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Remus sighed, looked up and took another drag of his nearly done cigarette, Sirius was right there, laughing with Mary, hugging her, murmuring something in her ear that made her giggle, he looked away.
He couldnât take it anymore, heâd made a terrible mistake, they had kissed multiple times, it was an unspoken agreement, because they were drunk, because they were partying, their group had this night ritual, they all kissed when they went out, somehow they all knew it was just fun, and Remus even participated in it a couple of times.
He had even kissed Lily and James, but never Sirius, because he was in love with him, and even tho it was what he wanted to do the most, he knew heâd never recover from a one night kiss thing, to see Sirius shrug it off and never mention it again, so he refused, even when Sirius tried to kiss him before, he made excuses or played dumb.
But one night he just couldnât resist, because Sirius had shotgun the smoke he was holding in into his lips, and it was really inevitable, and they couldnât stop. They started kissing every night out, even when nobody was doing it, they found an excuse to do it, and Remus was done with it, because then Sirius would do this, flirt and be himself, and Remus would be heartbroken, turning in bed thinking if Sirius was alone at home or had company after the club.
But he was a weak man, so he looked up again, and saw Sirius staring at him, he smiled at him, but Remus felt a knot in his throat and couldnât fully return it, he decided to go home early, he couldnât do this, so he turned, hugged Lily, and grabbed his jacket.
He was waiting for a cab when he heard him
âWhere are you going?â
âBut the nightâs young!â
âYeah, well, Iâm notâ he tried to laugh, but almost choked
âRem, what happened? You seemed fine a while agoâ
âGuess the day caught up to me, Iâm tired, wanna go homeâ
âDo you want me to come with you?â
âNo, go back, you were having funâ
âItâs not fun if youâre not thereâ
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âI was chatting up with Maryâ
âWas just telling her I was waiting for my favourite part of the nightâ
âThatâs my second favourite partâ
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But Sirius was searching for some kind of answer in his eyes
âWhatâs the first one?â, he was regretting this already
âYes, because I want to do it in the daylight, but we can only do it at nightâ
Remus must have been dunker than he thought he was
âRem, were you jealous back there? Are you leaving because of me?â
So he was that easy to read
âYeah, I guessâŚâ there was no point in hiding it now âI guess I was, because I wanted it to be meâ
âMoony, can I go home with you? I want to talkâ
They stopped a cab, they went to Remusâ with no words, got there, went to the bedroom and got into bed to sleep, that was natural for them, Sirius was staring at him, still no words, Remus closed his eyes
âRemâ, he whispered, âRem, look at meâ
âCan we address this?â
âIs that what you really want?â
âPads, I like kissing you, but I like being your friend moreâ
âAlright, I like kissing you too, and being your friend, but Iâd like to do bothâ
âI donât think weâre on the same pageâ
âBecause you donât wanna kiss me?â
âBecause I want it too muchâ
âMoony, why do you think I donât too?â
Was he being stubborn? Or was Sirius saying what he thought he was saying?
âI want to kiss you⌠nowâ
âWeâre not in the pubâ
âI know, I want to do it hereâ
âBecause I donât want to only kiss you when we go partying, I want to kiss you at all timeâ
Maybe he was wrong after all, maybe they both felt more
âOkay, you can kiss meâ
They kept staring at each other
âDo you want to kiss me?â
âI always want to, since weâre being honestâ
âIf I kiss you now, Iâll want to do it again tomorrow morningâ
âAnd I wonât want you to kiss anyone elseâ
Remus smirked, he couldnât quite believe he was having this conversation with Sirius Black
âOkay, I wonât want you to kiss anyone else eitherâ
He thought about it, but this was Sirius, his best friend, he wouldnât lie to him, not with this
Sirius got closer, looked at his lips, and back to his eyes, Remus touched his cheek, tucked his hair behind his ear, Sirius sighed. It was really weird, that they were having this conversation, that they kissed so many times but couldnât seem to do it now, it felt more real, it was too revealing, there was an actual meaning behind it.
Sirius licked his lips, Remus exhaled, and leaned in, stopped mere millimetres from his mouth, and looked up one last time, just to make sure, Sirius closed the distance for him, Remus felt a shot of heat all over, adrenaline trying to escape his body from every pore, Siriusâ hand grabbed his waist, pulled him even closer, Remusâ hand slid to his neck and up his scalp, and the kiss escalated.
They started kissing faster, hungrier, it was like a gulp of fresh water after being days in the desert, they needed to breathe, but could not stop.
One of them moaned, maybe both of them did, Sirius pulled his leg up, Remus grabbed his thigh, and he climbed on top of him
He finally leaned back, and looked at him
âPlease, I need to talk about this tomorrow, well rested, I need to know you feel the sameâ
âOh Moons, I will, I do, but youâre right, Iâm sorryâ
Sirius laid down again next to him
They did, and then kissed again, they kissed for hours, in silence, only giggling from time to time, theyâd talk in the morning, over coffee, and be mature about it, and theyâd kiss again, and never stop.
