshit. That was like saying Albert Einstein had an intelligence problem. 

"Where do you think you're going?" Jaehyun said. 

A tiny shiver ran down your spine. 

"Are you really going to give up on the scene that easily?" Jaehyun taunted. "I've seen chihuahas with longer attention spans." 

"It’s tough acting against a brick wall," you shot back. 

Jaehyun shuddered. "If I have to teach you how to act, I will. Come here."

You walked over to him. 

"Margot is trying to seduce her husband. Your acting is too unidimensional!" 

"Uni-what?" you said. 

"Obvious! You're playing it too obvious," Jaehyun said. "I can see why that would be a problem for you. The whole Barbie thing usually does the trick with men, doesn't it? With your tight dresses and your… long legs. " He glanced at your body, and quickly looked away. But you’d noticed.   

You smirked. "So you think I'm hot." 

Jaehyun scoffed. "What I'm saying is, you need to play the role with your whole body. Subtle - yet hair-raising." He grabbed your script. "I'll try Margot. Watch and learn." 

Jaehyun stepped towards you. 

On the surface, nothing had changed. But Jaehyun was a different man. His face was flushed, his breaths shaky. His eyes kept flashing to your lips, like it took everything in him not to kiss you. 

"Does my gaze make you feel nothing?" he said quietly, his black eyes searching yours. "My touch?" He twined his fingers in your hair, and you couldn't hide the sound of your breath catching.

Every inch of your skin was alive.

"My kiss?" 

Jaehyun kissed you. His lips were so much gentler than you'd expected. You knew it was just acting, but Jaehyun seemed so into you it made him nervous. His whole body trembled with desire. 

You pulled back, struggling to catch your breath. That kiss was hair-raising.  

Something told you Jaehyun wasn't that good an actor. 

Jaehyun pulled back, his face flushed, a pink cloud of lipstick rimming his mouth. He was biting his plump lips, almost as if he was fighting a smile. "Clear?" 

You smiled. "You've forgotten the end of the scene."

An unreadable expression flashed over Jaehyun’s face. 

“How did it end again?” he murmured, his eyes fixed on yours. 

Your eyes fell to Jaehyun’s lips. “Margot and Lewis find the time to… reconnect.” Your fingers found the opening of Jaehyun’s shirt. “To get to know each other again.” 

Jaehyun gulped. “I thought they hated each other.” You started unbuttoning Jaehyun’s shirt, one button at a time. He shivered under your touch. “Hate and love aren’t as different as you think,” you said. 

You abandoned Jaehyun’s shirt on the seats. His body belonged in an art gallery, a sculptor’s impression of the perfect man. Only, Jaehyun was not still and cold anymore. His chest was rising and falling, his flesh hot. 

“This doesn’t mean I’m giving in,” Jaehyun said. “I still abhor you.” 

“And I still don’t give a damn what abhor means,” you said, smirking. Jaehyun hoisted your leg up against his hip. His lips met yours now, hungrily, no script to lead the way. 

On the couch in Jaehyun's big New York apartment, you smirked down at him, stroking his chest. "How was that for seducing a man?" 

"Excellent work," Jaehyun said in mock-seriousness, trying not to look ridiculous despite still panting. "Highly commendable." 

“You know…” you said, nuzzling into his chest, “if you were so into me, why did you act like a jerk?” “I’m married,” he said.

 You felt a pang of disappointment.   

“Divorced, to be precise,” Jaehyun continued. “Eight years. She was my… my first.” He spoke into your hair now. “I didn’t know what to do with the way I felt about you. I know I’m just a fling to you, but-“ “You’re not,” you said, moving to meet his eyes. He was gnawing at his plump lip, and you smoothed your finger over it, stopping him. “The way I felt last night… let’s just say I don’t get that a lot.” Your voice dropped. “Or ever.” “Are you saying I’m the best you’ve ever had?” Jaehyun said, turning you around so he was hovering over you, wearing a smug smirk.

“You’re gonna have to work a lot harder to earn that title…” you said, fixing your fingers in his hair. 

-- 

The next day, when you returned to rehearsal, something had changed. “You- um, you first,” Jaehyun said, gesturing to the coffee pot. 

“No, really, you,” you said, rubbing the back of your neck. You had no idea how to act professionally now. Should you touch Jaehyun? Smile at him? Ignore him completely?  

You both broke out into laughter.  

When it came to that scene, however, you and Jaehyun fought the urge to rush to the end.  

"Does my gaze make you feel nothing - my touch - my kiss, blah blah blah..." you mumbled, then pulled Jaehyun towards you in a kiss that made you weak in the knees. 

A lot of the director’s throat-clearing later, Jaehyun finally prised you off him, and you stood next to each other. The spotlights were a little blurry – or was that your eyes?  

The director started a slow clap, his mouth ajar. 

"Will these two set the house on fire? I think so!" He walked towards you, lowering his voice. "But really, how did you do it? What's the secret?"

You grinned at Jaehyun. "We were just acting. That is, of course, what actors do." 

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Global studies, a quick break from the ever blaring bright screen of his laptop, it was a given, being a computer engineering student, but Jaehyun is more than glad to be in his minor classes now, he isn't stressed about this subject at all, he was always fond of studying and being up to date on what's happening around the world, very ‘dad-like’ of him, Jaehyun stops his fiddling with his pen, the stationary idle in his lithe fingers.

He remembers the first time he’s heard this, a very vivid memory that other people might find surprising.

It was when he was 16, the year where students get to relax after taking the government examination the year before. Jaehyun was training for his upcoming basketball match, he was the star player of the school, popular for his good looks, high marks, and his remarkable aim on the court.

While he was taking a rest from running laps around the court, quickly reading through the morning news on the paper laid out in front of him, that’s when you came in, looking around before spotting a vacant ball, shooting hoops, Jaehyun didn't mind, it's not like he was using it in the first place, but it seems like a basketball couldn't keep you entertained until the end of lunch hour, because you walked over to him, observing silently.

“Aren't you a little young to be reading the papers?” you joked, which caught Jaehyun’s attention, his focus on whatever article he was reading disappeared.

“What do you mean?” Jaehyun was confused, usually girls are saying this to shoot their shot, he always acts dumb, it’s better that way.

“I don't know, usually guys who read the papers are dads, you're an old soul, aren’t you? At first I thought you were doing it to keep up with your 'future president student body’ image, but no one’s here other than this loner, so you're just very ‘dad-like’ then,” you point to yourself before ending with a conclusion to Jaehyun’s personality, a first, no one’s ever described him in such a... plain manner before.

It was true, Jaehyun was most probably going to end up being president, his clean reputation and friendliness towards students has everyone garnering their votes for him, even though he couldn't possibly be president until his senior year.

“I just like knowing what's going on, just curious about things,” Jaehyun said, almost defensively, he didn't know if you were seeing him in a bad light or good, he does have a few people voicing their dislike towards him.

“Interesting, how about we play a match of hoops, golden boy? Loser has to buy the other ice cream,” you offered, getting to your feet from your cross legged position.

“You want to challenge someone on the school team to a competition?” Jaehyun asked, you were confusing him, unpredictable, why would you ever want to do this?

“Why not? And it's just a friendly match, not everything in life is a competition, Jeong,” you said before passing him the ball, the star player catches it in both his hands before it slams to his chest, you were a lot stronger than you look.

There were many reasons as to why he should decline the offer, the biggest being that he could make himself an enemy in your eyes, but he couldn't help but say yes when he watched how you slightly bounced on your heels, not one bit of competitiveness in your eyes.

The match was exciting, playing with someone quick and smaller was a switch up for Jaehyun, you were by no means bad at basketball, there was only a difference of three points between the two of you.

“You could've made it to the school team, why didn't you try out?” Jaehyun asks before he takes a swig of his water bottle.

“Your female counterparts aren't as friendly as they make out to be, golden boy, I rather be alone than be scrutinised for my every move,” you said as you wiped the sweat off your forehead with the back of your hand.

Jaehyun didn't know how to reply, he’s never talked to them much, but they seem to like him enough to not get mad when he uses the court past time.

“I'll see you around, Jeong, tell me when you want to claim your prize” you said before taking your leave, not knowing that you’d change his life forever.

Jaehyun snaps himself out of the old memory when Johnny places his bag next to him, clapping his shoulder in greeting.

“Thank god Mr Lee’s late, coach wanted to let me know about today’s practice,” Johnny said as he slumped down in his seat, sighing at the comfort of lying down on his own arms.

“I'm sure Mr Lee wouldn't mind if you told him coach went looking for you,” Jaehyun said, his fingers resume fiddling the pen.

