He’s glad to see Noah seemingly relax a little, he didn’t want him to be worried or stressed or uncomfortable. If they did this– whatever it was, whatever they did, IF– he wanted Noah to be comfortable of course. The witch blinks in surprise at the other’s first question, taken aback by the mere suggestion that they might not be friend after. He tilted his head to the side, smile growing wider, filled with affection and soft assurance, brushing his thumb over the other’s cheek. ’ Noah… of course we will. I’ll never not be your friend. You’re far too important to me.. No matter what happens, no matter what we… do or don’t do, we’ll always still be friends.’ Lotte assured, his words soft and gentle, but also firm and certain in a way. ’ I’m always comfortable with you, Noah. I promise. And if for any reason I wasn’t, I’d tell you.‘
Lotte blinks again, head tilting once more as he gives a small nod. ’ Of course.’ What Noah actually said though he certainly wasn’t expecting. Not that it was a surprise, like– at all, it was… kind of obvious all things considered, but hearing Noah admit it certainly was. The witch’s smile widens even more, his other hand now reaching to cup his cheek too. ’ You do ?’ He asked, as if he hadn’t already known, leaning in to rest his forehead against his. ’ I’m– … I’m really happy you told me, that.. you felt comfortable to tell me, Noah. Really really happy. And– that’s okay, it’s okay to only like guys.’
Waiting for Lotte’s answer was even more scary than his confession. Out of his peripheral vision Noah can see the other smile, and it has him glancing back to look Lotte in the eye. There wasn’t ever a reason to be concerned, and Lotte assures him of that. His eyes crinkle when he grins, glee welling up inside him and it encourages him to continue what they started. He and Lotte would still be friends, no matter what happened, and Noah was going to hold the shorter to his promise. Noah was still unsure if friends did these sorts of things with each other, but that didn’t mean he and Lotte couldn’t. They’d be friends, but a special sort of friends, if Lotte was as happy to indulge Noah as Noah was to him.
His own hands come to rest on Lotte’s hips, grin widening as Lotte does as expected- accepts him. The other appendage at his cheek not only fills him with glee, but with love, and there was a freeing weight lifted off his chest. Now, he didn’t have to deny himself anymore, and he sputters into laughter when he thinks about how this all started- with Lotte’s thighs. “Yeah,” he whispers between giggles, staring into the sea of grey in Lotte’s eyes. “I’m happy I told you too. B-but don’t tell anyone else, keep this a secret, okay?” Not that he has anything to worry about, he trusted Lotte not to go blabbing to the nearest person. “I know it’s okay to only like guys... I just needed awhile to um.. Admit it I guess.” But now, so many questions came into play- question he didn’t want to think about, not right now.
“I know I’ve never been attracted to girls,” he continues, fingers curling into the waistband of Lotte’s shorts. “I tried. I tried to watch porn, or look at naked pictures when I was younger, and I didn’t feel anything. I tried to get crushes on them, but I never did. I don’t even know what a crush feels like.” Noah had his suspicions, but that was too much to bare in one sitting. Noah might confess he’s gay, but to confess his crushes on people was a whole different story. “But lately, I’ve been really thinking about it, and I’ve been doing things with some guys- n-not anything serious! Just cuddling and kissing- like the things I do with you.. And it feels right. I like it. I like being touched and touching other guys...” Whoa- He nearly bites his tongue. How scandalous. “I’d really like to try something with you- if you’re still in the mood.” Noah eyes him, searching for any signs of rejection. He truly was laying his heart on his sleeve here; his love-gushing, thirsty little heart. His thumb runs over the button of Lotte’s shorts, before tapping lightly at the zipper. “Is it alright if I undo them...? There’s something I really, really want to try.”
