tower, this is flight 447 requesting permission to drop this pilot!gojo moodboard in your inbox (i sincerely hope that i haven't sent it already because i remember coming up with a lame line but don't remember hitting the ask button ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ. anyway) and checking on you ๐ซถ๐ป๐
noooo stopppp this is so cuteee !! i love love love this :')) even the flowers and all pls you're too sweet thank you so much for making this and showing me <3 also permission granted to drop anything anytime in my inbox hehe
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i have finished reading s1 of ihm a month ago or something but something stopped me from writing my appreciation to you about it but recently i've remembered how i never got to say something nice about kickoff (that i enjoyed immensely) before you took it out of here, so now i don't want to make the same mistake ๐ฅฒ
firstly, i wanna say that i absolutely adore your writing style, the jokes and the irony (the scene where's the reader sees a shirtless gojo for the first time and falls to her knees) is absolutely one of my favourites! that's some really comedian peak. secondly, i like how alive and very...humanly the reader feels. she's certainly not a standard y/n but more of an original character with her own backstory, motives, very sharp sense of humour and struggles. i understand how it might be difficult to balance the very essence of the concept of y/n and the actual character you want to portray, but for me it works even better, because i am able to see an actual person, especially in long stories as yours (actually, i think it's kind of inevitable). i feel so sorry about her mom and all of these financial struggles (i am not from us but healthcare system insurance there baffles me to no end..) and how she tries just to...live between all of this, balancing the work where she spends all of the time mostly and life in fake marriage, not to mention avoiding direct confrontation with the fact that you DO have feelings for annoying handsome neighbour that also happened to be your fake husband (and after breaking up with the boyfriend of helluva years). thirdly, this. fake. husband. your gojo. oh god. I don't know how to put my thoughts in a somehow coherent way when all i think about is- [censored] /redacted information/ okay, no, but my ovaries do sing whenever he appears because he's just SO-. a protective, hands-on, wealthy guy, who's good with kids and also a provider??? oh god, give me him NEOW. he's such a silly goofy guy but i can sense how he's mature in a way the y/n isn't, and he's not snobby or overbearing about it. he's just calm in a way only people/men in 30s could be and this is so incredibly hot of him. and it just FEELS that he's so written by a woman ๐ญ (i mean it as the best possible compliment ever). i feel he's so safe to be around ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ (the way i understood sylvie) (the way i didn't mention how annoying he is- he isn't). the scene that literally moved me to tears was when he talked to choso about y/n and her preferences in general and how he understood her in all the time better than her literal ex-boyfriend???? he got her character, get along with her silly rules, isn't pushy, not to mention literally agreed to break the law ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ but most importantly makes her literally seen??? i seriously cried because i felt so bad for y/n since she was just convenient to date for choso and he apparently did a little effort to know her at all :(((( and i am not even talking about absence of a ring, because, ugh. come onnnnn. ofc gojo isn't perfect but you've got me so drawn to his character that i can't ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ (also i am one of the believers that sylvie cheated on him with suguru, but i hope this is not the case because if it is ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐)
patiently waiting for the season 2 ๐ซฐ๐ป๐ซฐ๐ป๐ซฐ๐ป have a lot of inspiration!!
hello my love, first of all thank you so much for this sweet sweet sweet review!! i've been so overwhelmed lately and this really cheered me up more than you know :') i was like aaaaaa i haven't had much time to think ab ihm lately but your ask made me think of my little characters again and it made me so happy!
