#whateversongs

Freya Ridings - Holy Water (Live At The Barbican)

Arlissa - Rules (Official Video)

The Pretty Reckless - Cold Blooded [LYRICS]

Perfect for my mood right now. I just want to be told where I stand with people, at work, at home, with family, with friends. If you do not explicitly tell me, I assume the worst. And I’ve not been honest about how I’m really doing. Probably because I don’t even know where to start. And because people can’t even handle the little bit they do know, and why would I subject myself to more lectures coming from people who don’t care about it, me, or how I feel anyway?

In a sad song mood. Feel like no one is understanding me. Or they just don’t give a crap. I have been working my ass off trying to get work on a path of improvement. And I want to have a reliable team. I don’t know. I guess everyone likes to think they’re better than those that ruin things for everyone on a weekly basis, but as it turns out, everyone disappoints at some point.

Starting a new playlist: Feel Like a Monster. It’s for those days I feel outside of myself, feel more monster than human, when I stop caring about anyone else. 

Evanescence is my absolute favorite band from the very first time I heard Amy Lee’s voice, which is probably the reason why I love them so much. The band’s been through a lot of changes, and done different things. Anyway, this is probably the first song I heard Amy Lee sing that was less of death and sadness and more like I’m going to kick this problem in the ass which is kind of what I need right now