#yildiz

Just.. Friends?

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summary: you finally built the courage to confess your feelings to your friend, kenan. In your own ways.

warnings: smut, fluff ending kissing, p in v, mention of alcohol, fwb, coming inside.

a/n: lowkey had fun writing that. send more reqs! I write anything!

english is not my first language so excuse any spelling errors!

18+ MINORS DNI / 18+ MINORS DNI

"Im gonna go grab a drink!"

you said loudly, the bass of the noghtclub making you scream as loud. you were there with a bunch of friends, including kenan.

"Im coming with you! wait for me!"

you nodded and without thinking, you grabbed his finger, hand wrapped around it, leading him trough the crowds go to the bar.

"damn it is so loud!"

you said giggling, letting go kenan’s hand. you ordered two alcohol drinks, kenan smirked.

"right? youre enjoying the party after all tho right?"

you nodded, smiling showing all your teeth. he smiled back. you two stayed at the bar the time of three to four sounds before finishing your drinks and going to the dance floor, you joined your friends and started dancing.

the night went on and one of your friends got too drunk. you found yourself with kenan and her, emma. You were holding her hair as she was vomiting. kenan looked at you both with an amused smile.

"we really are a strong friend group huh?"

you giggled as your free hand caressed emma’s back.

"not as strong as your car kenan.. I thank god every drunk state I find myself in you have a car."

you put her hair in a low ponytail and handed her a water bottle to rinse her mouth.

"right ofcourse. im only the driver here I forgot!"

he laughed and you both held emma, walking her to kenan’s car. you helped emma getting into the back seat and buckled her in.

"if you wanna vomit just.. tell us I guess?"

you went to sit in the passenger seat, kenan already waiting for you. he started the engine and drove trough the night, the music of the nightclub disrupted as you went deeper into the city.

"youre not drunk Y/N?"

you looked up from your phone and laughed.

"no Im not! are you?"

"too bad, it would ve been funny and I would ve loved taking care of you."

you laughed and rolled your eyes.

"ok remind me to never get drunk with you."

kenan pulled over at emma’s appartement. once again you helped her to go to her room, you helped her change into her pajamas and took her makeup off, you slide her in bed and closed the door behind you.

"pfious! we really are the best friends huh?"

"definetly. like the parents of this friend group."

his head found your shoulder in the elevator, the scene pretty comic because he had to bent over almost in half.

"thats my role!"

you laughed as the elevator’s door opened, you walked to kenan’s car again. all the way to your appartement, you kept on talking, as always. conversation has always been easy with kenan.

—

"so.. goodnight I guess?"

you looked up at him.

"its late.. driving at this time is dangerous."

his lips curved up, clearly pleased.

"Im not getting this wrong Y/N? you’re inviting me to your appartement?"

you just laughed and stepped aside, he entered and as he passed you smelled him, manly cologne with a mix of sweat and alchohol. he stood behind you.

"so.. as usual? we cuddle in your bed and act like nothing hapened?"

he chuckled, heading toward your bedroom.

"Im taking the right side!"

you stopped him, your hand wrapping around his wrist. you felt his pulse race.

"kenan.."

"shit.. something’s wrong Y/N? I was just joking I can sleep on the cou-"

you grabbed him by the jaw and kissed him, he pulled back.

"Y/N youre.. youre sure about that? we dont usually-"

you cut him off again, shutting him with a kiss. he meleted instantly, his hand found your waist, thumb tracing lazy circles there.

"kenan please.. I cant act anymore."

you said pleading against his lips. he backed you against the wall.

"fuck Y/N.. ive been waiting for this moment.."

he said, his hand moving to behind your neck to pull your head back, exposing your neck to him, he directly pressed a soft kiss to your pulse point, your breath hitched.

"you smell so fucking good"

he whispered against your neck, his teeth grazing your skin with his teeth then softening it with his toungue.

"tell me if im too much yeah..?"

"dont worry kenan— just dont stop."

you gasped as he slide your sparkly dress down a bit, exposing your collarbone to him, he followed the bone with his toungue before pulling back. you looked up at him, eyes searching his, body already missing the heat of his.

