Hiya if it's possible can I claim đ§ž if that isn't already taken. I also have a request if thats ok!
Would there be any way you could write some sort of hurt/comfort about Harry having to leave early in the Sidemen airport roulette video?
I hope that the request doesn't cross your boundaries at all, I am extremely sorry if it does and completely understand if you feel uncomfortable!!
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hi babe! you can absolutely be đ§ž! just send me your pronouns and i'll add you to the list! also, for the future - if you're ever worried that something you send me crosses my boundaries, you can find them linked in my pinned post!
contains: hurt/comfort, established relationship, soft domesticity
harry lewis x fem!reader
youâre curled up on the couch in one of harryâs old hoodies, half-watching some reality show with the volume low, your phone on your chest and your fingers tangled in the sleeves. itâs getting late. he shouldâve been on a plane by now - off on whatever chaos the sidemen cooked up for airport roulette this time. youâd kissed him goodbye that morning knowing you wouldnât see him for a few days.
which is why your heart stutters when you hear the front door open. a shuffle of trainers on tile. a bag dropping. then his voice, muffled but familiar, worn around the edges:
âbabe?â
you sit up fast, blinking toward the hallway. âharry?â
he steps into view a second later, hoodie wrinkled, cheeks pale, one hand pressed low on his stomach like itâs the only thing keeping him upright.
youâre on your feet immediately. âwhat- why are you home? you were filming- what happened?â
âyeah,â he mumbles, eyes flicking away like he doesnât want to see the worry already written across your face. âi was. but i, uhâŠi had a bit of a reaction. gluten or something. stomachâs fucked.â
you walk to him and place a hand over his. his skin is warm. clammy. his jaw tight like heâs trying not to show it.
âwas it bad?â you ask softly, thumb brushing against his side.
he nods once. âdidnât want to risk being on a flight like that. ethan and cal told me to come home.â
âgood,â you say, guiding him toward the sofa. âyou shouldâve texted me.â
âdidnât want to worry you.â
you help him sit, then tuck a blanket around his legs like instinct. he exhales sharply when he leans back, pressing the heel of his hand harder to his stomach.
âhow longâs it been hurting?â
âsince after breakfast,â he mutters. âthought itâd pass. it didnât.â
you disappear for a second and return with a heating pad and a glass of water, kneeling in front of him as you settle it against his stomach. he hisses through his teeth but doesnât stop you.
âyouâre not invincible, you know,â you murmur, voice soft. âyou donât have to power through everything.â
he doesnât answer right away - just watches you tuck the blanket tighter and run a hand through his hair, fingers gentle. he leans into your touch without thinking.
âmissed you,â he mumbles.
you smile faintly. âyou left eight hours ago.â
âstill missed you.â
you let him rest his head against your shoulder, your hand finding his again beneath the blanket. and even though heâs hurting, even though this night wasnât supposed to end with him home - it feels a little more right this way.
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a = affection (how affectionate are they? how do they show affection?)
harry isnât the most openly affectionate person, but he shows it in weird little ways. playfully kicking your foot under the table, ruffling your hair, sending you cursed memes at 3am instead of âi miss you.â physical affection makes him flustered unless he initiates it, and even then heâll brush it off like itâs no big deal - until you pull away, and he immediately pulls you back in.
b = best friend (what would they be like as a best friend? how would the friendship start?)
heâs the chaotic best friend that drags you into mess and then helps you clean it up. loud, reckless, hilarious - but he shows up when it counts. your friendship probably started from pure banter, one too many insults thrown at each other before you both realized you were spending every day together. heâs loyal in the way only someone whoâs never had to say it can be.
c = cuddles (do they like to cuddle? how would they cuddle?)
he pretends he hates cuddling. says itâs âtoo hotâ or âyouâre on my armâ until you move, and then suddenly heâs dragging you back with a grumble. heâs a blanket thief, a leg tangle-r, and always ends up wrapped around you by the morning like heâs been starved for it.
d = domestic (do they want to settle down? how are they at cooking and cleaning?)
he panics at the idea of âsettling down,â but deep down, he doesnât hate the thought. cooking? questionable. cleaning? chaotic at best. but he tries. if you live together, youâll find odd little signs of love - your favorite cereal always stocked, a post-it note stuck to the fridge with a dumb drawing just for you, the bed half-made because âyou like it like that, right?â
e = ending (if they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
messy. heâd avoid it for way too long, hoping itâd fix itself. when it finally happens, heâs emotional - maybe angry, maybe too quiet. he doesnât know how to talk about feelings without laughing or shutting down, so itâd come out all wrong at first. but later, heâd text something raw and real, like, âi hope youâre okay. i did love you.â
commitment is hard for him. not because he doesnât care, but because heâs scared of doing it wrong. of not being enough, of hurting you, of being hurt. marriage feels far away, like something for other people - but if he proposes, itâs real. probably impulsive, probably unpolished, but full of heart. maybe he blurts it out while youâre brushing your teeth or during a stupid argument, like âwell maybe i want to marry you, did you think of that?â
g = gentle (how gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
heâs not naturally gentle - heâs loud, clumsy, impulsive - but he learns. with you, his voice drops without thinking, his hands soften. emotionally, heâs a bit of a disaster. avoids hard conversations, deflects with humor. but if youâre hurting? heâll sit with you in silence, hand on your knee, like âi donât know what to say, but iâm not going anywhere.â
h = hugs (do they like hugs? how often do they do it? what are their hugs like?)
