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my top 15 "was is it causal" moments i've had with my homoerotic straight bsf since the last time i posted about her ππππππππ₯π₯π₯π₯π―π―π―
1. we are ALWAYS touching now. under the table at school, holding hands while walking through the park, laying on each other in shared hotel beds, braiding each others hair and drawing on one another. she isn't a big physical touch person, and i've seen her physically recoil when someone else brushes her wrong, but she is always the initiator with me. (she has also told me that i'm one of the only people she feels safe with in this way)
2. everyone in school thinks we're dating. EVERYONE. we get asked at least twice a week if we're together. i asked a classmate one time after getting sorta fed up with just the sheer volume of people gossiping about us what it was that made people think we were dating. she rattled off a few reasons, one of which being "i've never seen someone look at another person the way she looks at you and not be in love."
3. one night after getting too high together in the backseat of her car, we were arm wrestling over the console. when she got fed up with losing over and over again, i pointed out that it was her who suggested it. she looked at me super intensely, brushed her thumb up and down my hand, and said "i just wanted an excuse to hold your hand." we sat like that, her holding my hand, locked in eye contact with our faces inches apart for like 30 seconds before i awkwardly laughed and said "you could've just asked."
4. on the same night, i told her i missed the security of dating men (i'm a lesbian and deal with a lot of internalized homophobia that me and her talk about frequently so this wasn't out of left friend), and she continuously throughout the night kept telling me "i think id make a good boyfriend." i kept asking her "why boyfriend? why not girlfriend?" and she said "because i like to take care of my partner. make them feel secure."
5. MULTIPLE times a day she will interrupt me mid conversation to tell me how beautiful i am. yesterday she stopped me mid very important discussion to say "god, your eyes are so beautiful"
6. she gets noticeably annoyed and over protective when i talk about dating other people and has apologized for sounding like a "clingy bf" on SEVERAL occasions
7. we planned an entire fake wedding for ourselves together and i found out by accident recently (was looking over her shoulder) that she has an entire pinterest board dedicated to it.
8. she has made it clear (VERBALLY stated) that i'm βthe exceptionβ compared to her other friends and that she doesn't "act this way" with them
9. she said her telltale sign that she likes someone is that she listens to their music or reads books they love 30 seconds after we had been talking abt my favorite book that i had just lent her and that she's annotating for me
10. we don't go a single day without seeing each other, and on the days where we're both busy we are ALWAYS texting a back and fourth stream of "i miss you" "i wish you were here" "when can i see you"
11. we've given each other multiple handwritten written letters talking about our love for one another
12. after we got piercings together, she asked me if i wanted to see what kissing with her lip piercing would feel like
13. we've fallen asleep spooning, holding hands, wrapped around each other, on top of one another, the works. we have never talked about it. i tried to bring it up one time and she completely shut me down and acted oblivious
14. she physically puts herself between me and anyone she knows has ever made me feel uncomfortable and has LOUDLY defended me and made a scene about it even though she's ridiculously shy and almost never talks to anyone at school
15. she's planning on (already actively making real steps towards) moving across the entire country with me after we both graduate, to a state she had no interest in living in before i told her that's where i was going and talks all the time about how we're gonna live in a cozy apartment together, just us, with a cat
my honorable mentions : i princess carry her all the time per her request, we have a photo of me flexing and her hanging off my arm that she posted (she has not posted a single time since i've known her, she's not a social media girl), she asked me how i knew i was gay last week and said she's been "thinking abt things", she's ridden my horse