"youre going to be the death of me."

he said before picking you up as if you weighted nothing. he slowly let you stand up in front of ur bed, back to him. his hand pulled your dress’s zipper down teasingly slow.

"tell me to stop and Ill stop."

he said in your ear, his mouth already giving attention to your shoulder, finally the dress fell at your feet, he let out a groan. by reflex or whatever you sat on your bed, facing him.

"youre so pretty Y/N"

he took his shirt off and made you lie down,his forearm next to your head, his knee applying a soft pressure to your core. your back arched and you moaned. your hand slid to his abs, teasing each one with the tip of your finger, he hissed.

"fuck— touch me Y/N.. let me feel your hands everywhere.."

his hand slid down your body, stopping at your panties, he caressed your clothed heat, slowlh at first then with more pressure.

"youre soaked"

"shut up.."

you hissed with no real heat behind it, embarrassed at how he talked to you. your hips bucked against his teasing fingers, he chuckled.

"use your word kalbim.. you know you can do it.."

"please kenan.. touch me— directly."

he stood up and slowly took your panties off, his fingers lingering down your ankle as he let them fall.

He freed his cock, you looked down at his and swallowed, a reaction that got a laugh from kenan.

"impressed?"

"excited."

you corrected and with a soft laugh he kissed your nose, he teased your entrance with his cock wich made you gasp instantly, your nails digged into his shoulders.

"dont tease again— dont you dare"

you said as a shaky breath.

"bossy.."

he said with a thrust inside you, you gasped, your hand grabbing a handfull of your sheets, a loud moan escaping your lips, he silenced you with his mouth.

"shh.. its late baby dont be so loud."

he said, forehead pressed against yours. thrusting slowly, letting you feel every single one of his veins. your back arched, he thrusted faster, deeper.

"look at how I fit inside you baby.. so wet for my cock.."

he said, the gentleness of his tone a big switch from what he was saying.

"kenan— fuck.. Im gonna— fucking come of you dont slow down!"

you cried out, he grinned and just thrusted in faster, chasing both your orgasms.

"come on my cock baby, let me feel how good I please you.."

your eyes rolled back with a loud moan, he thrusted one last time, burrying deep as he came inside you, spilling his thick hot cum inside you. Your orgasm followed his, making your knees go weak. he kissed your lips.

"you did so good Y/N."

he slide himself off and flopped next to you on your bed. you looked at the ceiling, panting. he pulled you into his chest. he played with your hair softly. you stayed like that for what felt like forever, your stomach twisted.

"kenan..?"

you called out quietly, you felt his hand stopped and it slid to your jaw, tilting your head on his torso so you met his eyes.

"yeah Y/N? something’s wrong?"

you layed on your elbow, looking at his eyes.

"what are we— I mean friends.. ofcourse. but that night? does it mean something?"

his eyes widened with surprise before quickly softening.

"whatever you want us to be.."

his hand slid to your jaw, gently, reassuring.

"you mentionned how you were not ready for a full on relationship.. maybe we could just see each other, like that.. you know?"

"friends.. with benefits?"

you laughed. he remembered what you said two weeks ago.

"but no girlfriends or boyfriend right?"

he added jokingly, with a hint of sincerity.

"Ill wait for you until youre ready for a relationship Y/N. even if you only want us to meet for sex"

he admitted, your cheeks turned red.

"not only sex! we could go on dates.. etc!"

he chuckled and nodded, pulling you back into his chest, this time more tightly like he was scared you were going to disappear.

"dates and sex it is. I understand Y/N dont worry. sleep now."

you nodded and your body relaxed.

"I feel your legs shaking you need it baby.."

Yesssss btw I think you meant stare but idk so I'm sorry if that's not what you meant lol.

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Pairing: Kenan Yildiz x F!Reader

Summary: You've been talking to Kenan for a while, but you don't want him to get too close yet, which comes off as if you don't really like him, but your eyes say otherwise.

Includes: alcohol, angst, fluff at the end.

