day 3 at work
it was mostly good. i interacted with people a lot which made me really happy. as a community crew i'm expected to have a friendly and hospitable vibe. that expectation has been bothering me lately cause i think that's one of the biggest issues that i've had with myself my whole life. socializing in general is not really that easy for me, it depends a lot on my mood and on the people i talk to, and the fact that i have to be friendly towards people kind of makes me anxious. it's definitely going to be a challenge. i'm both scared and excited at the same time. baby steps man, baby steps. but yo, my job is chill as fuck. i never thought i could find myself in a job that fits most of my personality (just not on the friendly side LOL) but i'll definitely improve on that. 🤨 i really wanna do well on this job and make new friends at the same time 🥺 but since it's only my third day i'm not trying to be anything. i'm just being my awkward, dumb, aloof but honest self and i think that's much better.
