#whatissleep

[Unblocked view] Just 2 little kids by the lake. 

Why do I do that?

I'm tired. So tired.

But I stay awake. Every day, I choose to stay awake.

And sometimes I don't understand why.

So many things that make me tired.

But when I think about it, it's the little moments that keep me awake.

Things like lying on the couch with my boyfriend for half an hour and cuddling, seeing my father smile when I tell him something funny, hearing from my sister that I'm great, getting a sincere "I love you" from close friends...

The problem is the time between those moments.

The bigger the gap, the more tired I get.

And if something happens in that time that tugs at my nerves, keeps me busy and sad, it doesn't matter how small the gap is since something kept me awake so nicely. It puts me into a half-sleep. Daydream.

And then just one thing saves me.

The thought of who would be sad I'd miss dates with them because I'd sleep through it.

I want to sleep. I love daydreaming, it's almost like sleeping, only with waking up.

I'll wake up as often as I can. If only because I can't stand the thought of making someone sad. I want to please everybody, no matter how tired I am.