“Easy for you to say, you actually get all his work done,” Johnny groaned before he sees the professor walk in with a student they haven't seen before, elbow jabbing lightly at Jaehyun’s arm.

“There's a new girl,” Johnny said before Jaehyun’s eyes glance upwards to catch a glimpse of said girl, but he couldn't see much of her, her hair falling onto her face as she takes some books from the professor.

Jaehyun and Johnny waits, finally you were done talking to Mr Lee, your face finally facing the students, Jaehyun’s breath hitches as you broke into a smile after spotting a familiar face, making your way to none other than Jaehyun.

“It's been so long, do you remember me?” you asked, still not believing your eyes that Jaehyun is in front of you.

“Yeah, it's great to see you, when did you come back?” Jaehyun asked as he gets up from his seat, signaling Johnny to scoot over, his friend doing as he says, interest peaking.

How could Jaehyun forget you when you were just on his mind a few minutes ago?

“I decided to continue my last year here, feels good to be back, what are you majoring in Jae?” you asked.

“Computer engineering, what about you?” Jaehyun asked, he still remembers at the back of his head that you wanted to be a writer back then.

“Fashion journalism, just thought it’d be more interesting than literature itself,” you explained, just in case if he remembers, but you think not, it's been years after all.

“Cool,” Jaehyun replied, not knowing what to say.

“Are you going to introduce me to your old friend or not Jae?” Johnny asks from beside Jaehyun.

Jaehyun gives the brief introductions, explaining how they had met in the team, a form of understanding on your face when he mentioned basketball.

“So how did the two of you meet?” Johnny asked, he's never seen his friend this nervous before.

“Jaehyun and I go way back, we had a short lived puppy romance before I moved away to Connecticut,” you explained before Mr Lee clears his throat to begin the class.

Johnny side eyes Jaehyun, he's in for a lot of explaining.

“Dude, how could you leave out this kind of crucial information about your life? She's even hotter than your ex back in freshman year,” Johnny said, plopping himself onto Jaehyun’s bed after getting back from the showers at the school gym.

“It's been a long time, like she said, puppy love, nothing more, nothing less,” Jaehyun said, low key annoyed that Johnny is hogging his bed only because he wants to know every single detail about his old relationship.

“Doesn't sound like it to me, you talk about all your other exes with a normal voice, this isn’t a normal reaction, Jae, still missing your first love?” Johnny teased, not knowing that he struck a chord.

“Man I’m really tired, you should go and take a nap too,” Jaehyun pulls Johnny up from his bed before shoving him out of his door, the taller of the two whining about whatever ‘sacred bro code' he breached.

Jaehyun takes Johnny's place on his bed, a hand coming up to cover his eyes as he sighs, what's the point if he misses you or not, he probably doesn’t have a place in your head anymore, he wonders what’s next to his name in your head, or was it already fading away if it wasn't for meeting him again? All these years of wondering how you’re doing and suddenly you're back in his life once more.

The stars aligned and now Jaehyun has your new number saved into his phone, what are the odds?

Jaehyun’s doing the right thing, but why does he feel like this will be his greatest regret in life? Helping you run away right before graduation exams is probably the worst thing a student could do, but it didn’t matter to you, you’d be starting a whole new life in Connecticut, without him.

He should’ve seen it coming, the way you were helping him revise his studies as he trained for the team, he wanted to opt out of the school team all together, until you volunteered that is. Day by day after school, he’d be shooting hoops while you quizzed him and acted like his personalised audio book, he didn’t bat an eye at it at that time, the two of you shared similar subjects, but now that he’s standing right outside the departure gates at Incheon airport, he understands why.

“Do you really have to go?” he asked, a hand holding yours tightly, yours were clammy from your anxiety of boarding a plane all alone for a long flight to oceans away, but he didn’t mind one bit, he just wants you next to him, but he also wants you to be safe and happy.

“You know I have to, there’s no way I’ll remain sane in that household, I really want to stay for you, Jae, but they’re killing me, if I’m lucky, it’s just their words, but you know how my father gets when he’s agitated,” you said, your heart half into it, they’re going to be your past anyways, focusing on memorising Jaehyun’s face, the way his eyes hold yearning for you, yearning for you to stay, oh how much you want to flip those downturned lips of his back into a smile, you miss the indent of his dimples.

“I’m going to miss you...so much,” Jaehyun says as he pulls you into a tight embrace, a freshly turned 18 year old boy facing his very first heartbreak.

“I’m going to miss you too, Jae, focus on your SATs okay? Forget about me,” you said, the comfort of your warm tiny hands patting his broad shoulders, a stark contrast to the chill that ran down his spine when he heard your words.

“What? What do you mean forget you?” Jaehyun asked, pulling away to see your excuse of a smile, the one that you use whenever you lied about being fine, the one that’s actually filled with all the sadness in the world, in Jaehyun’s world.

“I can’t afford to be your distraction, Jae, it’s for the best, I’m not the person for you, we’re still so young, you’re going to meet someone’s who smarter, prettier, so much more than I’ll ever be, someone who isn’t broken,” you said, choking up.

“No! I won’t! What are you talking about? You’re all I’ll ever need, I told you that, and you’re not broken, you just need healing, please don’t leave us like this, give me a little more time, give us a chance, please,” Jaehyun said, he wants to prove to you that he’d be able to find a balance between you and studies.

“The time difference would be much more difficult than you think, Jae,” you said before taking one look at your watch, the same one Jaehyun had gifted you just two months into the relationship, “I have to go now, thank you for everything and giving us a chance, Jaehyun ah, don’t miss me too much,” you said before tugging your hand out of his.

Jaehyun watches you with a crestfallen face, like a sad puppy as he watches you walk into the gates, walking out of his life.

Jaehyun wakes with a jolt, he lays back into the warmth of his bed, questions running through his mind.

Did you only see him as a distraction back then? Did you ever miss him like he did to you? He desperately wants to know where you head and heart is, even today.

A cup of iced americano appears in front of his desk when Jaehyun was still blurry from the dream-filled sleep he had, the usually enthusiastic to learn student was very much not into it before he was startled by the weight of the cup before he sees you, smiling down at him.

“Morning,” you said before slinging the heavy weight of your backpack down your chair, reminding the days when Jaehyun volunteered to carry your bag as well as his on his shoulders as the two of you walked home from school, an ice pop in each your hands, the sweet split into two to share.

“How did you know about my coffee order?” Jaehyun asked, confused, he remembered he didn’t have a cup of coffee yesterday.

“I asked Johnny, he gave me his number,” you explained before you spot the 6 foot tall man trudging into class loudly with a tinier guy beside him, a hand slung over his shoulder, breaking into a giant smile when he spots the two of you.

“This coffee means we have to be best of friends from now on, okay?” you asked, a hand lightly punching Jaehyun’s shoulder, the firm muscles your fist felt was quite shocking at first, the Jaehyun you know now is very much different from the Jaehyun back then, how much has he really changed on the inside, you don’t know.

“Yeah, sure,” this would need some getting used to, maybe you’ve moved on, maybe Jaehyun’s just stuck in the past, it was just a mere puppy love right?

The two of you were partnered up for a project along with another student, Oh Sehun who was fresh out of military service, at first Jaehyun didn’t mind, he didn’t personally know the guy, until he started being a little more than charming towards you.

Jaehyun had to remind himself that the two of you were just friends, he didn’t have any right to voice his opinions on who you wish to see or meet. Your group of trio had a discussion in the library, things were going smoothly to Jaehyun, but he had to excuse himself when he got a call from Johnny that practice was starting soon.

“Hey, I have to go for basketball, you send me all the details, okay?” Jaehyun asked you as he packed up his things, shooting you the same apologetic smile he used to give you back in high school, god the nostalgia is killing Jaehyun.

“Yeah, sure, be safe,” you said, unknowingly, the same words you’d utter back then, Jaehyun could feel his heart being yanked back right into the pool of your eyes when you said it, for a brief moment, Jaehyun holds your stare. suddenly the two of you weren’t in Seoul university, but back in the dingy classroom, Jaehyun in his jersey and you in his jacket because your space next to him was always under an AC vent.

Jaehyun quickly snaps out of it, nodding nervously before he leaves you with Oh Sehun, and if he was being honest himself, reluctantly.

His teammates could tell something was terribly wrong with their usually smiley player today, playing as hard as if he was competing in the championships, every one of them shoots a questionable look to Johnny, the person who’d most probably understand Jaehyun the most, being roommates for so long now, Johnny only shrugs, he’s Jaehyun’s roommate. not therapist, and he’s the most closed off person among all his teammates, figuring out Jaehyun would take a freaking mastermind.

