Am I old? Many of us ask this question and honestly it’s not a numbers game, but one of mental capacity. Lately I’ve been bored with things like going out to clubs, drinking with friends, being in a room of people who pay more attention to their phones...those things.
The only logical explanation to why I feel this way at the age of 25 is because I started partying at a young age. Drinking, being a social butterfly, going to parties and clubs...all of that was done before I graduate high school. Hell I was 15 when I went to a strip club for the first time.
I was raised by my grandparents so I’m an old soul. There are many things that I value in life that others don’t. Materialistic things...yes, I like. However, I know how it feels to lose out on “things” therefore, I don’t place so much value in them. Family, health, joy, mental stability...those are things I value. The priceless things.
What I want in life now? Travel more. Laugh more. Love harder. Help others. Celebrate successes. Deposit more money in my accounts. House. To make history. A family.
My current environment doesn’t control my destiny, yet it does play a hinderance in the things I want to do. It’s up to me to take another leap of faith and go for it. I jumped when I started this blog. I contemplated for a long time and honestly I don’t know why. I wondered “Who really values my opinion?”
My mistake was limiting my reach to only those who know me. If I did that I won’t go far in life. Not that I don’t have a support system, but I know that many people “support” me for the privilege to say they know me. Some people are holding on until I glow up so they can reap benefits, but the genuine ones...the ones who encourage me when I want to give up, those people I work hard for.
All I know is that I will have better. I believe that my fear is having better without some of those who I hold dear to my heart. But everyone does what’s best for them right?
Hmm...I started this post with one topic in mind and then ended up with this.
