I've been sore about my birthday for a while now. Wishing that I could go back in time and do things differently. I would totally just spend the day by myself.
Because I ended up spending it with Kiara and it was bad. I wanted to spend the day with someone I cared about and someone who cared about me so bad.
At the end of the day, my gift for my 24th birthday was a lesson. Put trust in people's actions. However, that person is acting is a reflection of who they are. Whatever the reason may be or whatever the circumstances may be, the action is still the product of the person's values, thoughts, feelings, coping mechanisms...
I should have taken Kiara off the stove on that very day. I just didn't want to ruin my birthday but I ruined it anyway by surrounding myself with her energy on that day.
Both June 1st and June 2nd were more or less about her. And I am kicking myself for not responding in a different way. It is what it is
All I really can do is use the knowledge from this lesson for future scenarios such as this.