Jaehyun sees your story during a break, a photo of a cup of hot coco, the machine ones that cost nothing more than 2000 won, the caption was thank you, tagging two people, one was none other than Oh Sehun, and the other one that he recognised from one of his classes, Cha Eun Woo, what was he doing with the two of you, Sehun was your group member, not whoever this guy is.

When Johnny saw the sudden appearance of a scowl, he knew he had to do something about his moody buddy, walking over to the bench where his friend was at, he notes the unknown instagram profile on his friend’s phone, ever the snoop Johnny is.

“What’s up, dude, what’s gotten into you? The guys are getting scared by you, who you checking out? Didn’t know you were into dudes,” Johnny joked.

“Nothing, just checking on her,” Jaehyun said dismissively before turning off his phone.

“Uh huh, I didn’t know checking up meant stalking every single guy that she comes across with,” Johnny said before taking a swig of water while looking over at Jaehyun expectantly.

Jaehyun rolls his eyes at what his friend meant before getting back on the court, cracking his neck to loosen his shoulders, his muscles evident.

“She’s really missing out if she isn’t running back to Jaehyun when he looks like this,” Johnny muttered to himself before laughing at his friend and his very much bull-like actions, destroying Mark who was trying to dribble to the hoop, nothing can get in the way of Jeong Jaehyun, not when he’s as headstrong as his lunar zodiac.

There was an event at the hall today and it’s compulsory for all the seniors to attend. When you sat down beside Jaehyun, you were moving about in your seat excitedly, Jaehyun’s only known you again for 2 months, but he could read you like an open book.

“What’s up with you today? I thought Joy’s solo album already came out long ago,” Jaehyun joked, knowing you had loved Red Velvet since their debut.

“I mean, listening to it does make me happy, but I’m more excited about my new crush,” you said.

“New crush?” Jaehyun asked, did he hear you wrongly?

“Maybe he’ll be my first real love,” you joked, pointing at the guy two rows down, dressed like a rich ceo’s son, watch glinting under the white lights of the low ceiling.

Jaehyun only nodded, you, had a crush, ‘my first real love’, what does that mean to you? What you and Jaehyun shared wasn’t real love? He remembers you describing it as puppy love, but it’s still real love right there, how is he supposed to feel about this even? Other than the blatant frustration of course.

Jaehyun was silent for most of the day you had spent with him, mostly just listening to what you had to say and sticking by your side as you ran errands, he went back to his room that day with grey clouds in his head.

Over the course of the whole project, Sehun and you decided to conduct most of them online to adjust to Jaehyun’s training, not needing him to rush to the library to discuss and instead he could take a shower and sit down comfortably at his desk. Jaehyun was grateful of course, not so much towards Sehun, since you were the one who had proposed this arrangement. 

To Jaehyun’s surprise, the three of you made quite a good team, finishing the project two weeks earlier than the due date, which brings the topic of celebration from none other than Sehun, to an old restaurant which, back when Jaehyun was a high school senior, had promised to take you for your first drink after the two of you turn of age, but of course, that day never came, he didn’t realise how near this old restaurant was to his current university.

Jaehyun walks in with you in tow, holding the door open for you to be greeted with the familiar scent of barbeque, the scent of marinated pork belly brining him back to the days where the two of you would have dinner here to celebrate the end of exams.

The two of you catch Sehun waving you two over, he had already ordered and had began cooking some meat to kill time, he puts some on your plate once you sat down.

“This place is fuller than I thought, I came in like 15 minutes ago, and luckily someone left,” Sehun said.

“Thanks for coming in early, Sehun ah, or we would’ve been waiting in line in the cold,” you said before taking a bite of the meat, humming at the rich marinated taste meeting your taste buds.

All this while, Jaehyun watches intently to your reactions, is he your crush? You were never this friendly back then, only having a handful of friends including Jaehyun, when did you ever like socialising? You had only approached him because... It probably isn’t what Jaehyun think it is, Jaehyun downs a shot of soju, and the next person who comes through the doors is going to be the reason for shot number two, and now he realises, he actually knew this guy he just didn’t bother digging deeper into his brain when he was in class with him, he’s from his last basketball championship in high school, the person who matched his skills, the star player of Busan high school, Cha Eun Woo, less cool than what he portrays himself on his socials, how could he slip Jaehyun’s mind like that?

“You don’t mind me inviting my friend to out dinner right, Jaehyun? He just transferred here and didn’t have many friends,” Sehun explained to him, which made Jaehyun come to the realisation that you had known all along.

“Yeah, I’m fine with it,” Jaehyun might have set his sights on the wrong person entirely.

Eun Woo immediately recognised Jaehyun, unfortunately, he thought he was lucky he didn’t recognise him in class, but that was probably because Jaehyun sat at the way back, Eun Woo greeted him like they were old friends, well, they did talk a bit back then, but that was years ago, is he here to join the basketball team?

“The two of you know each other?” Sehun asked, shocked that his introvert friend actually knows someone.

“Yeah, I played against Jaehyun back when we were in high school,” Eun Woo supplied.

“Long time no see, man, are you still playing?” Eun Woo asked, but not before shooting you a quick smile, oh how much Jaehyun wants to knock his perfect teeth out.

“Yeah, but our team’s full,” Jaehyun said through gritted teeth, regretting seconds after, he doesn’t want to make it that obvious.

“I wish, but I’m going to keep that as a hobby, I’m here to attend my last year because my father’s job moved branches, so now my whole family’s in Seoul,” Eun Woo explained, you nodded with more focus than Jaehyun’s ever seen throughout the years he’s shared classes with you.

“How are you liking Seoul?” you asked, filling up his glass with soju.

“Oh, you didn’t have to, I’m a lightweight,” Eun Woo said before earning a ‘just let loose a bit’ from you, Eun Woo laughs with a shake of his head before continuing, “Seoul is less different from Busan than I had thought, but it’s a bit more populated here compared to Busan, but it’s nice to have a change of scenery, and meeting new people,” Eun Woo said with a gentle smile and a tilt of his head towards you.

Jaehyun’s eyes locate yours, only to see you sharing a similar smile, is this the crush you were talking about? Jaehyun observes Eun Woo, locating the familiar watch on his left wrist he had seen the other day in the study hall, so the quick coffee date was when this whole crush started to form.

All of you other than Jaehyun were actively chatting, the three of them dismissing Jaehyun’s silence as fatigue from basketball practice. Jaehyun nursed his bottle of soju, halfway through the night he ordered a second and third bottle, you were having fun as well, drinking with the boys, you were probably on your one and a half now, laughing at Sehun’s jokes along with Eun Woo, you realise he has a nice laugh, his eyes turning into half crescents, a light blush underneath his whiskers as he smiles.

After another quarter bottle in for Eun Woo, his body calls it a night, slumping on the table on Sehun’s outstretched arm.

“Okay, I’ll take him home first, you guys don’t be too late, okay?” Sehun said before getting up, shrugging Eun Woo onto his shoulder as he calls a cab.

“Do you need any help?” you asked, preparing to get up, but Sehun shakes his head, saying that he’s done this plenty of times.

That leaves you with Jaehyun, you look over at his side, seeing a semi dazed look in his eyes, he was sitting across you, giving you the chance to really observe him, Jaehyun has a flush too, the pink stretching to the tip of his ears as if he was some pretty fairy tale character, the dimples that appeared once he caught your gaze was damn near ethereal.

“How drunk are you?” he asked, his smile stretching wider, dimples etched deeper.

“Not really, just buzzed, high school parties used to be really wild,” you replied, your head a bit lighter than usual, maybe the alcohol just hasn’t kicked in.

“You drank before turning 19?” Jaehyun asked, surprised about the info.

“Yeah, had a fake id when I was there,” you said with a quirk of your eyebrows, “Didn’t you drink before hitting 19?” you asked.

Jaehyun shakes his head no, still in disbelief at thought of you attending parties, you must’ve felt much better after going to the states if you were as sociable as you said.

“No wonder your parents love you. You’re such a nice boy, Jeong Jaehyun,” you said before reaching over to pat his head, what you didn’t expect was Jaehyun placing his hand over yours, the familiar yet foreign feeling shocking you.

Jaehyun looks up, his eyes locked onto yours as his hand refuses to let go.

“Jae...

Jaehyun snaps out of the trance you had over him, detaching his hand from yours before he sits up straight, your hand falling from the higher angle.

“I’ll call Johnny to come get us, there’s only one more table other than us,” Jaehyun said before he dials his roommate’s number.

“No, it’s fine, I could take a taxi-

“It’s late and Korea isn’t as safe as it’s used to be, let me take you home at least,” Jaehyun said before he sees his giant friend coming through the tiny door.