Authors note: I'm so sorry if this is not what you envisioned but I still hope you enjoy!

Word Count: 1681

The colorful lights flashed, going back and forth, one wall to the other. Music was loud, so loud that you could become deaf from it. I was out for a girl's night. The more and more drink we got, the more and more open I also got. It started by telling them small things like weird fears and stuff like that but then I ended up telling them that I was talking to someone.

"Oooooh so who is it?" All of them say in unison. When they asked that, that's when I knew I messed up. "Nobody important" I sobered up really quick.  "No now you have to spill" one of them slurs out. "It's really no one important. I don't even know if it's going to go anywhere. I mean with who he is and what people like him are known to do I really don't think that it's going to last. And I don't know I just don't think I'm the type of girl he would be really into." all of their mouths were agape "Girl how could any man not want you lets be for real." One of them spits out "If I was a man, I would want you all to myself" another one smiles at me.

"Okay, okay, now let's all go dance, enough with this serious talk." I get up from the booth and all of them did the same. I let them go first and I just followed. Before I got to close to them though, my phone buzz. It was a notification, from him.

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Kenan Yildiz: Hey what are you doing?

You: I'm out with my friends

Kenan Yildiz: Oh really? Where?

You: Um why

Kenan Yildiz: I'm just wondering. Because I'm also out with friends.

You: ok...I'm at ####

Kenan Yildiz: What a coincidence I'm also there. Is it ok if I buy you a drink?

You: Yea but I have to be there when you buy it for me 

Kenan Yildiz: Why?

You: I don't know your intentions of buying me this drink. And plus, I don't need you doing anything to the drink

Kenan Yildiz: Come on you know I won't do that, but I'll wait.

I go over to the girls and tell them that I'll be right back. As I'm walking to the bar, I was able to spot the boy from a mile away. He was taller than all the rest of the people there. He sees me right away and starts smiling. 

"Hi beautiful" he hugs me "hi" I smile softly "what would you want to drink" "Um maybe a crown and coke?" I say as if I was almost asking and he nods and orders it. "So how are you" the way he said it made it sound like he genuinely cared. "I'm good. what about you, how are you doing." "I'm also good." There was a long pause after that. Before I tried to talk my drink came. 

"You know what, I think we can talk more later right now I think we should just dance." I don't let him talk before pulling him to the dance floor. At this point I didn't really care if anyone saw us. At first, I wasn't really near him, keeping my distance but as the music kept going our bodies kept getting closer. When I noticed this, I couldn't help but freak out a bit. "I actually need to go to the bathroom!" his face kind of fell but he immediately changes it to a smile. "I'll wait with you then" I nodded my head

There was a line to the bathroom, but it wasn't that bad. I looked up at him taking in his features. "Thank you for waiting with me." a grin appeared on him face "Of course why wouldn't I wait with you" "I don't know just nobody really does that kind of thing" "well I think any guy that really like a girl would" I roll my eyes and he laughed "What is it not okay that I'm telling you that I like you?" "I didn't say that" "then why did you roll your eyes" I shook my head while chuckling a bit.

Before we knew it, it was finally my turn to go to the bathroom. I went in and out and noticed that he waited for me again. "Wow, waiting for me again, how gentlemanly." A smirk was on his face. I blinked and all of a sudden, we were centimeters apart from each other. And I could tell that he was kind of leaning in. But before anything could happen, I pulled back and kind of pushed him away. I shook my head "we can't" his face completely fell this time "why can't we" I could tell that he was frustrated. "Because we can't" I started walking away and by the time he caught up to me we were already outside. "Where are you going" his voice is stern almost. "Home...I can't be here" He grabbed my wrist.

At this point we were far enough that not many people were near us. Far enough that no one would hear us. I turn to look at him; he looked mad but also concerned. "Why don't you let me get close to you. You barely let me in" "How am I supposed to let you in when I know people like you. You guys never do serious things, and you play around with girls, and why would I let you in when I don't want to get hurt." 

