Jul 10
As the Adage of Trauma Healing goes, "it gets worse before it gets better".
Naturally, it did. Judging by the signs, the meters, the self-expectations — doing worse than ever before.
But feeling… feeling better than ever before.
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relief, relief, relief. joy. freedom. peace.
was half-alive before this, shambling, lying, scraping by, running in circles, lying, lying, blind, lost.
get to be alive. fully. for real. feels stupid, feels too good to be true — but the logic is sound. we get to be ourselves for the rest of our one stupid precious human life!
miracle.
according to modern science, miracles are real!
still feels incredible.
#we're plural!!!!#you can ask for a short list of alters if you're curious BUT don't EXPECT our attention bc… we'll it's been a lot!!!!#just one week of Awareness of something that's been real Forever. giddy!!!!!!#vikarambles#vi as in me! i'm an alter! hahhahha FUCK YES god it feels GOD TO SAY IT#us — cal us the Circus!#the current tumblr bio is NOOOOOT true. lmao. i mean it's Partially true but! FAILS TO REFLECT THE BEAUTY AND COMPLEXITY OF IT ALL!!!!!!#y'all don't get a New Bio tho. we've been busy! New Tumblr Bio is LOW on the order of priorities#be content in not knowing us fully!