i'm so glad you enjoy the comedy those are my favorite scenes to write!! i love a silly romcom or a whimsical kdrama moments so much HAHAH
thank you for your kind words about ihm reader and for your empathy, i know sometimes she's a lot and is difficult to understand at times but my heart is really warm when i hear readers seeing her side of things. she's certainly struggling in a lot of invisible ways, and i just appreciate how much patience ihm gojo has for her :'') but yes her denial for her feelings is so insane like GIRL just kiss him already lol
HAHAH EEEEEP i'm so glad you like ihm gojo tooooo!! he's fr my fake husband in my head all day every day ๐คฃ๐คฃ "he's such a silly goofy guy but i can sense how he's mature in a way the y/n isn't, and he's not snobby or overbearing about it" this is so true i think, i've found the silliest guys are sometimes the most mature when you really need to rely on them hahah. i have enjoyed channeling that part of ihm gojo's character bc i feel like it's the one that most closely resembles canon gojo! but YES........i would feel SO safe around him honestly ๐ญ
yes the fact that gojo sees reader in a more true light than choso ever did :(( it's so sad. i know i haven't really explored the angst part of her breakup with choso yet, mostly because it's all so blinded by her rage and annoyance with him but ouuuufff.......to date a guy for SIX YEARS and he doesn't even know that you would've loved flowers every once in a while.................... ๐๐๐ i'm so sad for her
thank you again for your sweet words and insightful review ๐ฅบ and also i'm so glad you enjoyed kickoff as well! you have a lovely day/night bb <3
hiii, i've just finished more like binged your 'mischief managed' series and i liked it very much! the entire atmosphere of hogwarts that you created alongside with the air of thrill of suspense is really so good! but gods, this gojo of yours...i want to strangle him and just look at him puppy eyed in wonder, all in once, he's as just insufferable and charming in his overall smugness as a canon one, so, to my mind, you did a pretty good job at depicting him <333 and the slow burn is buuuuuurning and it scratches my brain so good, patiently wanting for their... anything (it's a highlight of every chapter for me, personally. these exchanges are so... heated that i can'tttttt). thanks for this beautiful work <333
oh my god??? ty so so much for this very meaningful ask that totally did not have me blushing and pouting at my phone :)))
YES THAT IS EXACTLY THE EMOTIONS I WANT TO HAVE MY READERS FEELING ABOUT GOJO IN MISCHIEF MANAGED BTW โผ๏ธ
he is forever my menace and he'll continue to be a thorn at my side until he grows braincells, which will be soon (?) hopefully.. i think. ALSO THANK YOU their banter is smth i wanted to include from the very beginning because i was supposed to make them rivals but now they're just people who don't get along as much and there's a lot of emotional constipation in their relationship as we already know haha ๐
i am saying with all confidence that this chapter hit me the most than all the chapters, including the main story. i literally have no words, because this chapter is on entirely another level, and each time i think something like "well, this is fire. how on earth can she top [enter almost every chapter]" you always amaze me beyond imagination, i am utterly and completely speechless, just...wow. this might be not only the most heart shattering chapter of this verse for me, but most of devastating pieces i have read ever. literally had to put my phone away and cried (my mom even asked me if i was okay lol. I WASN'T!!!) when you described satoru burying his humanity to become a perfect flawless machine doctor. this hurt so much and still does, because well, their stress, exhaustion, burnout during the university and residency is totally understandable and in a way obvious, but this...is something entirely else, it's not just something relating to work but obsessive reshaping yourself as a human, and this is so fucking scary and terrifying, when you lost yourself to the need to be the best, flawless, perfect, masking all the scars and cracks that make you a human beneath a hollow mask. this was a fucking psychological horror to me, i don't know how to describe it otherwise (absolutely lovingly!!!! i feel like this a whole new level of angst you wrote here ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ you're satoru gojo of angst to me ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ), in a way i sensed the hollowness that trailed after satoru, this inescapable suffocating sense of doom. and what's worse - you didn't even know where it all started. when he read that enormous medicine book at the pond? got arm's broken and then hit on his face? constantly got told about how perfect and brilliant he should be (which later turned into how perfect and brilliant he IS)? when he didn't even think about anything else but neurosurgery? when first took drugs? rehab? it all piled years and years, and then a string snapped, irreversibly. he's so doomed by narrative here, my bebe ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ but in all truth, i can't quite catch why the damn string snapped after sukuna left :(( "he didn't blame him out loud" and "satoru pretended not to notice" and given satoru's relapse later and guilt, sukuna left because of him but why? just got fed up with everything? i even went to re read their dialogues in s&c when they met for the first time in the story (off topic but your writing has improved so much since then) but still ๐ญ okay, it was a loss of someone he knew, had a very strange relationship with (sukuna basically providing him the damn hard drugs and covering his ass), someone somehow stable and all familiar in the medicine world. it's in a way understandable why he took the blame on him - it is just in satoru's nature, at this point, but sukuna's reasoning is a bit dark to me, and i feel so stupid because of it, given it's a major plot point ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
also i liked very much that you let us see usually the unseen part of a doctor's life, with all slip ups, mistakes, panic, fear, stress and anxiety. i am not anywhere near a doctor but i respect them tremendously (as every person should), so i am not able to say in a right way what a doctor should feel, but i think that thoughts like these very common (blaming oneself, especially once young) . and it's no use to say in this situation like "it's not your fault", because when a person dies in your arms that sounds like a total bullshit, since doctors are to save their patients, it is their duty and job. it is so messed up in a way they constantly feel pressure to the point is it insufferable (as we can see in suguru's case), seeing every death as something personal. still, i think no ordinary person can understand death from a doctor's perspective, so fake condolences are not...needed :(
but i do think they (regarding suguru and all the characters) make a difference. it's just hard to see beneath exhaustion and a death trail.