His face was unbearable, a mix of sadness and hurt. "Look I'm sorry but I really don't want to get hurt" "I understand that, but I wouldn't do that kind of thing. Especially to a girl that I've been eyeing for over a year. And I just don't know why you would think of me like that" 

There was another long pause like earlier in the night. "Look I don't know how to change your mind, but I think I'm done for tonight and I would rather have me drive you home so would you like a ride home." I stare up at him with light tears in my eyes. "Hey, don't cry I understand you don't want to be hurt." he wiped the salty tears that had started to run down my face. He cupped my cheeks after that and made me look up at him. "I can tell by your eyes that you want to give in, that you like me, so just give in."

I nod my head. "You're finally letting me in" I nodded again and a smile reassuring smile appeared on his face. He lightly put his forehead on mine and whispered, "You can take it as slow as you want to, okay? I don't want to rush you into anything." "Okay, I'm ready to go home"

He nodded his head and took me to his car; he opened the door and helped me get in. I gave him my address and he started to leave. The whole car ride was silent, but not a bad silence, a calming one. We finally got to my house. "Do you want me to help" "If that's not too much to ask for." I say quietly. "Of course, it's not too much to ask for." 

As we get to my house, I give him the keys, and he gets in and takes me to my bedroom. He brings me into my bed and tucks me in. "Ok I'm going to go but please text me when you wake up, okay?" "Don't go" I whine "Are you sure, I don't want you to end up regretting it in the morning and your drunk." He looked a little concerned "Kenan I'm not that drunk, I know what I'm saying." "Okay, okay. Then do you want to change." "Yea turn around" I didn't really have to say the rest because right after I said yes, he turned to the corner.

I got changed into some silk shorts and a matching silk tank. "Okay I'm done, do you want me to get you some cloths" he turns back around and looks at me, fully taking in how I looked. "Yes please" "Okay let me take off my makeup first and then I'll get something"

I took off my makeup, got him something to wear, and he changed. I was sitting in my bed kind of waiting till he was done doing whatever he was doing. He came in and looked at me for a long second.  "I can go sleep somewhere else if you want me too" "No you can sleep over here." I say quietly. With that he sits beside me in my bed. He looked over to the bedside to see some of my vogue magazines. "I have those too" A gentle smile was placed on his lips. "What? You have my magazines?" A smirk played on my face. "Yea, why wouldn't I have the magazines of the women I've had my eyes on for forever now?" A long pause sat in the air, it took me a while to answer since I was shocked by his answer, "I don't know" blush crept up on my cheeks and ears and he noticed that.

"Well, I think we need to go to sleep since it's almost 3 am" He started to lay down and I followed. "Okay, I guesssss" 

As we laid there in silence, I turned towards him and he did the same. "Thank you" I say quietly as if it was forbidden for me to say. "For what" he scrunched his eyebrows as if confused. "For making me open up and realize that you won't hurt me, at least I don't think so" I say the last part teasingly. 

kenan yıldız x reader

A/N: my first kenan fic!! based on this request! thank you for requesting 🤍

W/C: 1.604

Kenan Yildiz x reader warnings: none, sad Kenan

thank you to the person requesting i’ve been meaning to write abt him, he’s so underrated!!!



❀ bf! kenan, who was your best friend before you even started dating.

❀bf! kenan, who’s family tried to set the both of you up just because they loved you so much.

❀ bf! kenan that you were first sceptical about when he confessed his love for you, since you knew your friend doesn’t do relationships and usually has 5 different situation-ships. you never want to be just an option for him.

❀ “please, y/n just one chance i wouldn’t say this if i didn’t mean it, i would never want to throw our friendship away like that.” the truth was that you also liked him, but you knew you could never get in a serious relationship with him, according to the way he acts.

❀ he had to explain to you somehow that he does means it seriously, so soon enough he brought you to your favourite place. the place you and kenan had been going to since you were younger. the beach. he told you everything. from how he had always loved you but kept denying himself to now. he counts every single thing about you that makes him love you, naming even little things like how your nose would get all scrunched up when you found something cringey.