“Hey, guys, had fun?” Johnny asked as he takes a look at the two of you, trying to figure out how sober you guys were, Jaehyun looks buzzed, but still in his right mind, since he’s standing up on his two feet quickly, you were a bit more tipsy, nearly stumbling if it wasn’t for Jaehyun catching your arm, stabalising you, yup, the alcohol is definitely kicking in now.

To Johnny, it looked like the blind leading the blind.

“Careful,” Jaehyun said before he leads you out of the shop to the car parked nearby, waiting for Johnny to unlock it before he guides you onto the seat, his hand perched on the opening of the door to prevent your clumsy head from banging onto it.

Johnny watches silently from the rear view mirror, watching Jaehyun strap you in carefully, he’s never seen Jaehyun take care of a girl this... dutifully, yeah he got his ex back home safely, but never this observant, this must be what first love feels like, you could find yourself in your first relationship, but it might not always be your first love.

Johnny takes you back to your place, but to all of your surprise, you had forgotten to take your key card out with you.

“Come, you can take the bed and I’ll take the couch or something,” Jaehyun said, guiding you back into the car.

“I’m sorry for burdening you, Jaehyunnie,” you slurred as Jaehyun lets you rest against his shoulder, noting how your eyes were threatening to close, maybe it’s a good thing you forgotten your pass, you probably wouldn’t have made it to your bed at this state.

“Is she out cold?” Johnny asked as he pulled up to the familiar ramp to their apartment’s parking lot.

“Almost,” Jaehyun said after observing your face, pushing back a few stray hairs behind your ear, lightly booping your nose, smiling faintly when he sees you scrunching it.

In your tipsy state, you register some things that Jaehyun does for you, letting him wash your face and asking you to change in his bathroom, closing the door behind him, you struggled a bit with your slowed senses, but Jaehyun’s never once rushed you.

Jaehyun could feel his heart leap when he sees you come out in his sweats, the way you were drowning in his clothes, he would’ve cooed at you if he wasn’t holding back.

Jaehyun stands up from his seat on his bed, allowing you to sleep on it.

“If you need anything, just wake me up, okay?” Jaehyun said before he heard you call his name softly.

“Your bed is a queen, we can just share it, it’s too cold to sleep in the living room without a heavy blanket,” you said, scooting over to give some space to Jaehyun.

Jaehyun slowly climbs into his own bed, nervously, he’s thought about sleeping next to you many times back in high school, Jaehyun’s always been a hugger back then, and he had always dreamt about cuddling you to sleep, he just didn’t know it’d take him so many years to get to this day, but without the label and the relationship.

“Goodnight, Jaehyun,” you said before facing your back against his, the soft material of his pillow comforting you, and undeniably, the scent of baby powder you used to always pick up from Jaehyun’s neck whenever he hugs you goodbye all those years ago.

Jaehyun feels the comforting weight of someone on top of him, your warmth enveloping him, he could smell the sweet scent of your shampoo, roses, in that comforting moment he slowly lulls back to sleep before he felt the movement of silky skin leaving his.

Jaehyun rubs the sleep out of his eyes, his whole body moving on automatic, only realising that this isn’t just any other sort of morning when he sees a new toothbrush next to his, his basin wet, right, you slept over, he strain his ears as he brushes his teeth, hearing movement in the kitchen, the ringing of pots and pans.

When Jaehyun was finished with washing up, he walks out of his room to see you, your hair pulled into a messy bun, you’re still in his clothes, lightly humming to a familiar song, one of his favourites from cigarettes after sex. Jaehyun’s envisioned this, morning afters, not really the sex part, okay maybe a bit of the sex part, Jaehyun was a hormonal teenager, forgive him, but this scene, 18 year old Jaehyun was desperately waiting for it, and finally, it isn’t his imagination anymore, you’re really there, in his kitchen, in his clothes, cooking breakfast for what looks like you and him, 2 eggs on each plate as bacon sizzles on the pan.

“Morning,” Jaehyun greeted as he reached for the fridge to take out a carton of apple juice, pouring a glass for both of you.

“Thought I’d cook something up for you as an apology, for hogging half your bed,” you said before turning off the stove, sliding the strips down on the plates.

“I’m surprised you didn’t burn the whole apartment down,” Jaehyun teased, recalling how your cooking skills only consisted of making ramyeon.

“Hey! I picked up some skills over there,” you retorted, bringing over the plates to where Jaehyun was sitting at the island.

“Some?”

“Okay, maybe a handful,” you confessed before you hear Jaehyun’s ‘dad laugh’, his chest shaking from joy, nothing’s really changed about him, “you still laugh  like you’re in your 40s,” you teased back.

“Very funny, I actually have a few people on my team trying to learn my laugh,” Jaehyun told you with a proud look on his face, eyes staring at you expectantly, awaiting your reaction.

“No way.”

“Way...

“Smells good in here, any for me?” Johnny asked with a full on bed head, mouth stretched into a yawn as he scans for an extra plate.

“Sorry, Johnny, there isn’t anymore food in the fridge,” you said, head gesturing at the empty egg cartons by their door, waiting to be taken down to recycle.

“Damn it, I forgot to stock up on groceries this week, no worries, I’ll just call delivery, more sleep for me,” Johnny said before retreating back into his room.

“I’ll fetch you back after we finish eating,” Jaehyun said before hopping off the stool to borrow Johnny’s car keys.

“Yo, your ex invited us to the main hall to look at the art students’ presentation,” Johnny said after he saw your text in the group chat that you had created for this trio, he rarely has any female friends outside of family, but you’re chill, maybe not all girls are like his ex’s group.

“When was she into art?” Jaehyun mumbled more to himself.

“Beats me, so you coming or not?”

“Yeah, sure,” Jaehyun said as he slung his hair towel over his shoulder, having just came out from the shower after practice.

Jaehyun sees you standing next to the person that clouds his worries, Cha Eun Woo, talking animatedly at the piece in front of you two. Johnny, the ever energetic giant, swiftly walks up to the two of you a hand slung on each of your shoulders before you look back to smile brightly at Johnny, then your eyes zone in on Jaehyun who was trailing behind.

Your smile falters, Jaehyun looks good with his semi wet hair, his face looking fresh, you beckon him over, “Come see this, Jae, Eun Woo takes art as a minor, isn’t that crazy? Top in his business class and still he has time for art,” you said, singing praises for Eun Woo.

“This is yours?” Jaehyun asks, surprised at the new information.

“It’s just something I’m messing around as a hobby,” Eun Woo dismisses with a chuckle.

Jaehyun nods, thinking back at the times you’d used to doodled whenever you refuse to focus in class.

“Looks great, man, congrats,” Jaehyun said before he sees something catch your eye, he’d never forget how your eyes light up like sparks in a firework.

“Look, that piece looks interesting,” you said before your hand pulls onto Eun Woo’s elbow, dragging him around like you used to with Jaehyun.

Johnny could see the way Jaehyun’s eyes fall at the sight, he reluctantly follows behind the two of you, Johnny feels bad for him, he doesn’t get why he’s so hung up about you, were you that big of an impact in Jaehyun’s life that until this day you still have a place in his heart? Jaehyun never once talked about you, maybe you were much more than just a highschool sweetheart.

The next time Jaehyun saw you together with Eun Woo was when all of you were exclusively invited to a freshman, Chenle’s party, right at the heart of Gangnam, an exclusive penthouse kudos to his doting parents, you were Eun Woo’s plus one, Jaehyun was sulking in the corner while Johnny lingers, debating whether or not to be his friend’s emotional support bystander or pursue that pretty girl that gave him a wink when he had strolled in with his excuse of a captain of the basketball team, Johnny sighs, looking over at Jaehyun staring daggers at a guy that who had obviously, done nothing wrong to him, well, not anything that he knows at least.

“You know, the Jeong Jaehyun I used to know wouldn’t stand by and do nothing while the girl of his dreams is slowly swimming into the jaws of a new shark in town,” Johnny says distastefully before downing his glass of whiskey he had found from Chenle’s private stash, “I’ll get you back on your feet once I go catch up with that pretty girl,” Johnny gets up, leaving a very confused Jaehyun sitting there, immediately a girl takes up Johnny’s place, only to have her being turned down instantly, her perfume was way too pungent for Jaehyun’s taste anyways.

Before Jaehyun could focus back on what his friend was trying to say, he finds the giant missing, checking behind the fridge door, only to find his teammate Lucas, stuffing his face with the Godiva ice cream he found, smiling sheepishly, offering the tube to Jaehyun who had obviously turned down, he swore he heard Johnny said something about you, where is he?