i loved your depiction of what their friendship evolved in further, after sukuna left - something that should be friendship, but don't feel like it used to be anymore. this drift is so wrenching and devastatingly sad, though despite everything, they still care deeply about each other, especially suguru. god, i loved how satoru in the first residency year showed up in that room to tell that mom of two's husband she was dead. despite all his own non chalancy and arrogance, he cares for suguru so much as well :( it breaks my heart so much witnessing their drift, though they aren't really separated, because at this point i guess they simply don't know how to live without having each other in their lives, but god suguru has to learn how to think of himself as well ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ he destructs his ass while watching satoru's destructing himself ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ but honestly i think if suguru left satoru now, even given their drift and that he's with s&c reader, it would've made him even emptier (i don't want to elaborate on this and i certainly don't want to think what would've happened if suguru left that day instead of sukuna). damn.
before i wrap it up - "He seemed better these days. Calmer. But not in the way that worried meโmore like a storm finally bleeding out its violence into rain" that was just wow. you're really shakespeare reincarnated or something, how can one even come up with something like that???? honestly, speechless & shocked & in awe. i kiss your brain so much and send you dozens of inspiration and good vibes (and hypnotise your head not to hurt ๐๐๐๐๐), have a nice weekend and thank you so so so much for this chapter.
p.s. "And something about that casual arrogance of her felt eerily familiar, and for a disorienting moment I was twenty again, listening to Satoru explain to our professors why they were idiots" this got ME. i am an audience of this quote!!!!!!
p.p.s bonus: me retelling my bestie part one and two of suguru's memories (she asked it herself) (once it was 18 minutes long....)
idk what's wrong with me, but my first thought when i read your message was, ohhh this was an angsty chapter ?? hahah omg i thought part two was more angsty and i was worried that this part would be kinda lame bc it's shorter and i wasn't planning on releasing it on its own, but oh well, my self-perception was lying to me i guess :'))
but i'm so so sorry it made you cry (also not sorry, bc that's actually such a huge compliment in a weird way, but still) !! but yeah, satoru getting rid of everything human in himself to become this perfect machine i think is so important to his character as well as in canon jjk and in s&c so i wanted to show that dynamic and how it was triggered by feeling this overwhelming sense of helplessness and how utterly awful that feeling is and how it shapes him to do literally anything just to never feel that way again.
oh my, my favorite type of devastating feeling to write about haha. and yes, in a way it could be seen as psychological horror. oh imagine the fear from his pov on this ahhh.
and the thing with sukuna: omgggg i think i hinted a few times that something "happened" like in r&r and s&c i think i dropped a few hints and no one ever commented on it and i was like ??? am i being too subtle ? but i think i overdid it a bit now bc i feel like it might leave people confused now about what exactly happened and i left it so ambiguous but i really want to tell what happened in s&c between satoru and the reader so i can't show it here but i had to include it in some way bc it was a major plot point.
so i apologize for the confusion !! after the next s&c chapter it will make sense </3. but anyway, you're not missing anything, it's just that i didn't plan it all that much and now i'm in this situation where i have to heavily hint at it without revealing it omg. but it's so sweet that you went back and reread parts of the story, but you really didn't miss anything, it's my doing :'))
and i'm glad you like the description of the "dark" parts of medicine. i love exploring the dark side of things haha. and i think medicine gives you so much food for that.
and thank you so much for all the kind words ahhhhhh i feel so appreciated and greatful everytime i read your messages :')) and please you telling your bestie everything in detail in those voice messages made me smile like an idiot <33 you are so so sweet and i love that your bestie listens to all of it, friends who share your interestest and are interested in that too bc you are interested in them in the first place are really the best :')) wish you the absolute best ! <3
hi nici!! this is totally random, but basically i like doing some aesthetics/moodboards, call it what you want, and did a couple that i want to share with you and hope you might like it <3
this one is (guess who, duh) last chapter-ish s&c satoru
this is him and the reader (yes this brain is metastatic ๐ตโ๐ซ)
annnnd this is me envisioning the aesthetics of a possible story with satoru where he's a detective trying to catch a reader or something like that that you told us about a couple of times (i can't find mentions of it in your blog anymore but my heart remembers ๐ฉ)
that's it, have a nice day ๐ซถ๐ป๐
omg these are AMAZING !!! i love everything about them, like please these are so aesthetically pleasing and just the vibe i want to transpire with my writing omg thank you so so much for sharing them :'))) <3
and you even remembered the police AU idea haha. its so long ago, but i am still down to write something like that, but i fear i have too many ideas and too few hands to write it all. but that's exactly the vibe we're going for when i find the time to write it.
