I woke at 3:00am from a dream about past lives and doors that have been closed to me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Maybe it’s my hormones. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Maybe it’s the liminal space I’m in reopening old wounds that still live in my body. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Or maybe it’s a sign that I am moving through the losses and I know it’s safe to feel what I feel about things, to remember what I loved and to release what I could not be. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I left 2021 behind wanting nothing more than to forget the year. Today, I want so much to remember everything these last few months have given. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I am braver now. I am learning and embracing what is mine. I am not driven by what others want. I am not afraid of going where I am led. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I feel like an arrow finally freed from the tension of the bow. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ So much is changing. In many ways, I am starting over completely. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It’s amazing to hear myself say that I am here for it. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Even if I am going alone for now. Even if I get it wrong. Even if my new life has not been revealed to me yet. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ You go through the open doors. You don’t have to beat down the ones that are closed. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ _____ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #bykellēsauer #howtobealover #songofseasons #selfportrait #whereishope #brokenheart #morninglight #roses #livemoremagic #storyofbeing #growth #grief #morningslikethese #tender #wildseasonalinspiration #charleston #spilledink #dreamworld #simplethingsmadebeautiful #thebeautyinautumn #lifeunscripted __ (at Charleston, South Carolina) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcSemetr4_O/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
