Jun 25, 2021
for december:
i will be reading this in my apt and i will be back in tx. i will be sitting by my window watering my windowsill potted herbs and i will be happier than how i’ve been lately.
i will still be writing; on this blog or in a notebook i’ll stash in my drawer. like always, i won’t expect much from the world but what i will expect from myself everyday is to live without turning to hate. come december, come my peace.
to december nicole who will read this months from now, i hope u have treated yourself kindly even if the world didn’t.
#nc.personal#i am at my wits end#but its ok#we ok#i physically have to remind myself that i am never going to be a hateful person even tho ive been wanting to scream at everything the past#- while now#normally i have a better grasp at myself but setbacks are ok#i have to sound that out constantly even if i dont believe it#taking time to breathe a little is ok#july is turning into august but its ok#im setting myself back again to accomodate ppl and their oopsies bc i cant catch a fuckin break when it comes to family#but its okems#😌 tonight we remind ourselves that turning into hate means we giving up a part of ourselves#and das not cool#so we will breathe very very deep#and think of the happy little moments that will be rooted by december#august ill be home#december ill be happier#yes 😌😌😌#kaya nicole kaya