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alyyyyy i've just read the whole love hard series and i am like on the seventh cloud ๐๐๐๐ that was so good, i love that couple so much!!! honestly i feel relatable to the reader because dating in this economy and "man loneliness epidemic" (are they serious) feels too real, unfortunately ๐ญ her initial drunk breakdown is just on top, cause imagine flying to other country to meet a guy that catfished you, with no knowledge of language or whatsoever ๐ญ the way you described satoru, that annoying nerd who's head over heels with the reader makes me giggle and i wanted to scream between some lines GODDAMN. CAN YOU FUCKING TALK OR WHATEVER!!!!!! uhhhhh, that was so good. i feel your note about suguru since i am a satoru girlie as well that some people just don't click but he really got me pissed off with treating the reader like that (and yeah, she indeed set that image in his head but it doesn't excuse him of treating the reader like some nuisane) and talking about satoru that way :( maybe it's weed or something....
i especially loved this quote:
"Youโre blinking into it like a deer-in-headlights โ a blue that shouldnโt even exist in nature. Itโs too vivid, too vibrant; the kind of blue they warn you about in poetry. Like moonlight frozen into glass, backlit by some distant, dying star"
HE'S SO PREEEEETTYYYYYY I CAN'T
anyway it was such a good storyyyy, thank you so much ๐
ASEMI MY LOVE!! ๐ญ๐ย iโm finally getting around to responding to my piling asks, and tysm for your kind words, angel. it means sm to me that you took the time to read the whole series and share your feelings on the fic!!ย
girlโฆ this male loneliness epidemic is no joke. i cannot with the toxic masculinity and the inability to be vulnerable. itโs been a while since iโve been in the dating game bc i have hubby, but iโm happy i managed to capture it and make it feel relatable. itโs rough out there ๐ฅด
and yessss, suguru was absolutely being a jerk during the beach scene ๐ญ he had some petty, unresolved feelings toward satoru that he never fully processed. idk... to me, thereโs also a layer of him showing his true colors in that moment, bc when they ran into each other at the bakery, he was civil. but i feel like thatโs so real for ppl whoโve had a falling out. like, theyโll save face in public, act polite, maybe even convince themselves theyโre over it, but then their true colors come out when they feel safe enough to talk shit ๐ and that is so unattractive to me tbh.
eee tysm!! describing satoruโs eyes is my favorite olympic sport. i fear i will NEVER be normal about that manโs gorgeousย eyes. asemi, you've made my heart so happy! tysm for reading and sending this ๐ ILYSM!!
firstly, fuck satoru's father. secondly,.... yeah, fuck satoru's father. thirdly, i don't remember saying it but FUCK SATORU'S FATHER. ๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐ป 'fraternizing with muggle burns' no one caressssssssss, go fuck yourself, old your stupid man โบ๏ธโบ๏ธโบ๏ธโบ๏ธโบ๏ธ
(you can tell i read the first epilogue, yeah ๐ค)
thank you for giving us the glimpses into their life after that battle!! i like knowing that dumbledore got some kind of talk from gojo's mother (as he should, that old dick) and also happy that all their gang got serious talk as well, because it WAS very foolish indeed and they didn't get away with everything (satoru doing everything to protect suguru ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ my heart-)
but where my heart melted & exploded & you got me crying screaming shaking throwing up it's a YOU KNOW WHAT scene (but basically the whole ror scene). i seriously mean that this is one of the most sensual romantic intimate smut scenes i've ever read, i've got even teared up a little ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ i mean this is so beautifully worded i was afraid even to BREATHE as if i could disrupt their moment, so tender and fragile in its gentleness it was โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ so, so beautiful!! an amazing work from you.
also gods THIS QUOTE "You wonder if he knows that heโs always been your safest place, your most stubborn choice, the loudest part of your quietest hopes" had to actually stop because this is sooooooooooooo ๐ฅน๐ฅน๐ฅน๐ฅน๐ฅน๐ฅน just perfectly written. I can't. and perfect for them
thanks for that beautiful epilogue and waiting for the second one!