That’s when he sees him, beside Eun Woo, teaching him how to do a soju bomb with the glass beer that he wasn’t holding before, if only Johnny was as quick as getting his hands on a drink as locating the ball on court. Johnny, the law major, is quick to utilise his negotiation skills on the poor guy, he swears he saw Johnny mix a bit of vodka when everyone was laughing at a classic joke he had dissed out, Eun Woo immediately felt his head several grams lighter, leaning onto you for support.

Jaehyun unconsciously frowns, his feet taking him to your direction, his jealousy guiding him like a puppet on strings. Johnny feels his friend’s presence, just as he planned, he offers to take Eun Woo to the nearest bathroom to freshen up, and on the way out, he ‘accidentally’ spills beer on your skirt, not a big puddle, but strategically spilled at an area where it can’t be brushed off as just a minor spill.

Jaehyun steps in, taking off his cardigan to wrap it around your waist, covering the spot.

“Let’s get it cleaned,” Jaehyun said, a hand on your back, slowly guiding you upstairs where the party was restricted from, but Jaehyun personally knows Chenle, nodding his head at the boy who was hanging out with another freshman girl, his screen as bright as your mom’s phone screen displaying the game pubg, the girl beside him struggling to stay alive he presumes, from the curses thrown out at Chenle, those two were an odd duo.

“I’m fine with cleaning it on my own, Jae,” you argued mindlessly, pulling back his cardigan to see how bad the damage is.

“You had a bit to drink, and these rich people stairs are quite dangerous,” Jaehyun notes on how the reflective panes of the steps would be confusing to many of the drunk party goers, it’s why Chenle said upstairs were off limits, this isn’t his first rodeo, Jaehyun recalls how Chenle said Renjun almost tripped and fell because he thought there were an extra steps.

Jaehyun tells you the story to cheer you up, trying to feel less guilty about how he’s indirectly at fault for Johnny’s ‘clumsiness’. You let Jaehyun busy himself in the bathroom as you took a seat next to the floor to ceiling glass, overlooking the busy streets of Seoul.

Jaehyun sits down next to you, cross legged, just like you, despite you were wearing a skirt, you were never the type to be ‘lady like’. you hated that term, you never liked how people have a stereotype on genders, and that’s what Jaehyun loves about you, you never waver to other peoples’ opinions.

“What are you thinking about?” Jaehyun asks, helping you clean the dirty spot, and you let him, just like old times where you’d accidentally stain strawberry juice on your uniform skirt, he’d be the one carrying wet wipes like he was a father of a newborn, hence the ‘dad jokes’.

“Thinking about how beautiful it is here, addictive even, I wouldn’t mind being cooped up in a house like this,’ you joked, looking over at Jaehyun, eyes glazing onto how the artificial lights paints his skin, shimmering, even up close his skin is as smooth as rice cakes, his eyes that are usually sharp on the court are now soft, pupils that reflect your lost face snaps you back awake.

“Nothing’s wrong with being a homebody if you have a home like this,” Jaehyun says mindlessly, thinking your expression was just due to the fact that you were astonished by the sight, breaking his line of sight to resume cleaning the stain on your skirt.

You were going to joke along the lines of how you need to win a lottery first, but the accidental brush of his wrist on your upper thighs has you stunned, the electric shock running up your spine, it felt like it had momentarily frozen your whole nervous system, you regain your senses, scooting away from him.

“Being an introvert and a homebody are two different things, giving a beautiful home like this to an introvert would be like falling into a rabbit hole,” you mused, you didn’t know what came over you to say this, maybe it was the alcohol finally running its course in your bloodstream, and to add oil into the fire, you had to look at him straight into his eyes, you hope he’s drunk enough to not know you were hinting at another topic entirely.

But Jaehyun reads between the lines, your lines, tattooed to the back of his mind ever since you came into his life years ago.

“Not all rabbit holes are bad,” Jaehyun said, catching up on your words and thoughts.

“You know you’ve fallen into a rabbit hole when you feel this sweet bubbling tingles in your stomach, butterflies, but butterflies, most of the time, are just a warning from your gut that something’s not meant for you, even if you so want it so badly that you’d risk everything to fall into this rabbit hole, you’d just end up in dead on the other end,” you said, body unconsciously leaning back towards Jaehyun’s presence.

“Rabbit holes are like...falling in love, you won’t always be falling for a person, falling may feel dangerous, there will be risks, and most likely ups and downs in the process before you reach the being in love stage, this stage is like the wonderland of love, Alice reached where she was supposed to go in the very end of the rabbit hole, all of us have to go through this in order to reach our very own wonderlands,” Jaehyun’s had his fair share of soothing your worried heart throughout your time together in high school, but this weighed his heart more so than all the other times, he knows you were hurt, he knows you’re doubtful towards love after what your parents put you through, and selfishly enough, he wants to keep being that person that dries your tears, he doesn’t want anyone else hurting you.

Listening to Jaehyun’s words has your heart lurching, suddenly, the sacred moments the two of you share are now flashing back at the back of your head, although short, the two of you had very much imprinted on each other, unknowingly, every decision the two of you made was in a way, compromised, just like how you moved back to Korea despite already having started university in the states. You lied to yourself that you missed the culture, the food, but now that Jaehyun is in front of you, baring his soul to you, you can no longer hide the fact that you missed him dearly.

You choked up, looking away, you could feel tears welling up the corner of your eyes, your whole fort that you had built up all those years after leaving Korea, finally collapsed in the secrecy of the boy who you call your first love, who is, surprisingly enough, still the same person you’ve met years ago, that heart of his that never changed despite the drastic changes he had made to his physique to be the shining captain he is today.

“You’re just confused, Jae, it’s been so long, and we were only together for those few months, I’m sure you’ve moved on, even Johnny said you had a girlfriend, so why do you suddenly want to salvage a sunken ship, Jaehyun? You should move onto someone who deserves you, someone who doesn’t have flaws like mine,” you mumbled the last part, your voice strained, it’s been a few years, but you’re still in the midst of healing, your heart is still very much bruised and battered from all the emotional turmoil you’ve been through almost your whole life. You unconsciously bring your legs closer to yourself, hugging your calves, a position you’ve grown accustomed to whenever you were in a vulnerable headspace.

Jaehyun slowly crawls to you on his knees, careful to not startle you, his usually rough actions from all the years of roughing up with the boys seamlessly disappears, his gentle hands lightly hold your elbows, the contact felt comforting to your frantic heart and messy mind, like an anchor keeping you from floating away into the harsh seas of your mind.

“I told you this all those years ago, and still my opinion of you has never changed, you worth so much to me, you’re my whole universe, your worth isn’t measured by the hurt they put you through, just because you suffer from the demons in your head, doesn’t mean your worth is depreciated in any way, you’re my perfect, if only you can see yourself through my eyes, you’d be able to see how beautiful you are, inside and out,” Jaehyun lays out all of the thoughts that he had locked up ever since you came back, you bring all sorts of emotions inside him, but only with you, he feels whole.

Jaehyun moves to sit beside you, he slowly untangles you from the cocoon you made out of yourself to reveal your tear stained cheeks and pained eyes looking up at him. 

Jaehyun uses the sleeves of his cardigan to absorb the tears, patting your cheeks gently as if you were made of porcelain. When you had composed yourself and you stopped crying, Jaehyun guides your shoulder with his two nimble fingers into his embrace, giving you the space and opportunity to back out. You lean into his warmth, resting your head against his shoulder, breathing out a deep breath, feeling part of the weight of your heart being lifted off, Jaehyun couldn’t help the faint smile meeting his face when he felt your whole body loosen up a bit.

Whenever you were stressed or sad, your body would always tense up, and Jaehyun hates seeing you that way, but he despises the people that did this to you more, how can parents treat their kids like this? No decent human with half a mind would think of inflicting this sort of pain onto their own flesh and blood. Jaehyun recalls the first time he’s found himself and you in this predicament, it was only two months before you had said goodbye to him.

Jaehyun was fresh out of the shower after a tiring day of practice and schooling, he heard the chime of his phone ring, your name popping up on his screen, thinking it was just another ‘reminder to rest’ calls you’d make to him on days where he has practice, he answers the phone with the usual one liner ‘did you miss me already’ he often uses to tease you, but right after his cheerful greeting, he hears you crying over the line, his heart drops, his head was already picturing the worst things that could’ve happened to you for you to be like this.

“Why are you crying? What happened? Where are you?” Jaehyun asks as he scrambles to get dressed single handed, he needs to go to you right now.

“I’m at the park down your street, can you come see me?” you uttered over the line, struggling to get the words out.

“I’ll come to you now, don’t hang up,” Jaehyun said before he dashed out of his house, running at full speed in his slippers, the pavement felt much harder in these shoes, but he doesn’t care if his sole gets bruised, he needs to see you as quick as he could.

