#yaydigis

... I was debating on writing out this confession for the past few years. I stopped caring much over ~~drama blogs~~ but this pops into my head from time to time and maybe an anonymous confession might help put my mind at ease...

I had applied to be an artist a few years ago and put my all into what I could make! Only to not be accepted. I could accept that I wasn’t “good enough” but when I asked a friend, who was on the Digis team at the time—and I will not specify who this was—had actually told me that I wasn’t picked because I was honest in my application that I suffered from Seasonal Depression. Meaning about 3 months out of the year I’d be a bit behind.

Considering this was all unpaid work—at the time, this was when Lycan was still admin and I don't know if not paying people for their hard work is still a practice on Digis—you’d think they wouldn’t expect artists to be art machines and properly space things out among the artists, but I digress. I felt uncomfortable being on Digis and left shortly afterwards. Didn’t really want to be on a site with staff that practiced ableism. My life has been better without Digis. But I am allowed to think about that... Instance. Regardless, I do art practically everyday of the year and get paid and appreciated for my work. People who work with me understand I deal with mental illness. They are not disgusting about it and are patient with me. I can actually work through my depression now. Life goes on.