"fuck satoru's father" HELL YEAH โผ๏ธ
ALSO "that old dick" for dumbledore, hella accurate lowkey hate that man. went from top characters to my most hated character rq in the books so i'm sending that energy out into the world <33
i mean technically they got away with a lot, but they should be glad gojo has serious strings to pull and that his parents practically run two departments of the ministry. if this was a normal group of kids there would have been serious punishment ๐ญ
i'm so glad the sensual scenes are getting sm love because sigh. that shit took 7 tries dawg, i was practically crying in @gojover's dms for hours. so she proofread the smut part for me and approved it and only then did i decide it was good enough ๐
SHASJAK i'm glad!! i sort of wrote that line and took a step back and stared at it for two seconds and smiled to myself while writing :33 thy for this ask it made me so so happy i'm like crying tears of joy rn and giggling to myself <33
omg finally had my hands on the last chapter of mm (annnnnd browsed through the first epilogue. don't blame a woman-) and i enjoyed it so so much!!!! okay i don't know what to start with so i start with the Main Star of the Story the Strongest himself. god i KNOW i've already sang countless odes to this satoru but i just can't stop. his arrogance, this infuriating charm, the way he knows precisely what to do like he's been sure all his entire life (and when he's not- he's still hot. it's okay), like you said in this chapter, it just brings me to my knees and i honestly can't form a proper coherent thought which means you've made your job depicting him perfectly. and THE FUCKING DRAGON???? okay. but firstly, what's his special memory???? maybe that time when the reader found him in the fourth year??? I NEED TO KNOW THIS MISS, DROP THE LORE ๐ผ๐ผ๐ผ๐ผ and secondly, i've been wondering do you have any headcanons or you might've stated it already and i missed it about his wand (not that- OOPS WHO SAID THAT. sorry, slipped out). i mean wood and core (god this is so ambiguous ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ)
the thing about this chapter and the culmination in general that i liked is that it wasn't something super grandeur like in the canon but rather...smaller. and it was good for me since this story wasn't about it. i was thinking previously how you would let the story unfold in a final, what would be a way. not every final battle is meant to be... grand. sometimes it's raw, brutal in its honesty, and rather even unexpected, when you can't afford being hesitate, when you move before you think (as certain someone, cough cough that finally made them confess (it was a confession in my textbook!!)) and this what makes everything more real. AND GODS YOU INCORPORATED THAT "AT LEAST CURSE A LITTLE IN THE END BETWEEN SATOSUGU!!! it was such an intimate moment and i felt i shouldn't be even reading it ๐๐ gove the boys moment alone!!!
though i bet they all would have a GRAND SCOLDING because they're still a bunch of teenagers ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ and dumbledore, oh god, i just wanted to punch him, this hypocrite sweet talker, i guess you captured his essence exactly on point. an old dick!!
i am very happy that i stumbled across this story and please please don't stop writing, you have such a nice way with words and your brain is sexy!!! please keep doing it and i hope to see another story as beautiful as this one from you, huge huge thanks to you :)))) (and can't wait to read the epilogues)
i don't blame you for browsing through the first epilogue honey i'd be curious too ๐ญ๐ญ DUDE I LOVE THIS VERSION OF SATORU SO MUCH HE'S SUCH AN ASSHOLE AND SUCH A GENTLEMAN AT THE SAME TIME I CAN'T BELIEVE I LITERALLY CREATED HIM EITHER OH MY GOD
the special memory will be given in the second epilogue hehe :333 i'm halfway done with writing it and it is. slightly angsty but with loads of comfort and some.. sigh, spice <3 i'll give you headcanons about the entire series in a separate post because... um. i'd have to fit an entire google keep in here and i'm not gonna burden you with reading all that in one ask ๐
i sort of took lots of inspiration from fantastic beasts actually. because most of the battles and final scenes in that series are actually more raw, but less action-packed iykwim? the setting also i lowkey took from the second movie, with the whole amphitheater thing. and i really desperately wanted them both to almost die trying to save each other to make the stakes really high because they're.. kinda stupid and dense and don't realize their feelings for each other in an "aha" moment, and more just like. slowly build it and them knowing that they've always cared for each other in the not-so-frenemies way (and yes, it was a confession!! i wanted them to say they loved each other without actually saying that they did) โน๏ธ๐ซถ
AND YES OH I'VE TRIED TO INCORPORATE CANON SUBPLOTS INTO IT SO MUCH SO I'M GLAD YOU TOOK NOTE!! the whole "curse me at the end" was really heartbreaking for me when i read the manga and honestly i teared up while writing too :( and lowkey i started to hate dumbledore by half blood prince in the books and i wanted to really make it clear ngl ๐ญ because this man is letting his students get put in danger for no reason every single year like goddamn you're a horrible teacher ๐ญ๐ญ
tysm โน๏ธโน๏ธ i'm so glad mischief managed received sm love and i'm so, so glad that you sent this because it made my heart melt so badly <3