Jaehyun rounds the corner before he sees a figure bundled up in a black parka, he recognises the bracelet he had gifted you a week ago dangling on your wrist, your arms wrapped around your legs, you looked so small, so fragile, Jaehyun rushes up to you, holding you close as he whispers to you that he’s here, that he’s for you.

“Tell me what’s wrong, please,” Jaehyun pleads, hands stroking your arms soothingly, calming you down.

“They found out about how I failed the physics trial paper,” you said after taking a deep breath, saying it aloud eased your heart a bit.

“What they did do to you?” Jaehyun’s asked about your family once before the two of you were just friends, you had dismissed it as just them being complicated, until you slowly revealed the truth to him, how they’d say the most dehumanising and hurtful things to you, you had to hold him back once when he saw bruises on your wrists, your father had went berserk and tried to hold you down as he shouted at you about something you had broke on accident, Jaehyun would’ve beat your father up after school if it wasn’t you who spent one whole empty period talking some sense back into his head.

“They said mean things again, but it was a bit worse than usual this time around, I don’t why I’m so sensitive today, you must be tired, and still I called you out,” you mumbled as you sink into his hold, the scent of his peach body wash calming your tired heart.

“Don’t say sorry, I’m glad you called me, you shouldn’t have to go through this alone, you don’t have to anymore, I’m just a street away, I’ll always be with you,” Jaehyun promised, holding you tighter, almost squeezing you, but it was the most comforting feeling in the world to you.

You’d never thought you’d be in this position again, it feels weird to have someone comforting you in the midst of a breakdown again, but very much comforting. You don’t how long the two of you were holding each other on the floor, but when you start dozing off, Jaehyun carries you like a child, hooking your knees beneath his left arm as your arms hold his shoulders loosely, he notes how you cling to him as natural as breathing in your sleep, he slips out of the party silently, knowing how you don’t like garnering too much attention to yourself.

Jaehyun puts you in the passenger seat of the car before sending a text to Johnny to let him know that he has to find his own way home, the drive back was quiet, but the sound of your even breathing was like melody to his ears.

Jaehyun carried you into his home, setting you on his bed before he gently shakes you awake, a fresh set of warm sweats in his hand.

“You should change, I remember you said you hate wearing a bra to sleep,” Jaehyun says, almost laughing aloud when he recalls you saying years ago that girls who wears bras to sleep are crazy.

You nodded, climbing out of bed into his connected bathroom to change. Jaehyun could never get over the sight of you in his clothes, looking like a cute little doll in oversized clothes, just too cute for your own good.

“You take the bed, I’ll sleep on the couch,” Jaehyun said as he stood up, but when he turned his back, he felt your small hand wrapping around his wrist.

“Stay,” you said before scooting over his already tiny bed, giving up space for Jaehyun to join you.

Jaehyun wanted to cheer like he won a match, but he keeps it to himself, trying his best to not smile like a mad man when he lays down next to you, when Jaehyun was sinking into slumber, he felt your warmth against his own, the two of you tangled up in each other as he drifted off to dreamland.

Waking up warm and snugged, you were confused as to why your blanket was pulled up to your chin, you tend to kick off everything in your sleep, you tried going back to sleep, eyes not even bothering to open, knowing that today was a weekend and that you could sleep in as long as you can.

That is, until you heard the sound of pots and pans from your kitchen, you jolted awake, did someone break in? You realise in your fully awake state that you weren’t in your own room, confused, you racked your head until memories of last night began flooding in like a broken dam, you sat there, on Jaehyun’s bed, needing to remind yourself that it wasn’t just a dream, that you still had feelings for him, that he felt the same way about you, but what are the two of you now? Where does this rekindled flame stand?

You sigh, kicking off the blanket to get out of bed, your feet meeting something soft when you swung them over to the chilly wooden floor, looking down, you see a pair of house slippers, the size obviously too big for you, it was probably Jaehyun’s, did he leave them here for you? Aren’t his feet cold?

You slipped them on, padding your way into his connected bathroom, using the toothbrush that he had left there after that night you had used, he didn’t chuck it out.

When you were done, you opened a small crack of his door, peeking out to see if Johnny was there, when you don’t hear nor listen his giant of a friend, you made your way out to Jaehyun who was stationed at the kitchen, flipping eggs, a pair of socks on.

You silently made your way over to him, his back was turned to you, he was surprised when he felt your hand on the dip of his back, turning back, he sees you over his shoulder, peering up at him with those doe eyes of yours, the ones that would have Jaehyun steal a star out of a sky for you if you’d ever ask.

“Morning,” Jaehyun greeted with a dimpled smile before he turns his body slightly to peck your forehead, “omelettes for breakfast, wait at the dining table, it’ll be quick,” Jaehyun told you.

“Okay,” you said before you made your way to where he directed you to, looking around to see the many photos that are framed on his walls, mostly photos of Jaehyun and Johnny along with the rest of their teammates, trophy held high in each one, some were casual, probably team dinners by the look of the seating and the food that filled the table.

“Breakfast is served,” Jaehyun said, putting the heavy plate in between the two of you before handing you a fork.

“Jae, why did you cook so many eggs? This thing is as thick as a textbook,” you said while studying the omelette, seeing the bits and pieces of ham and spinach on the surface.

“Johnny can have the leftovers, he craves eggs during a hangover,” Jaehyun said with a chuckle, knowing how his friend and his habit of getting wasted, he probably slept at a girl’s place, knowing him.

You nodded at Jaehyun’s words, too focused on the tasty food in your mouth, savouring the taste, surprised at the sour tinge when you bit onto a piece of tomato.

“You’re still a very good cook, Jae,” you complimented, taking larger bites.

“Good to know that your taste in food is still the same,” Jaehyun teased, thinking back the times where you’d suddenly get sick of a food you swore would be your favourite forever.

“I had commitment issues with food, very toxic masculinity of me,” you joked before the two of you broke out in a laugh.

“So I’ll take this as a message that you don’t have actual commitment issues,” Jaehyun asked after calming down. eyes looking at you expectantly, hoping.

“I don’t if you don’t,” you said teasingly.

“Okay, girlfriend,” Jaehyun said with a smirk before going back to chewing his food.

“Wow, just that, huh?” you said with a shake of a head, but you were more than satisfied, the two of you are long overdue, it’s time the two of you reconciled as lovers.

“Let’s relax for now, I’ll take you out tomorrow, promise,” Jaehyun proposed, a pinky outreached for you.

“I’ll hold onto your word,” you said with a jokingly stern voice as you hooked your pinky onto his.

The way Jaehyun was looking you as you watched your favourite rom com was all too endearing, the way they held galaxies in his eyes, you swore, Jaehyun’s gotten more lovesick for you than the first time around the two of you were together, and at that moment, you understood the meaning of distance bringing people together, you thought that Jaehyun was just into you all those years ago because it was his first time, but now, sitting here next to him, you can feel his love as strongly as you feel the warmth flowing from his body onto yours in the chilly atmosphere of his living room.

As the ending credits rolled, you got up from your seat beside him to climb into his lap, kissing him squarely on the lips, catching him off guard, but the two of you were smiling as your tongues met, slithering like how Jaehyun’s arms were to your waist. You forgot how soft and plump his lips felt, you felt yourself become addicted to the way his hands clasp onto your thighs, everything felt so complete, you were so used to Jaehyun being a missing piece after your departure, but now being with him again, feeling him under your fingertips, you could feel the missing piece being stitched back into the hole of your heart, and oh how it’s soaring for him.

“Let me show you how much I miss you,” you said before standing up to hold your hand in his, dragging him to the direction of his room.

Jaehyun remembers how you were each other’s first time, he promises that he’ll be your last too, and what better way to seal his love for you than kissing you again? Slamming his door shut, he kisses you roughly, his lips revealing the red hot passion he couldn’t utter.

You let your weight fall onto the door as your hands run down the panes of his back, his muscles rippling under your touch, when you began tugging at his pants, Jaehyun got the message, hooking your legs to lightly toss you onto his bed.

A giggle of surprise escapes your lips before you cut off by Jaehyun’s lips flittering to the expanse of your neck, purple flowers blooming in his wake, he doesn’t stop until the collar of his shirt comes in his way.

Jaehyun ceases his actions, looking at you for permission, you nod, reaching down to take off the tee, showing your bare chest to Jaehyun who had frozen in his tracks, eyes drawn to your breasts, eyes taking in every curve and swell, he takes one in his mouth, his lips expertly wrapped around your nipple as his hand busies with the other, copying his tongues movements, setting a mild pace for you.

You absolutely adore it, the way he sucks onto your breast like a baby, how he closes his eyes to savour the feeling, and god, the way his spit drips out onto your breast, you didn’t remember Jaehyun being this messy back then, but you love the feeling, you love everything about him.

