#want2help

Have you ever felt insecure? Of course you have. We've all have. I've always been kinda chubby. Never really cared about the way I looked. But when I was in middle school I was very comfortable with my body. I would always wear sweater to try and cover up. ALWAYS. Regardless the weather. Here I am 6 years later, happy to be me. What I learned is that the first person to judge you, is you. And the only person who actually cares, is you. So the first person to accept you, is you. So be happy you are you.

So today I started thinking about that saying. "Nice guys finish last". It also applies to girls. It revolves around the idea that if you like someone and you are just yourself and you are nice to them, well... You know where it goes. They end up liking you but "just as friends". Then they start seeing someone who is, frankly, a douchebag (or slut if you are a girl). So that's what I got to thinking. "What if its not just aboit being nice? What if she likes douchebags? What if that's her type? Can I change?". However, then I got to thinking that maybe I was wrong about that. With people they tend to look for other people they have things in common with. So just to put it in perspective: this girl I like, she likes to party, to go out drinking, to get high, and to just to fool around. Which is exactly where the problem lies. I don't like to party, I like drinking but not often, don't really get high often either, but I do enjoy chilling and fooling around with my friends. So now you see? Maybe its not that the person doesn't like you. Maybe you don't happen to have enough in common and they don't find you interesting. Maybe they like douchebags (or sluts) because that's what they are. Its not worth you're time. Let them go for now. Try looking for someone with your similar interests. I guarantee you it will be a million times better. Trust me.

A while back I wrote "I like writting that which no one will ever read." Well, today I got to thinking "what if... What if one person reads it... What if that one person needed to read something and they stumbled upon what I wrote?" So that is why I decided to do this. To write something for you. Everyday starting today. Maybe you were reading something else and decided to snoop around and find something interesting. Maybe you are feeling down and were just scrolling to distract yourself. Maybe this isn't even meant for you, but you'll share for someone who needs this. It doesn't matter though, because you are reading this and I know that it was meant for you. So all I will do now is say that regardless of how bad it all seems now, it will get better. I am going through a shitty place right now too, and that is how I know. You just have to be patient. You will get throught this. I know you will. We both will.