hugs make him awkward unless he really means them. quick side hugs are fine, but when he wraps his arms around you properly - arms tight, head buried in your neck - it means something. he only really hugs when he needs grounding, or when you do. and when you pull away, he always lingers just a second too long.
i = i love you (how fast do they say the l-word?)
very, very slowly. he feels it long before he says it. maybe it slips out in a moment of panic - after a fight, or when he thinks heâs about to lose you. itâs messy and a little rushed, like heâs scared of what itâll mean. âi love you, okay? i do. i just didnât know how to say it.â
j = jealousy (how jealous do they get? what do they do when theyâre jealous?)
jealousy? oh yeah. he wonât say anything outright, but youâll know. passive-aggressive jokes, too-loud laughter, throwing his arm around you in a way thatâs definitely more for the other personâs benefit. later, when you call him out, heâll sulk and mutter, âwhat? i just didnât like the way they looked at you.â
k = kisses (what are their kisses like? where do they like to kiss you? where do they like to be kissed?)
his kisses are chaotic. one second it's playful and teasing, the next itâs slow and desperate like he forgot how to breathe without you. he likes kissing your jaw, your neck, your shoulder when youâre not paying attention. he melts if you kiss his collarbone or the side of his neck - wonât admit it, but it gets him.
l = little ones (how are they around children?)
heâsâŠnot great. awkward. stiff. he doesnât know what to do with them. tries to talk to them like tiny adults and panics when they cry. that said, if a kid likes him? he will be weirdly smug about it. heâs not bad, just uncomfortable. itâd take time - and probably you holding a baby and looking hot doing it - for him to start warming up to the idea of being around kids more.
m = morning (how are mornings spent with them?)
chaotic. his alarm went off an hour ago and heâs still under the covers. blankets everywhere, hair a mess, mumbling something incoherent into the pillow. mornings with him are slow, grumpy, and full of accidental cuddles. he wonât wake up properly until you kiss his forehead and shove coffee into his hand.
n = night (how are nights spent with them?)
night is when heâs softest. when the energy dips and heâs finally still, laying beside you, thumb tracing circles on your arm. heâll talk more then - quiet rambles, half-finished thoughts, whispered confessions that only come out in the dark. if he falls asleep before you, itâs always with one hand still touching you.
o = open (when would they start revealing things about themselves? do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
he takes ages. he doesnât trust easily, and heâs afraid of being vulnerable. heâll make jokes to cover up the real stuff, push you away when you ask too many questions. but if you stay? if you donât flinch when he starts to open up? it all comes out eventually, rushed and raw, like itâs been bottled up for years.
p = patience (how easily angered are they?)
heâs got a short fuse for everything - except you. video games? rage. technology? rage. but when it comes to your bad days, your spirals, your silences? heâs surprisingly patient. like the moment itâs you, all his bluster softens. âtake your time,â heâll say, even if heâs quietly panicking underneath.
q = quizzes (how much would they remember about you? do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
he pretends he forgets - but he doesnât. he remembers the dumbest, most random things. like what snack you only eat when youâre stressed, or how you pronounce certain words. heâll act surprised when you bring something up, then casually hand you the exact thing you mentioned needing three weeks ago.
r = remember (what is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
he doesnât talk about it much, but itâs something small - maybe the first time you fell asleep on his shoulder, or the night you stayed up with him during one of his worst spirals without saying a word. itâs not the loud moments. itâs the quiet ones where he realized, âoh. theyâre not going anywhere.â
s = security (how protective are they? how would they protect you? how would they like to be protected?)
protective in the loudest, most ridiculous way possible. someone upsets you? heâs pacing the room, swearing vengeance, already halfway to the car. he doesnât know how to fix things calmly - but heâll defend you with everything he has. and when youâre protective over him? he acts like itâs no big deal, but it wrecks him. no oneâs ever done that before.
t = try (how much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
more than youâd think. he wonât talk about it, but he plans for weeks in advance. his dates might be messy, the gift wrap might be awful, but the heart is so there. he remembers what you like, what makes you smile, and heâll go out of his way to make you feel seen - even if itâs just bringing home your favorite drink after a bad day.
u = ugly (what would be some bad habits of theirs?)
he interrupts a lot. curses too much. leaves socks in every room and gets distracted mid-task. when heâs overwhelmed, he shuts down completely. but heâll always circle back, usually with a guilty smile and some sort of peace offering (read: snacks).
v = vanity (how concerned are they with their looks?)