You push Jaehyun downwards when the ache between your legs get too much, silently telling him to move on, Jaehyun obliges, his nose dragging down the smooth expanse of your stomach, as if he can’t go on without his face touching your body in any way.

Jaehyun stopped at the band of your panties, waiting for your approval before pulling the flimsy drenched material off of you, eyeing the wet spot at the crotch, he had to hold himself back not to sniff them and lick them clean, that can be revealed another time, right now, there’s something long over due that needs to be done.

He stand up to take off his shirt, placing it onto the existing pile of the clothes that you once adorned, he’s now completely bare before you, and standing over you like this, you can’t help but whimper at the way his cock was standing against his rock hard abs, at that moment, Jaehyun looks like a literal god, and how you want to worship him on your knees, but before you could put that fantasy into reality, Jaehyun pins you on the bed with a sly smile before flipping himself over, maneuvering you onto his face.

“Reclaim your throne, baby,” Jaehyun said before he moved the hands that are held onto your upper thighs, moving you like a doll, you were no match to his strength.

“Fuck, Jaehyun...” you spluttered, it was so fast, one moment you were thinking of sucking him off, and now his tongue was inside you, trying to worm itself way into you as deep as he could go, the way his upper teeth was digging into your clit has you delirious, your mind empty other than Jaehyun.

You could feel the string in your lower belly threaten to snap when Jaehyun slipped two fingers inside you, opening you up for his thick length, he’s sure the other guys you’ve taken are not anywhere close, this pussy belongs to him and him only, Jaehyun concluded before he lightly bit on your clit, the edge that you needed for you to fall apart on top of him.

Your toes curled painfully as you screamed Jaehyun’s name, a sheen of sweat covered your beautiful body, and fuck, Jaehyun has the front row seat, he even drinks up your sweet juices, his tongue lapping at your core like a starved kitten, a hand behind your back to assist you in riding out your high.

When you felt a tinge of overstimulation, you smacked Jaehyun’s shoulder lightly, telling him to let you off. Jaehyun watches proudly as he sees the way your legs were shaking from the high that he had given you.

“I’m on pill,” you said after you laid down beside Jaehyun, legs parted, oh so welcoming for Jaehyun.

“You just came, you don’t want a break?” Jaehyun asked, worried that you might overexert yourself.

“No, I’m fine, hurry, before Johnny gets back from his hook up,” you reminded Jaehyun.

“Yeah, okay,” Jaehyun said, mind swerving, a bit distracted by the beauty of your core.

Jaehyun perched his arms beside your head, kissing your lips softly before he uses a hand to position himself at your entrance, slipping in the tip, almost moaning at the way your walls wrap around him so snugly, you let your hands fall onto his shoulder, bringing him closer to you, a silent message for him to move forward, sometimes Jaehyun needed a reminder that you weren’t made of porcelain.

When Jaehyun was finally filled to the brim, you could feel your second orgasm threatening to unfold, the way Jaehyun expertly thrusted into you from numerous direction until he finally found your sweet spot once again, knowing from the way you whimpered his name so sweetly, he almost came if he haven’t had a voice in his head reminding him not to fuck up. Jaehyun sticks to the motivation in front of him, you, he wants you to cum once more, he wants to see you fall apart on his cock just as much as his face, and so he clenches his jaw and puts more strength into his hips.

Your voice fails when Jaehyun sets the pace harder and faster, your nails digging into Jaehyun’s arm the only sign that you weren’t lost, because the way your eyes were rolled back into your head, he knows you’re a goner, he just wasn’t sure how far.

“Just a little bit longer, baby, you’re doing so well,” Jaehyun whispered beside your ear between groans, you don’t know if it was the gradual build up that had you reeling or Jaehyun’s husky voice, because your high caught you completely off guard, your body spasming as your insides convulses, your velvet walls squeezing around Jaehyun, pushing him over the edge, his breath staggering.

Jaehyun had his eyes shut to enjoy this euphoric moment, that is, until they snap back open when your pussy leaves him hanging, Jaehyun watches you intently as you rearrange yourself to stuff his cock into your own mouth, swallowing around his throat quickly, desperate for his cum.

Jaehyun curses at the sight of your lips around his cock, his eyes trail down, catching onto the shimmering spurts of cum that you hadn’t caught in your mouth, splattered like an art piece across your breasts. Jaehyun grasped the back of your head gently, thrusting into your throat as slowly as he could until he rides out his high, pulling your head away to detach your lips from his cock, his meat slapping your face lightly in the process.

“Good girl, you did such a good job,” Jaehyun praised before reaching down to kiss your cum stained lips, tasting himself on you.

The sweet moment was ruined by a banging on his door.

“No more second round, you guys! My head is already killing me!” Johnny demanded before walking away, leaving the two of you alone.

“Sorry about that, I’ll get you cleaned up, love,” Jaehyun said, carrying you into his bathroom.

2nd House Moon

love don't cost a thing people with a moon in the 2nd house can have a tendency to spend their money on making gifts or gifting people they love with items which as we know, buying someone's love is not healthy. his ideal type will need to remind him that they love him for him and not what he can buy them

financial stability this provides them with security. they are very materialistic in this house placement so his ideal type may want to make sure that they themselves are financially secured or have a job that provides them a decent amount of money. this will help lessen the burden on jaehyun's shoulders

don't expect hearts and roses contrary to popular belief of jaehyun being the "valentine's boy" he is a man of culture. he may express his love through artistic means (song writing for example) people with this placement can seem reserved and cold so someone who wants him to be super loving and showering them with admiration...find someone else

sensitivity is a no go people with this placement say what they mean and mean what they say. they don't mean to hurt people's feelings but they won't bullsh*t you. so he will need someone who doesn't get sensitive if he...tells it like it is

all that glitters is gold money is very important to this aspect. if you wondered why jaehyun just reeks of culture and "expense" this is why. he may want someone who has that same appeal

admiration also glitters he wants to be admired and adored. having a partner who does this will be good for his ego

home is where the heart is...and valuables okay this man seriously likes nice things. he will want to surround himself with nice things. (if you have ever seen the movie thumbelina, i'm thinking of mr. mole) he loved having diamonds, ruby's, money, everything because it made him feel valued. jaehyun could be the same way. he needs someone who can deal with his mood swings that may go from over spending to being very frugal (these money mood swings are very intriguing)

Taurus Moon

patience with jaehyun having his moon in taurus, he is incredibly patient. someone who is a "dive in heads first" type of person may make him a little apprehensive. he analyzes things and waits for them to arrive on his "doorstep"

routine unlike johnny who may have a tendency to dislike/hate routine - jaehyun likes this type of lifestyle and may want someone who he knows will be home at this time, or works from this shift to the next. he may also end up having his future household run on a routine-like basis (why am i seeing the dad with the whistle from sound of music?)

you want love? earn it! no joke this made me f*cking laugh. i need to rant for two seconds...all these young girls thinking jaehyun will be a hearts and roses man just because he is born on valentine's day need to get their heads out the arses. this man will not give his love to anyone until, like i said, they've earned it. he needs someone who is REAL not fake, not "if i do x,y,z...this will make him love me." he needs someone to show him who they are and nothing more (also being independent cuz just like johnny this man is busy)

keep the manipulation for someone else like i said above, realness is important. he doesn't want to be manipulated. he doesn't want people around him who can use him/hurt him. with this placement he may seem cool on the outside. he may even smile and wave but that does not equal what is on the inside

if you get flowers and hearts, celebrate now i know i said he isn't a hearts and flowers guy, but he is romantic. this is ONLY when he has fallen for someone. not "liking" not "intrigued" but FALLEN HEAD OVER HEELS for someone

you must be this fine to ride this ride this is by no means an indication that jaehyun is shallow. i want to make that clear right here and now. he lives an aesthetic lifestyle. the coffee shop vibes, the vinyl records. no joke the man can be attracted to someone who looks just as good on his arm as he would look good on his own arm rofl

finishing school anyone? kate middleton/amal clooney are women who come to mind. seriously, a person who is well-mannered, educated, cultured, respectful and knows what they want

love you to the moon and back when jaehyun has fallen in love he will be EXTREMELY loyal. he will want this in return and he will want someone he can build a future/life together with. as long as the words of affirmation keep rolling in he'll come back for more each and every time without fail

damsel in distress "i want you to want me." "i need you to need me" he likes to feel needed and to be depended on. makes him feel competent. if his partner has a problem or needs his help he will jump at the opportunity to help them. even if his partner can open up the pickle jar...let him do it every blue moon lol

ready willing and able jaehyun is the type of guy who like i said above likes to feel useful. this can also put him in financially difficult positions. money does mean a lot to him, but if he needs to help a loved one - he will do so. so someone who can be that bridge in between when things do get hairy financially but also who reminds him that again, money doesn't always buy happiness (this is hard to describe)

stubborn as a...bull taurus is one of those signs that values the home, wealth, possessions (if you weren't getting this gist by now) but there is something else...if ANYTHING threatens this he will not budge at all. this also includes people who he holds dear. his partner needs to understand this and hopefully as someone who he holds dear he will not compromise anything that will hurt him or his partner

tender love when in love jaehyun will give everything to his partner. seriously he isn't one to fall for people easily so this should be taken as AMAZING! with this placement it talks about giving his partner the world almost. he just needs someone special

hurtful comments hit twice as hard someone who will not hurt him. despite his cool calm and collective self and even cold matter of fact personality, if he gets hurt - because of this loving and giving nature, it's like doing 2x, 3x the damage that someone else could do

if he's right...admit defeat he will not back down if he knows he is right. his partner needs to understand this and admit defeat and possibly shout it for all to hear that he was right and they were wrong lol

okay this segment before i talk about the venus part needs to be discussed. jaehyun has an aqurius sun and a taurus moon which means things are...at odds...

