Search the sky, please! (The urge to ask iaw was immense BUT)
@down-to-the-thousandth tagging because two of you asked đ„č
hey buddy wanna buy a wip
amnesia au!!!!! is any fandom experience complete without writing some manner of sad ass amnesia au. (reserving the right to link back to the galex one that i never finished but might one day) the title for this one is from is it really you? by loathe, because for some reason i have a super involved (to me) playlist for this fic
soooo. standard amnesia au. pedro crashes and it goes badly, fermin is involved in the crash and feels obligated to go linger at the hospital while everyone's waiting for pedro to wake up. everyone here means literally just pedro's family, which makes it a bit weirder for Just fermin to be there? anyway when pedro DOES wake up he's got full ass amnesia, like, doesn't remember his name or his family or quite literally anything about his life, but fermin is the first person he sees, and fermin is the one he like. imprints on. we are playing it so fast and loose with the medicalness of the whole thing im not a doctor im a crafter of unlikely miserable scenarios ok
anyway. pedro gets to leave the hospital fairly soon after that, but he insists on going home with fermin. like refuses to go home with his family because he trusts fermin more than them which is a bad feeling for the family acosta but fermin is having a moment about it, obviously. the usual permin bits apply, the ex-friends with way more weight behind it, so fermin is like. as much as he knows itâs dishonest and a little bit (a lot a bit) manipulative heâs seeing it as an opportunity to rebuild what theyâve lost? it is not good. but it is.... for sure an opportunity. again we are doing so much handwaving and suspension of disbelief here so i will pad out the questionable response with some of my fave bits from the doc
the waking up moment after the first night they sleep in the same bed (which happens pretty early. honestly)
Pedro is awake, now, peering at Fermin through sleep-clumped lashes. Ferminâs hand is still on his waist.Â
âYou snore,â Pedro tells him, thick and groggy.
Fermin says, âI do not,â and Pedro smiles, guileless, nothing barbed in the curve of his mouth.
âYou do,â Pedro says. He squirms a little closer. If Fermin werenât watching so closely he would miss the wince, the tic in his jaw when he moves the wrong way, jostles the wrong thing. Fermin moves closer to meet him and save him the trouble.Â
âI donât,â Fermin says again. Heâs aware of the stale dryness of his own mouth, vaguely self-conscious about it now that theyâre nearly on the same pillow.Â
Pedro looks at him very, very intently. The arch of his eyebrows is so much less severe, less heavy. Pedro says, âOkay.â Like thatâs the end of it.
And then Pedro rolls forward and kisses him.Â
Pedro only lingers there a couple of seconds. Itâsâitâs barely there, when you get down to it, just the press of Pedroâs soft mouth against Ferminâs, just the stickiness of morning breath and the heat of sleepy skin. Barely anything.
Fermin feels his own lips move, just enough that itâs reciprocal, just before Pedro settles back on his pillow. His eyes are only half open. His cheeks are so pink and Fermin wants to kiss him there, to see if it tastes as sweet as it looks.
Pedro asks, very quietly, âDid I get it right?â
and then the bit where pedro asks to see pictures of them together because he is inferring from the way that fermin treats him that they are. a Lot to each other. and yeah
âWhy was I so red?â Pedro mutters. Heâs squirming, trying to get a better look at the photo of them as children, FermĂn with all his big baby teeth and Pedro with his splotchy pink cheeks. FermĂn opens up his arm, unthinking. Pedro, unselfconscious, wriggles in to rest his head on FermĂnâs shoulder.Â
âTraining,â FermĂn says. His mouth is abruptly extremely dry. âOn the bikes, you know.â
Pedro hums. Probably he doesnât know, FermĂn thinks, so he swipes to a photo of them on the bikes.Â
âChrist,â Pedro says. âWe were so tiny.â
Pedro hums. Heâs settling in, melting into Ferminâs chest. âWe were together a lot, huh,â he mumbles. Ferminâs stomach aches.Â
âYeah,â he says. âAll the time.â
Another hum. His breathing has levelled out, less laboured. Less pained. FermĂn keeps touching his hair, gentle, pushing it back and away from the bruised bits around his temple. He wants to kiss him, so he presses his lips to Pedroâs forehead, and when Pedro hums this time itâs soft and pleased and content.Â
This version of Pedro, who tolerates being fed and held, who curls into Ferminâs body like an old, safe cat. FermĂn wants to protect this. To keep this.
âFermĂn,â Pedro says slowly, into the silence. He sounds so close to sleep he might already be dreaming.Â
A pause, where FermĂn thinks he has actually fallen asleep. And then Pedro says, even more slowly, âI feel like I missed you.â