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I had a dream last night, and in it, you said; “I broke all the rules, but the first one I broke for you.” I don’t know what that means.
I miss the dream where you were on top of me, choking and choking til the pain behind my eyes was too much and the lights flickered out. I miss the dreams where all I wanted was for you to kill me.
It’s me and my deep, gnawing-burning-rotting pit of shame again. That’s why I’m writing this, and why I’m having to justify to myself the fact that I’m writing this. I don’t know what the hell to say anymore, most days. I want to rip out my heart and lungs, swallow a bottle of pills, cry on the floor. “Boys don’t cry.” What about men? Is it okay now, that I’m not a kid, and I have to live in the real world? Can you I there? Can anyone?
What if everything worth crying over or laughing about or holding in our hearts is already gone, anyway?
The most beautiful things are the things you’ll only ever see once. Things you can never lose cause you never had them to begin with.
The blue-green-pink-white that dances through the air after you stare at the ceiling lights too long. The blood pouring from the side of your mouth, coating your teeth in crimson and rust. The bruises just under the hem of your shirt. The painting in a motel that reminds you of the place you died.
Is this a poem?
Kick my teeth out, help me break my knuckles. Disfigure me until you can never tell I was somebody who cared. Cave in my ribs and pull my hangnails. I want to absorb your flesh into mine.
I’m having the dream again.
It’s beautiful, cause you’ll only see it once, and you’re killing me.
Everything gets louder and louder. Your laughter sounds sweeter, a million miles away. Your perfume smells like cherry cola. It’s all I can smell. You grind me down into sawdust, shotgun to the head. Knife to the throat. Euthanasia. Boot to the temple. Shard of glass stuck in my jugular. Lethal injection. A million thoughts in my head. Zero, when it all snaps and suddenly, I’m crashing.