Aquarius Sun + Taurus Moon

indifference jaehyun's partner will need to be interesting. if he doesn't find them interesting he won't bother to get to know them. he's a "why waste my time if there is nothing there" type of person. this can also be involved with other people outside of a romantic interest

scandal be gone jaehyun's goal is to live a peaceful life. just like johnny someone he can take home to momma is ideal

the occult (?) this is kind of funny...jaehyun may be interested in psychics/fortune telling. he has an interest in the occult. just gathering as much knowledge as possible. so someone who has a similar interest may be fun to be around

arrogance people with this placement can be arrogant. they know their worth and it can come off as such to other people. they may also be self-obsessed. i know we all know jaehyun is hot. well he knows he's hot as well. it wouldn't surprise me if he takes amazing pride to the point of obsession over his looks. this could also (take this with a grain of salt) be the same with his partner. he may want them to be just as interested in personal health, fitness, and beauty as he is. these people are the nobles. smart, witty, educated, loves to learn, intrigued by beautiful things and people. so if he finds someone who is similar again a bonus

one track mind once he has made up his mind about something he does not change it unless he wants to. it doesn't matter what other people say

positive light only jaehyun wants to be looked at in a certain way so he shows this to the public and not the other side. just like a superhero he has a "secret identity" a "mask" he wears to hide his true self

devotion in unconventional means this is wear things start to get hairy... jaehyun is the type to be devoted when he has once again, fallen for someone. his partner needs to understand this. a don't count your chickens before they're hatched kind of way. he doesn't like to do things that are conventional or normal. think of this as people who are together for over ten years. they may have a couple of kids but they have never been married or have thoughts on getting married. this is an example of an unconventional relationship

the alien a partner who understands that jaehyun will most likely never conform to what he doesn't deem as worthy or worthwhile is best. he is the rebel type. if people go right he may go left if he feels it's better to go left lol

space to express himself the best way he can, he needs freedom in his relationships. a long distance one may be beneficial for him

all roles he wants a friend, a lover, and a sibling because he is playing all those roles as well. he needs the freedom because he's being the supportive friend who is always there for his partner. the lover who is tender and nurturing. the father "man" who brings in financial security and stability. the sibling whom one can goof around with and have interesting conversations with - like he needs a partner who understands this and is like this as well in their own way

contradictions his aquarius side doesn't mind chaos, but his taurus side wants something calm and peaceful. again he can be calm and cool on the outside but on the inside he can be freaking out. finding those subtle clues in his change of demeanor or behavior is something his partner will need to keep in mind in order to help him

he wants all the benefits of a relationship without actually "committing" to someone. aka he wants to have his cake and eat it too. this is also a part of the contradictory behavior. which is why i mentioned a partner who doesn't count their chickens before they're hatched. he may not want someone who is walking around saying they are dating when he's like "dating? thought we were just hanging around?"

curves (?) with this placement he may find people who have curves to be attractive. this does not mean "overweight/obese" but it also doesn't mean it. the key here could be someone who is curvaceous who takes care of their body and mind

quirky but there is another side to this ideal type and that is being a little fickle and irresponsible. he could be attracted to someone like this. it could stem from the "i want you to want me" side

be prepared to be jealous there is a reason why jaehyun is adored so much. women love him and will fall for him. his partner needs to understand this and either hide their jealousy or accept that this is how things are

Aquarius Venus

peek his interest with your mind this says it all. he doesn't get stimulated into finding someone worthy of being a lover until they impress him with their mind. this could be loving music, art, literature, sciences, or a witty remark. don't think for a second that someone can walk in with a skanky dress will get his attention. i mean it might for a one night stand lol and one night only btw. the way to get him interested is to do something worthy of gaining his interest

getting to know all about you he wants to know his partners interests. how their mind works. he's an oddball so again, his partner needs to keep him intrigued

model who? jaehyun wants someone who is more than just a pretty face or someone that is snatched for the gods. again he wants someone who intrigues him. the way they see the world. his ideal type is really surrounded around mental stimulation

no dress code someone who dresses...their own way this is all i will say on this one

not shy just ask if you ever wondered why jaehyun doesn't talk much, well it's because he isn't asked anything. so his type may need to be someone who can get him to talk to them and not the other way around

eccentric so he may have some...interesting tastes. as long as his partner is down for the non-conformist type he'll be even happier

let's talk about s*x baby keep it interesting and exciting but don't go crazy. jaehyun would love someone who doesn't do things that are super typical but at the same time not anything that is risky or out of this world nuts

christian grey if you know who this is picture him before all the mushy parts and you get jaehyun! yay! seriously he doesn't do the lovey dovey mushy crap. sorry to disappoint. he may show his love by buying you something like just as a weird ass example...face masks because he heard they're very good for your skin rofl (and of course they will probably be the expensive kind because...read the above MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!!)

stop with the guessing games jaehyun needs someone to tell him point blank when things aren't going as planned. he doesn't need someone who beats around the bush or has him trying to "figure out" what he did or what went wrong

play hard to get someone who ignores him or seems cold/distant towards him can be one way to peek his interest

ummm cheater? remember how i said he would be devoted to his partner, well, only if they keep things interesting. when things die down and he's learned all he can, experienced all he can with someone aka the boring section of a relationship...well...his detached "i want freedom" "i don't believe in conventional relationships" personality may lead to cheating behavior

family upbringing is important so there is a bright side...once he gets over that hump and he finds someone to commit to he really is loyal. how he was raised will be crucial to his future adult self

let your nerd out he may like someone who is interested in technology

it's hip to be square someone quirky, unusual, strange, weird, the oddball will be super intriguing to him. the weirder his partners mind works the more he'll stick around to see what's next

he also wants to let his freak flag fly as well so his partner needs to be able to handle his weirdness, quirks, unusual behavior in return

12th House Venus

fear okay this is interesting. jaehyun may be afraid that his partner may not love him or like him the same way he does for them. this is because he has a hard time to rationalize his emotions. to express himself on an emotional level (which is why there are no hearts and flowers)

mystery he can find people who have something that they're hiding to be ideal. it keeps his interest in them and he may have fun trying to find out what that secret is

love is a battlefield jaehyun may find someone who is unavailable as desirable or even be the man someone is having an affair with which is definitely unconventional. it also adds that mystery, scandal that keeps him interested. so this could be possible (take this with a grain of salt)

again he may want someone who he cannot have. this came up twice so might as well reiterate it. he may fall for the "wrong person" and have a "forbidden relationship"

find balance he may end up in relationships that aren't well balanced. he needs to find what he wants in his romantic partners and his romantic life before getting into a relationship

anyone up for a foot massage? so this is just an added bonus because it made me laugh. venus rules over passion and the 12th house rules over the feet. so he can be sensitive around his feet. which makes sense because aquarius rules over the ankles/shins/circulatory system aka there are lots of little nerve endings, so this might be a bit of a turn on (take this with a grain of salt and humor)

complications in love the 12th house is the house of pisces which has two fish going in opposite directions. think about trying to go against the current. it's HARD. sitting back and enjoying the pleasing moments will help him in this area instead of trying to fight against it

relationships are home okay so despite all the forbidden love junk, jaehyun is the type that wants to be with someone. things are just...complicated. the nonconventional relationships, forbidden relationships, possible long distance relationships, giving to much in a relationship, not feeling loved, fearing he is not worthy, all of these things complicate his love life.

but when he is in his partners arms, he does feel like he's at home