❀bf! kenan, that has always been the sweetest with kids and loves to play with them.

❀bf! kenan, that would tell you all about the new football players he’s been meeting. you’re so proud of him for making it this far.

❀ bf! kenan, that would call you turkish pet names like: askim, kalbim, güzelim.

❀ bf! kenan, who buys you a ticket for his games wether you ask or not. he just loves having and seeing you there. it also gives him way more of a want to score, knowing you’re there. you don’t exactly mind it, considering you always loved watching football ever since you were younger. (always watching it with you brother and dad) but now you especially do because it’s your boyfriend that’s on the field. of course you’re scared for his safety on every one of his matches but that just goes with it.

❀ bf! kenan, that takes you out out on fancy dinner dates every time he can, treating you like the complete opposite of his pervious situation-ships. of course him paying for the both of you. he thinks no woman should ever have to pay for a date. he’s a big gentleman with you.

❀ bf! kenan, that buys you cute lingerie. if he’s the only one to see it, might as well buy it!

❀ bf! kenan, that you would poke in the ribs and tickle every time you see the opportunity to. he’s the most ticklish person you’ve ever met, that makes it so funny for you doing it.

❀ bf! kenan, who only lets you do his eyebrow-cut because one: he doesn’t trust anyone enough to and two: he once fucked up bad doing it himself when he you weren’t there, so he’s scared to do it again. you never were one to moan about it, though. you knew he was shit at stuff like that.

❀ bf! kenan, who’s love language is kissing your neck, leaving you with loving marks.

❀ bf! kenan, that puts his controller away only for you, no one else. there were days where you would sit on his lap while he played his weekly fifa sessions with his teammates. you would grind your butt on him, teasingly to let him know to stop and he immediately did, almost jumping out of the chair.

ok so i'm only on s1ep23 but hear me out. yıldız is 100% the show's pacifist.

1. there may be other characters that preach pacifist ideals, the most obvious one being the greek soldier refusing to comply with violent orders against turkish civilians because greeks and turks are brothers, but he's later killed by mehmet for being a hypocrite. so in the end the only major character to be an actual pacifist is yıldız.

2. she never involves herself in war matters, instead fixating completely on love. for this reason, her actions are disapproved by everyone else: in an environment where anything other than undying patriotism is seen as suspicious, her complete lack of interest makes her an enemy, a greek. as a result she drifts towards those who accept her and praise her for wanting peaceful living between the two people, which end up being the greek (even though they're lying).

mustafa sami's death in my opinion doesn't count as her helping the greek because she didn't think they would kill him, she was only trying to get out of her forced marriage.

she focuses wholly on love instead, but she's not male centered. she rejects war, the highest form of hate, to embrace love. yıldız is the bridge between the two communities, from her friendship with eleni to her situationship with leon and acceptance of her father. it would be a mistake to say she's happy about cevdet's treason, she's just happy he's alive (and yes, sometimes she's happy to use his position as high ranking officer to get what she wants, but that's more about her being highly individualistic rather than a traitor in the making as everyone makes her out to be). yıldız is actually the one character who consistently reminds us about what's really important: life over patriotism, love over ethoreligious sectarianism, peace over war.

3. i watched this video a while ago (though i can't for the life of me find it) about how romances aren't solely about the dream of finding love but, almost in the same amount, about the fantasy of bettering one's economic conditions. a romance will not be fully satisfying to its readers/viewers if the love interest is poorer than the main character (unless said mc is rich enough for the both of them, but that just means the roles are reversed).

while watching the yıldız-leon storyline that's all i could think about, sure she likes him but of course, despite what she says, she doesn't love him (she loves ali kemal, questionable screenwriting decision i thought), she only wants to marry leon for the financial security, to live a better life.

i guess i just realised i wrote this just to reiterate that leon being greek never bothered yıldız because she values her romantic fantasy more than separatist customs.

4. she recognises that her parents love each other, it's war that drove them apart, while hilal and ali kemal approve of azize's marriage to tevfik because they're so blinded by cevdet's uniform they lose the ability to remember their father's nature.