lowkey vain. heâll act like he doesnât care, but heâll redo his hair three times before leaving the house and absolutely checks how he looks in your phone camera. he loves when you compliment him though - it hits different coming from you.
w = whole (would they feel incomplete without you?)
he wouldnât admit it, but yes. heâd go back to pretending everythingâs fine, making noise so he doesnât have to feel the silence. but nothing would taste the same, feel the same, be the same. itâd be like breathing with half a lung.
x = xtra (a random headcanon for them.)
he gets weirdly fixated on âyour songs.â like, if something plays that reminds him of you, itâs your song now. heâll replay it in the car, send you the link with no context, and casually say âthis is so usâ like itâs not the 47th time youâve heard it that week.
y = yuck (what are some things they wouldnât like, either in general or in a partner?)
he hates being lied to - especially if itâs to âprotect his feelings.â he wants real, even if itâs messy. performative behavior also grates on him - heâd rather you be weird and honest than perfect and fake.
z = zzz (what is a sleep habit of theirs?)
he talks in his sleep. full conversations. also hogs the blanket and sleeps diagonally unless physically restrained. but if you roll away in the middle of the night, he always pulls you back without waking up, like his body just knows youâre supposed to be there.
summary - harry watches your livestream and realises youâre not okay
warnings -swearing, mental health issues (non-specified), my terrible writing
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The livestream had only been going on for ten minutes when Harry decided to watch it. As soon as he clicked on it, he was running up the stairs to your flat.
The livestream showed you telling your viewers how you were super tired so you decided to cook some food up. That was already a red flag for Harry, you never cook and, plus your tiredness, it could only end badly. But Harry knew your mental state had deteriorated lately, there were many times when you had stayed up until two in the morning, discussing deep topics.
Harry, thankfully, had a key to your flat, so when he opened the door, he immediately made his way to your kitchen.
âHey.â He said softly, looking at the livestream.
âIâm making vegetable soup, do you want some?â You asked, almost dazed.
Harry frowned. âMaybe in a minute, okay?â
You nodded and continued to cut the vegetables as Harry reached over and turned off the livestream.
âMate-!â You exclaimed, putting the knife down.
âYou are not alright, okay? You donât have to pretend to be either.â Harry whispered. âYou go sit down for a minute, okay?â
You nodded and made your way to the front room and fell on to the sofa. Harry put the vegetables away and turned off the oven. He grabbed your phone and put it in his pocket so he could give it to you later. He went into your freezer and pulled out a tub of ice cream that was stored at the back. He grabbed spoons and moved to the front room where you laid, wrapped in a blanket.
Harry placed the ice cream on the table and put your phone down next to it.
âWeâre going to eat ice cream and talk. We donât have to talk about whatâs up but you need to express some sort of feeling okay?â He smiled. You took a spoon from him and nodded. You took a spoonful of ice cream and put it in your mouth as Harry did the same.
After a few more bites, you eventually spoke. âSometimes, it feels like Iâm not good enough. At anything. My videos are terrible, I canât focus on getting any good ideas. I feel like Iâm at a mountain and I canât get up or around it.â You looked down as tears pooled in your eyes.
Harry placed a hand on your shoulder and frowned. âYou are not at this mountain on your own. I will offer you some spare climbing equipment and we will climb it together. Thereâs going to be times where the climb is hard and weâll get tired but we will still make it. Me and you together.â Harry took a breath. âBesides, your videos are good enough, everyone burns out. You are good enough, and I say that from the bottom of my cold heart.â
You let out a giggle and looked at him. âWhen did you get smart?â You ruffled his hair slightly before he attempted to push your hand away. âThank you.â You whispered after a moment.
âAnytime.â Â He kissed the top of your head after pulling you into a cuddle.
âI miss this.â You muttered.
âWhat?â Harry asked, nudging you up slightly to look at his face to face.
âI miss us hanging out together and having fun. You suddenly stopped talking to me and it really hurt, Harry.â You said honestly.
Harry looked down guiltily.
âCan you ou tell me what I did wrong?â You asked.
âYou did nothing wrong. Itâs all my fault.â Harry bought his knees up to his chest.
You rested your hand on Harryâs knee and waited for a response.
âI fell in love with you.â Harry looked up and made eye contact with you. âI thought maybe if I distanced myself from you then I could fall out of love.â
âHarry-â You started but Harry cut you off again, staring at his hands.
âI havenât fallen out of love with you and I donât think I could. You are too special.â Harry mumbled.
âHarry. I love you too.â You whispered.
âWhat?â He asked. âReally? Why?â
You giggled. âSince we first met. You were with Katie at the time so I figured I didnât have a chance.â You shrugged slightly.
âWe broke up because she knew I loved someone else.â He whispered, honestly.
âYou broke up a year- oh.â You breathed out.
âYeah. I was in love with you before that I just- I was scared.â Harry said.
âWell, weâre here together. We can do this. With each other.â You smiled.