#yan vent

“You are very sweet” yet you won’t love me “you are very pretty” yet you won’t love me “you’re so beautiful” yet you won’t love me “you’re so kind” yet you won’t love me “You are special to me” yet you won’t love me “you are my favourite person” yet you won’t love me “I need you” yet you won’t love me “I love you” yet you won’t choose me.

Yes I wish someone stalked all my accounts. Yes I wish someone saw my vent posts and actually comforted me instead of saying same. Yes I wish someone saw posts that reminded them of me and reblogged it. Yes I wish someone would dedicate a post to me. Just one. Yes I wish someone was open about their feelings for me and said it a lot. Sighh

i want someone to call mine. i want someone to be MY person. someone who i talk to constantly, where IM the person their closest to, where they pick ME over everyone else. i want my own person. i dont care if that sounds bad. id do the same for them!! theyd be MY person, id talk to them over anyone else, their the one im closest to, their the one i want to know everything about and talk to 24/7.

I wish I was someone’s darling for once…I wish I had someone yearn for me,need me,want me. I always try to be someone’s loved one by loving them first ,only to be left to rot afterwards…

“You are special to me” yet you are in a bad mental place and don’t get better when we talk. My opinion and feelings and words hold no power over you. You don’t ACTUALLY mind us not talking to each other because if you did you would respond to me immediately,since you “don’t have anything to do”. Yes you are too busy with your own life to talk to me…you can just be honest and say that I’m an afterthought lmao.