#vomelia

"Maybe I lost the belief that I held for my own self...." Hearing him mention forgiveness made her just wonder and question about herself more. "I have so many things that I need to forgive myself of but perhaps..." She hesitated. Did she want to forgive herself? This is something she lived for and yet she managed all these years before even meeting Volk without forgiveness. "Are you trying to please me?" Stepping out of her thoughts she noticed he still kept giving here his endless affection as he always did and yet she felt... bothered. "If you just wanted to fuck then you may as well..." Eh. Even how she said it didn't feel right. Maybe shes still coming to terms a lot more slower than Volk's realization unfortunately.

"Disappointment.... because you love me you say. So you're saying a argument over a hole in the wall is because you love me? Or telling me to shut the fuck up is because you love me? Because of that toxic smell, except the alcohol I'll let slide, is because you love me?" The more she mentioned it the more harsh and hurt her voice became until she let out a deep sigh of frustration. "I just want to be covered and left alone... to sort myself. I don't understand how...because you love me." Not realizing it she slowly started mixing her memories of her imprisonment with the yelling matching together. "You're right. Right now I can't see that...."