#whatsreal

if it’s an actual memory, a movie I saw, or a dream that I had.

My therapist said that because of all the trauma I went through my brain dissociated to cope, and I do know I have a massive memory problem I don't remember much of my childhood or teen years, shit even now I still find myself doing it unintentionally, I space out all the time, my body is on autopilot half the time and I feel like its ruining my life the fact I have to function like a adult when my brain is always in survival mode is fucking hard!! and when I do find peace in my life which I have now since I don't hang around toxic people or party ect.. I have these memories come into my mind but I don't know if they're memories or things I used to day dream about, It makes me feel so crazy sometimes, did that actually happen or was it my imagination when id go off into my own world all the time just so I could cope, my mum is actually crazy so I can't ask her if they happened cause she was so manic and delusional half the Time she had no idea and now she's medicated and stable if I try to talk to her she just says she can't remember or no that didn't happen when in fact a lot happened that she denies, so I have no clue if it was a memory or a memory of a daydream, it also makes me think maybe things weren't even that bad and I know the past doesn't matter as much as the present but my brain is naturally doing this to me as im not in a toxic environment anymore its trying to make sense of everything that happened and idk whats real anymore :(

Sometimes blinded by what we want and not paying attention to what’s right in our face #blinded #blind #weseewhatwewant #instead #of #whatsreal #openyourmind #openyoureyes #livelife #dontbenaive #reality #reallife #💯 #independence #yourown #motivated #inspired #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthadvocate #askatherapist

grant

Not all roses are 🌹 💙 or real #notallrosesarered #crystal #crystalblue #whatsreal (at Alkrington) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcNHvE1jrGE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Table of fake paintings and frames #whatsreal (at Melbourne, Victoria, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUJcppwBLMR/?utm_medium=tumblr

While others love live on, for eons.