#yed

FINAL DECISION.

Ask/RP blogs IF AND WHEN I get proper mental state and stable schedule.

"what about you being anxious about things moving too fast" you know what. It's fictional. So what if I miss out on parts of a fictional life. I have a real one to attend to. It doesn't affect my reality. I may be disappointed but I'll be okay I need to stop pressuring myself.

Link to fic in AO3 Sammichgirl's @sammichgirl story inspired me to experiment with a technique: I have done quite a few monoprints with acrylic, and then continued to work with watercolours and watercolour paste. I'm also clearly inspired by the heads.

The theme of the story is light: that's why I put a lot of flashes of light in the pictures. I also played with colours to some extent: when Sam is in hell, he is blue (Lucifer's cold). In the cover art, Sam is surrounded by a yellow halo: the halo reflects the colours of the YED and Sam's abilities.

Was she told to go to Indiana, knowing she'd meet Sam there or was it a chance meeting? Narratively, it makes more sense she was there on purpose. But she also didn't question the orders until the end of the episode after she met Sam, so either she was reiterating the argument, or this was her first shot to question orders.

Let's assume she's there on purpose. Did she get her full orders prior to meeting Sam and playing aloof at first was either her specific instructions or her personal choice on how to enact her orders? Was the aloof thing to hook Sam in or was she just supposed to get a glimpse of him and report back?

I ask report back because she described the van driver as a creep - did she kill him too to use his blood for follow up orders? Seems likely based on her being at the bus station - I can't imagine with Meg's personality she'd be eager to leave him alive.

But following that, was Meg supposed to convince Sam to come with her to CA? Because presumably old Yellow Eyes is also there with John tracking him. Was Meg supposed to plausibly break the brothers apart and get him to the YED, or just to test the waters to see how easy it would be?

I'm wondering if all this is because I'm curious if Meg was supposed to be a prototype for Ruby. With what we know about the other special kids getting seduced to the dark side, was Azazel trying to see how easy it would be to get Sam? And when that failed, Lilith was put in charge of that task and tried a different more subtle tactic? Aka by Lilith using a tactic that used Sam's love for Dean turned into revenge, versus his love of freedom from his family expectations (a little more of a classic Lucifer move - as presumed possible by Azazel when trying to recruit the Lucifer sword).

And is there an entire alternative plot line where Sam follows Meg and the pieces of the puzzle of the apocalypse fall into place differently? Dean still sells his soul (maybe for John instead) and Sam opens the door for Lucifer, maybe a little more willingly?