âFascinating,â Coran murmured, blue eyes sparkling in the light of the computer screen. His eyes darted to Lance over the top of the screen and back again, a smile pushing the edges of his mustache up his cheeks. âSimply marvelous!â
âUh,â Lance broke in, clearing his throat as Hunk and Pidge clamored to get a look at the screen, âHi, sorry, whatâs fascinating?â
Coran clapped his hands together, making everyone jump. He hopped up from his chair and bustled over to Lance, leaning in so closely that Lance had to lean back to avoid bashing his nose against Coranâs.
âWhat is so marvelous, dear boyââ and oh, if Lance didnât feel like crying because Coran was still calling him âdear boyâ as if he were real and alive, ââis that you have exquisitely pure blue quintessence!â
He fell back, allowing Lance to settle on the table once more. The blue paladin frowned, opening his mouth to ask what, exactly, that meant in terms that his robo-brain could understand, but Coran was already back at the screen, poking at Lanceâs code. He tried not to be nervous that the Altean would introduce some kind of bug to his system.
âWhen you were, ah, created,â and here they all cringed, âyou were programmed with what amounts to the entire contents of a human psyche. The original Lanceâs thoughts, emotions, and impulses during any given situationâno doubt artificial scenarios orchestrated by your creator and presented to him as realâwere scanned and taught to an incredibly advanced AI base. That base learned from those memories and the emotions it âfeltâ associated with them, and once it learned enough, it was used to create, well, you!â
Another existential crisis was building in Lanceâs periphery.
His breathing began to speed upârespiration?âwhy would he need to breathe, he wouldnât, it was all fakeâ
Someone was calling his name in the background, that name that wasnât actually his because he wasnât a he, he was an it and oh diosâ
Two hands came down to grip his shoulders. Lance gasped, blinking up at blue eyes and ginger brows drawn tight with concern.
âMy boy, I apologize, that was not very tactful of me.â
Slowly the buzzing in Lanceâs earsâears? Auditory processors? what were theyâcalmed enough for him to blink back into the present. Coran was in front of him now, hands on each of his shoulders. Hunk and Pidge lingered in his periphery, eyes scared and worried as ifâ
As if they cared, as if he wasâŚ
but he wasnât. He didnât even deserve to think of himself as Lance becauseâ
Coran squeezed his arms lightly, bringing him back to the present.
âLad, I am so sorry,â he whispered, jewel-toned eyes full of regret. âIâplease allow me to explain, I never meant to insinuate that you⌠that you were any less than a person!â
Lance shook his head, no it was fine, of course it was fine, it was just the truth even if it hurt, but Coran was still speaking, and he owed it to the man to listen.
âPlease, just hear me, son. You were programmed, yes, but that changed once the quintessence entered your system.â
Lance just blinked at him in confusion; Hunk and Pidge seemed just as confused.
âYouâand the original youâhave blue quintessence of the purest kind I have ever seen. It is adaptable, fluid. Wild and free. It cannot be contained within the limits of your code.
âWhen you were infused with the quintessenceâand this is the process I assume it took, mind youâyou were given the seeds of a soul. Your quintessence has metamorphosed a bit, but it is still recognizable as originating from Lance McClain-Esposito. Once you received it, it grew. It adapted to its newâŚphysical structure, and expanded your programming with each new emotion, each new thought, each new feeling you experienced! That is why you never followed the prompts that would lead you to betray Voltron.â
Lance winced again, guilt churning in his not-stomach at the mere thought of betraying his friends. Oh Zarkon, he could haveâ
Coran squeezed his shoulder again. When Lance met his eyes, they were filled only with kindness.
âYou never followed that code sequence because it goes against your quintessential nature, Lance. You overwrote it all on your own.â
Lance blinked up at him, faintly registering Pidge damn near vibrating herself right off the table in excitement. Hunk was pacing, deep in thought, and Lance found himself tracking the yellow paladinâs steps as he processed the meaning of Coranâs words.
âSo thenâŚâ he breathed, âI⌠Iâm not a danger to the team?â
Coran smiled. âIndeed, my boy. But more importantly,â he knelt down so that he was on Lanceâs level, forcing the young paladin to look him in the eye.
âYou are a person, my boy. You are your very own person.â He continued as Lanceâs eyes began to water (how could he cry? Why was that a thing his creator had added?) and Pidge and Hunk stopped to listen.
Coran continued. âYou may be made differently than us, technically, but you are far more than a program. You have a soul and you are capable of making your own decisions. Your code cannot control you if what it commands clashes against what your soul desires. It cannot force you to act out its commands any more than an intrusive thought can force you to act upon it.â
And, well. Lance just broke down at that.